Preeti's Point of view

He take a deep breath and sigh..

"Preeti..this wedding will not be going to take place. I don't want to marry you." He said..

Floor skipped under my feet. Fat tears escaping from my eyes like a river. I was so much shocked that I can't process what he just said. I was shocked to the core.

"Hello....Preeti...Are you there?" He asked me.

I was so shocked that I didn't realize he is calling me.

"I'm so sorry if I did something wrong to make you upset. I'm so sorry for that day when you snap out on me. I shouldn't call you that much. I should understand that you were busy." I said after coming out of my shock. I sobbed hard. Tears are constantly falling from my eyes.

"No, Preeti..it's not your fault." He said.

"Then tell me what suddenly happened. I'm so sorry for everything but please don't say this. You love me right then please forgive me last time. I will never hurt you again. Forgive me...please..please.." I begged to him between my sobbing.

"I told you it's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself. I just don't want to marry you." He said.

"Siddharth..if this is some kind of a joke please then stop it at this right instant. Please don't say such things." I said wiping my tears but fresh tears escape from my eyes immediately. I was wishing desperately that he is kidding with me.

"This is not a joke Preeti. I'm serious about this." He said seriously. Though I also didn't find any kind of teasing in his tone.

"Why are you saying such things. Why don't you want to marry me? Atleast give me a reason." I whispered still crying.

"There is other woman in my life." He said tiredly.

"No this is not true. I don't believe you. You are telling me a lie. You still love me." I said getting little angry on me.

"No, It's not a lie. I'm telling you truth. I don't love you anymore. I'm in love with other girl. She is one of my ex. When I met her again, I realized that I still love her." He said it all in a one breath after a little pause.

"..and you realize it just a week before our wedding. Now tell me
Mr. Siddharth Kapoor how am I going to tell my parents that the man they chose for me wanted to break an engagement because he is in love with someone else, not your daughter." I said angrily while wiping my tears but they didn't stop falling from my eyes.

"Don't worry about that Maa and dad will tell your parents about my decision." He said.

"Please Siddharth don't do this. I'm sorry I shouldn't have shout on you. I beg you please don't do this..please.." I said while breaking into a loud sob. I put my hand on my mouth to suppress my sob.

"Preeti please stop crying. You know that.. I really hate those tears in your eyes." He whispered.

"Then please don't do this to me. My parents will die in shame.. you just marry me. You can date any girl you love after marriage. I will never interfere in your life and will not say any word to anyone. But please marry me for my parents sake." I plead to him not to do this.

"Sorry Preeti I can't help in this. I can't marry you if I'm in love with someone else. I can't cheat on her. Please don't call me again and keerti." He said and after this he hung up.

I call him again but he cut my calls. I texted him also but he didn't reply. When I didn't stop calling him he put my number in block list.

I pull my both knees up to my chest and cried covering my face with my both palm. My life is turn up to down in just half an hour. The heaviness in my heart take over. I clutched my night crop top over my heart to suppress the heaviness but it gone all in waste.

Is this true he never love me. It just a affection for him towards me. Is all the promise he made were all false. All the lovely kisses which he gave me were all fake. I was crying like a mad person.

Now in which face I will tell mummy- papa about this. They will break into pieces. I always gave them sorrow and this is the biggest sorrow I gave them. I never made them happy and now I will become a burden to them. I always failed them. I'm a shallow for everyone.

Suddenly I heard a shouting from downstairs. I got up immediately and run to the downstairs.

When I came to the downstairs Shivani di call me in her highest peach. I saw a horror in her face. When my eyes fell into mummy horror take place in my eyes too.

Mummy is falling on the floor unconscious. Her head is on Shivani di's lap and she rubbing mummy's palm while papa was rubbing her toes.

"Preeti call the doctor fast." Shivani di said panicky.

I was looking at her dumbly. My whole body became numb. I can't process what is happening around me.

"Preeti...Preeti call the doctor fast. We don't have time." I came out from my shock when Papa called me again. Panic is clearly visible on their faces.

