PART 25

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"shiva" shouted dhara as she made him turn towards her and raised her hand to hit him but stopped midway herself. Gautum closed his eyes feeling the intensity of words shiva spoke. Raavi stood numb there with her tears streming down. Shiva's hurtful words were ringing in her ears. she couldn't control any more and ran away. Gautum called her but she didn't turn. Shiva kept looking at the floor while dhara looked him with anger.

Dh: sharam nhi aayi....sharam nhi aayi tujhe shiva(yells)...uski galti thi, nhi thi...pta nhi....lekin tujhe ek baar bhi sharam nhi aayi uske maa-papa ka aise naam lete hue.....yeh toh nhi shikhaya maine aur maa ne tujhe....ye baat tu bhi jaanta hai ki raavi kabhi kisiko jaan ke dard nhi degi.....lekin tera ye gussa....shiva ek baat meri gaanth bandh le.....agr tune apne iss gusse ko control nhi kiya toh ye gussa tujhe kahinka nhi chodega.....

Saying this, she went to suman's room. Gautum followed. Shiva stood there realizing his own words.

Shiva's POV

Ye kya bol diya maine....ek baar bhi uski baat nhi sunni.....aur uski galti thi bhi toh ye nhi bolna chahiye tha....kya kar diya ye tune shiva.....jiske aasu nhi dekhe jaate usse hi aasu de diye.....iss sab ke baad main kaise soch sakta hu ki voh mujhe pyaar karegi.....maine kiya hi kya hai aisa jo vo mujhse pyaar kare....vo mujh jaise insaan se kabhi pyaar nhi karegi na vo mere jaisa ghatiya insaan deserve karti hai....

Shiva's pov ends

Shiva's thought process broke when krish came and told that suman was calling him. he went inside. Gaura were still upset with shiva. Suman called him near her and made him sit near her.

Su: (caressing his hairs) jaanti hu tu mujhse bahut pyaar karta hai....par iska matlab ye nhi ki tu kisi aur ko dukh pahunchaye......uss bechari ki koi galti nhi thi.....usne mujhe kaha ki main dhara ke aane pe hi dawai lu...pann main nhi maani.....isme uski kya galti....aur agr galti hoti bhi toh kya.....tune ek baar bhi nhi socha ki usse kaisa lage ga..hn.....

Shiva's eyes got teary. He softly mummles 'sorry' which was audible to all.

Dh: hume kya sorry bol rha hai shiva.....uska dil dukhaya hai tune.....usse maafi maang....samjha

Sh: ji Bhabhi....(determinantly)main jald se jald usse maafi maang lunga....

Shiva decided to apologise raavi the very next day thinking to give raavi sometime.

In evening, all members were having tea when dhara's phone rang. it was anita. Dhara picks up the call.

Dh: hello anita

An: hi dhara.....vo raavi phone nhi utha rahi...usse keh de ki ghar aa jaye hum sab kab se wait kar rahe hai....

Dh: *shocked to listen that raavi was not at home*.......(lies) vo anita, raavi na krish ko padai me help kar rahi hai.....jaise hi uska kaam hota hai main usse bhejti hu...okay?

An: acha thik hai....jaldi bhejna.....

Dh: hn

Dhara kept the call and looked shiva angrily who was looking her confused because of her lie. (dhara lied so that maami don't create a scene)

Dh: raavi abhi tak ghar nhi pahunchi.......

All got shocked as it had been 4-5 hrs of the incident and she was stil not home. but shiva was shocked the most. dhara was about to say something to him but before she could shiva took keys of his bike and rushed out to find raavi. All were shocked but knew that shiva should be the one to find her as he was the only one to hurt her.

On the other side, raavi was sitting on the sea shore crying. Shiva's hurtful words were ringing in her ears.

Raavi's POV

Itna hi jaanta hai tu mujhe......socha bhi kaise tune ki main kaaki ko......maa jaisi hai vo meri aur tu.....kyu karta hai tu mujhse itni nafrat ki uske aage tujhe kuch nhi dikhta.....aur chahe kitni bhi nafrat ho.....tune ek baar bhi socha nhi mere maa-papa ka naam aise lete hue.....kyu shiva....itni nafrat hai ki ek baar meri baat tak nhi sunni tune......aur main....main yahan soch rhi hu ki tu mujhse pyaar.....kaise bhul gyi tere liye main sirf maami ki behn ki beti hu....usse jyada kuch nhi...lekin agr aisa that oh tu kyu aaya kareeb....kyu dil pe apna naam likh diya...kyu.....

Raavi's POV ends

Raavi kept crying. After a while she felt someone coming towards her. then she heard the person calling her. she knew this voice. it was shiva. She got up and turned to leave but shiva held her hand stopping.

Sh: (slowly) raavi....sorry....