"Di, what happened to mummy why is she unconscious." I asked her while sitting beside her. My eyes welled up all in tears.

"Call the doctor fast. I'll tell you later." She said with a panic.

I nodded my head and got up immediately. I ran to upstairs to my room to take my phone. When I find my phone I called doctor immediately.

Doctor came after sometime and examine mummy.

"What happened doctor. Is my wife alright." Papa asked doctor when he came out the room after examine mummy.

"Don't worry she is alright now. She get a hypertension. Her blood pressure became higher suddenly. That's why she fainted. I gave her injection. Now She is out of danger. Just make sure she doesn't get any kind of stress. She will gain consciousness at morning." Doctor said.

"Give her these medicines. she will be fine soon." He said while giving a paper of prescription to papa.

"Di what happened. Why mummy suddenly got a high blood pressure." I asked di after doctor left.

Shivani di didn't say anything. She hugged me and started crying. I look at papa and I saw tears in his eyes first time in my life and I understand immediately that they know about the wedding. That time I just wanted to die.

I don't deserve to live. I don't have any right to live after giving so much sorrow to my parents. My mother is lying unconscious on bad, my sister is crying because of me and my father have tears in his eyes first time, only because of me. I don't deserve them. I don't deserve to anybody. I don't deserve to be live.
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'The customer you are trying to reach is currently busy.'

I pull my phone from my ear and looked at it. I press again call icon on Siddharth name and put phone on my ear.

'The customer you are trying to reach is currently busy.'

The lady said again on phone. He still put my number in block list.

I was sitting in a balcony of my room looking at the half fades moon in the sky. Tonight is a foggy night and I could see hardly anything outside.

Cold wind of January flown to my face and socking my tears on my cheeks. I pulled my hoodie more to me. I'm wearing his hoodie which he gave me the night when we were in fields at night. I wanted to feel his touch on me. I wanted to snuggle in his fragrance.

It's been a month when he broke engagement with me. It's been a month when he threw a stone on my heart and make it shattered into a million pieces.

My every night spend in my balcony which remind me the day when we both sitting here, cuddling each other. Everything in my room, reminds me about him. He is everywhere. I can still smell his scent in my room.

I call him everyday in a hope he will pick my calls or call me back but it didn't happened. He never called me back after that day. The heavy weight in my heart make its home there permanently. But I'm getting used to it slowly.

Shivani di left to her home after staying here for few days until mummy's health getting improved. Mummy is fine now but she is on blood pressure pills to control her blood pressure.

When everyone knows about the wedding, some people taunt us, some of them try to find the faults in me and people which had a dome humility in them, they looking at me with pity. My family go through a lot of shame when people laugh at behind their back. My family go through a torture because of me. I failed to give happiness to them.

I closed my eyes and fresh tears escape from my eyes. My heart will always be belong to him. I never stopped to loving him. He is my first love and I can't stop loving him whether he love me or not. My heart refused not to love him.

I don't know how long I was sitting there with my broken heart, with his thoughts in my mind. I locked myself in my room. I rarely go downstairs. I skipped my meals many time.

I wiped my tears with my palm and sniff. I took my phone from the floor and look at the time. It shows 3:25 A.M. of the next day.

I got up from the floor and walked to washroom. I looked at myself in mirror. The color on my face is faded and looked pale make me look almost white. My eyes are puffy and red along with my ears and nose due to the crying.

I washed my face with cold water and splashing water on my face until I felt a burning sensation in my eyes. I closed the tap and wipe my face with towel.

I switched off the light and came out from the washroom. Suddenly my eyes meet with most mesmerizing face in my life. His smile reminds me how my heart skip a bit just a smile on his face.
Tears escape from my eyes. I can't stop myself to love him. He becomes my life now.

His photo is still on my bed side table. I don't know why but I don't have courage to remove his photo beside table.

I walk back to washroom and wash my face again. When I came back to room I walk towards the table where his photo is placing. I took his photo from table and put it in my wardrobe, hiding behind my clothes without looking at it. I know if I looked at it once again my heart refuse to do it.
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Ring...ring..

Ring...ring..