Raavi turned and looked him with red teary eyes filled full of anger and hurt. He knew that he hurt raavi a lot.

Sh: (bowing his head in guilt) mujhe pta hai ki mai-

Before he could complete, raavi jerked his hand away looking him with not-to-utter-a-word look.

Sh: (tries again) meri baat toh-

Ra: (shows him her hand).....(angrily) bas.....kuch mat bol...maine koi safai nhi maangi na.....chala ja yahan se...

Sh: *took step towards her*

Ra: *takes step back*.......tu nhi jayega?.....main hi chali jaati hu....

Saying this she turned around and started leaving. Shiva again went behind her. he stopped her and held his shoulders.

Sh: (guilty) dekh meri baat sun raavi....main jaanta hu main galt hu....gusse me jaane kya nhi bol gya pta nhi kaise main-

Ra: (angrily) kaise....(pushes him) main batati hu kaise....ye tere dimag me gussa hi gussa bahar hai iski vajha se.....itna gussa ki uski aag ki chapet me aake koi bhi jal jaaye....itna gussa ki tujhe apne samne koi dikhta hi nhi....ye gussa hai saari problem ki jad.....

Shiva bows her head down

Ra: dhara di kitni baar samjhaya hai tujhe ki tera ye gussa tujhe le dube ga.....par tujhe ispe control hi nhi hai....(grabbing his collar)....tere dimag me ye baat aayi bhi kaise shiva ki main...main kaaki ko maarna.....maa samaan hai vo meri......mere liye jaisi maasi hai vaisi hi kaaki.....(pushes him).....bachpan se jaanta hai na mujhe....bachpan se janta hai na....toh tune aaj tak nhi dekha ki tere pariwar ko humesha apna maana hai.....aur kya bola tha tune......mujhe family ki value nhi pta....yhi bola tha na....shiva, agr kisi ke paas ko cheez nhi hoti, toh usse hi uss cheezz ki keemat pta hoti hai.....aur ek anaath se jayada maa-baap ki keemat kisi aur ko nhi pta hoti....

Shiva still couldn't look at her. he knew that she was right.

Ra: ab kyu nhi dekh raha meri aankho me......hn?...abhi bhi tu yahan apne mann se nhi hoga main jaanti hu....kaha hoga dhara di ne, isliye aaya tu......maasi ke liye teri nafrat itni hai kya ki mera pyaar tujhe nazar aata hi nhi......bol....(sarcastically chuckles) aree main bhi kisse puch rahi hu....mujhe toh pta hona chahiye....main tere liye sirf maami ki bhen ki beti hu...raavi kabhi thi nhi.....(hitting her temple) main hi gadheri thi jo soch baithi ki mera pyaar ek tarfa nhi hoga, ki tere dil me bhi mere liye.....

Raavi stopped realizing what she was about to say whereas shiva looked at her with shock. Raavi closed her eyes and let her tears follow. Shiva was hell shocked by her revalation whereas raavi cursed herself for welcoming more hurt to her as she knew shiva hates her. she shook her heads as tears came down and started leaving when shiva held her wrist stopping her. both faced opposite direction.

Sh: apni baat toh bol di tune.....meri baat nhi sunegi......

Shiva turned to her. raavi tried to free her hand but his grip was so strong that she couldn't. then she realized that his arms went around her torso and his head at her shoulder.

Sh: (pulling her closer) nhi sunegi....ki tere bhootnath ko apni galti ka ehsaas hai...ki vo kisi ke kehne par nhi apne maan se tujhse maafi maangne aaya hai.....ki tere pyaar ek tarfa nhi hai....ki tere iss bandar ke dil me tere sirf pyaar hi pyaar hai....

Raavi froze. She was shocked after listening him. she just couldn't give any reaction. Fresh tears started rolling down her eyes. Shiva went infront of her and knelt down on his knees holding her hand in her.

Sh: (bowing his head down) bachpan se leke aaj tak tujhse nafrat ki aur vo bhi sirf isliye kyunki tu uss maami se judi hai....ye baat toh tu bhi maanti hai ki meri maami ke liye ye nafrat galt nhi hai....papa ko cheen liya mujhse....par tujhe uske hisse ki nafrat dena vo galt tha...bahut galt tha....maine toh itni galti ki hai ki main-....(shakes his head in regret)....aaj jo maine bola bahut galt tha....bahut jayada.....mere gusse ne mujhe sach me kahin ka nhi choda......

Shiva stood up and cupped her. she looked him with utmost shock.

Sh: pann ek baat sach hai raavi....iss dil me tere liye sacha pyaar hai....sirf pyaar.....akhirkaar mere dil se apne liye uss jhuti nafrat ko nikal ke tune apni jagha bana li......(joins his hand) raavi...mujhe please maaf karde...please ek aur mauka de de....main puri koshish karunga apne iss gusse ko control karne ki.....jaanta hu ki main tere pyaar toh kya teri maafi ke bhi laayak nhi hu.....par aaj main pehli baar khudgaraz ban raha hu....nhi reh paunga tere bina...please mujhe....

Tears didn't stop flowing from their eyes. Raavi was shocked with his words. Her heart wanted to believe him but still her mind gave her doubts.

Ra: (looking at him strenly) taras....(shiva looks at her with confusion)...taras kha rha hai na mujhe pe...ki maine isse hurt kiya....pyaar karti hai mujhse toh chalo maine bhi hn me hn mila deta hu....apni galti sudharne ke liye bol rha hai ne ye sab.....

Sh: (pulled her closer by shoulder) tujhe ye taras lag raha hai.....raavi ye taras nhi hai sacha pyaar hai....mujhe khud nhi pta ki kab hua....par tu meri duniya hai....

Ra: kaise maan lu?.....jaanta hai na tu khudko.....mujhse phir koi galti ho aur tu mujhe chod dega...tere gusse pe tera control hi nhi hai.....tut jaungi aur phir kabhi khudko jod nhi paungi......

Sh: (cups her face) aisa kabhi nhi hoga....main aisa hone nhi dunga.....tu hogi toh har cheez se lad jaunga... har cheez se seh lunga....bas tu mere saath rehna....main apne gusse pe...apni har galt cheez pe control kar lunga.....

Ra: pakka?...

Sh: pakka.....

https://youtu.be/ejYNrzoNJpM

Kehte hain:
Khuda ne iss jahaan mein
Sabhi ke liye kisi na kisi ko hai banaaya
har kisi ke liye
Raavi jumped and hugged him tightly. Shiva too held her close.

Tera milna hai uss rab ka ishaara
Maano mujhko banaya tere jaise hi kisi ke liye
Kehte hain:
Khuda ne iss jahaan mein
Sabhi ke liye kisi na kisi ko hai banaaya
har kisi ke liye
Both hugged each other like there was no tomorrow.

Tera milna hai uss rab ka ishaara
Maano mujhko banaya tere jaise hi kisi ke liye
Kuch toh hai tujh se raabta
Kuch toh hai tujh se raabta
Kaise hum jaane, hume kya pata
Kuch toh hai tujh se raabta

They just wanted the time to stop right there.

Tu humsafar hai
Phir kya fikar hai
Jeene ki wajah hi yehi hai
Marna issi ke liye
Kehte hain:
Khuda ne iss jahaan mein
Sabhi ke liye kisi na kisi ko hai banaaya
har kisi ke liye...
after feeling contented, they broke the hug. Now it was a bit awkward because of the change in emotions, in feelings. Raavi looked into her eyes only to find him gazing her lovingly. She felt shy. She turned to leave but shiva held her again by wrist.

Sh: (softly) main chod du ghar?....

Ra:*nods in no*

Sh: Bhabhi ne anita se kaha tha ki krish ko pada rhi hai isliye late hui...

Ra: *nods in yes*

Shiva left her wrist. She was about leave but she turned to him and said 'abhi kisi ko kuch nhi batana....'

https://youtu.be/u-FaTNxrWhw

Main vaari jaawa, main vaari jaawa
Saathon ki ho ya bin kasoor re
Saying this she ran away.

Main vaari jaawa, main vaari jaawa
Dil toh hoya majboor
shiva stood there smiling at her.

Main vaari jaawa, main vaari jaawa

She finally stopped at a tree and smiled widely remembering their confession.

[time lapse: next morning]
Choo liya tune labh se aankhon ko
Mannatein poori tumse hi

Shiva was coming downstairs when he saw raavi talking to dhara in angan.
Tu mile jahaan, mera jahaan hai wahan
Raunake saari tumse hi

There eyes met. Both looked each other intendly. But raavi adverted her gaze feeling shy.
Ho choo liya tune labh se aankhon ko
Mannatein poori tumse hi

Dhara asked raavi to bring something from terrace. raavi went towards stairs and find him stnding on her way.
Tu mile jahaan, mera jahaan hai wahan
Raunake saari tumse hi
she pushed him and ran to the terrace. he followed.
Piya o re piya, piya re piya re piya
as they reached there, shiva caught her pulled her closer. She looked down.

Piya o re piya, piya re piya re piya
he lifted her chin and made her look in his eyes.

They looked each other intently till they heard dhara shouting 'raavi...mila dabba?....'. they both jumped apart. Raavi took the jar and ran downstairs leaving a blushing shiva behind.

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finally completed this....though wanted to post it yesterday on 'ONE YEAR OF SHIVI' but got struck in some work....so posting it today.....

hope you guys liked it.....this is the 6th time I am writing shivi's confession...tired to make it diffrent....I hope really different ke chakkar me I didn't spoil it.....do review and tell your favourite portion in this.....

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