I was sitting in my balcony again, missing him so much. My phone is kept ringing. This is fifth time my phone is ring but I ignore it. Kshama is calling me after that day when she came to know about my wedding. She even came to my home to meet me but I don't want to meet her, I don't want to meet anyone. So I told mummy to tell her that I was not in a home. I know Kshama knew that I was telling a lie but she respect my decision and leave me on my own.

Ring...ring..

Ring...ring..

"Hello.."she said after I decided to pick her call. I can't ignore her long. She care about me lot and I can't keep dodging her.

"Hello...." I said in a dull voice.

"How are you Preeti ?" She asked me in a concern voice.

I didn't say anything. Tears rolled down from my eyes. I also don't know how I am? I sniffed and wiped tears with my palm.

"Preeti I know this is tough. It's More than a month since but you have to move on." She said in a concerned voice.

"For how long you locked yourself in your room. You have to come out one day. Join office again you will feel better." she said.

"I'm not ready to face anyone." I said in my dull voice.

I'm not ready to face anyone. Everyone will make fun of me. Everyone knows about my engagement.

"Preeti don't think so much. We will do fun like before. Please think about uncle and aunty. They are worried for you. At least for them join office again." She said, try to make me understand.

"Please Kshama..I don't want to do anything. I need sometime to recover myself and I don't know if I want to join office again and you know why? It's belongs to him. It's remind me of him." I whispered.

"Okey I won't force you. But think again, okey." She said.

"Okey.." I said and after that I hung up.

He is the owner of my company and everything is related to him, reminds me about him and it drive me crazy. I don't want to do anything. I just wanted to lost in my world where he and I are living happily as a wedding couple. Where he loves me and cherish me with his kisses. I know it's all in my imagination but It console my heart.

Suddenly I felt thirsty. I got up from cold floor and walk in the room to drink water.The water jug is empty.
I huffed and make my way to downstairs.

I walked into kitchen and drink water. When I make my way back to my room I heard voices coming from mummy and papa's room. Mummy is talking to papa tensely. I walk closer to their room. Their room's door is slightly open. I hide myself behind the door and eavesdrop their conversation.

"Ramesh ji, how we will pay this debt?" Mummy asked to papa worriedly.

"I don't know Isha. I took a loan from bank on the bases of this house for Preeti's wedding. I thought I can pay the loan because my shop business was doing well but after engagement broke everyone thought that we were at fault and it effect the business of my shop." Papa said.

I was shocked when I heard this. I broke into tears. I never thought in my dream papa took a loan for my wedding on bases of our house which he made lovingly.

I put my hand on my mouth to suppress my sob. How much I'm troubling to my parents. They always do so many thing to me but I give them nothing. I'm a curse to them. No one wants a child who is useless, who is not able to give happiness to his family.

I wiped my tears and run to my room. I opened my wardrobe and took out my FD (saving) papers along with my jewelry which I bought for my savings.

I know this is a small amount but it will help papa. This is the least I can do for them. I don't want to be a burden to them. They do a lot to me and now it's my turn to do something for them.

I closed my wardrobe and walked to downstairs.

I knocked mummy papa's bedroom.

"Papa..may I come in." I said while walking inside the room.

"Yes beta...come in." Papa said.

"Papa take this." I said while handing him my saving papers and jewelry.

"What is this Preeti.. " Papa asked me looking at the papers.

"Papa I heard all your conversation and I know about the loan, which you took for my wedding. Please take this. I know this is not enough but I'll pay the loan in installments." I said.

"Preeti..take this back. We can handle everything." Mummy said looking at me.

I walk to mummy and kneel down. I take her hands on her lap and hold them.

"Papa and you always make sure about my happiness. You never treat me less then Anshul and Shivani di after all my failures. I never make you proud. This is the least I can do for both of you. Please let me do this." I whispered. Tears are welled up in my eyes and threatening me to fall but I control them.

"This is not your fault beta.." Mummy said putting her hand on my cheek. I saw tears in her eyes.

"Please papa.." I whispered, with pleading to him silently through my eyes.

"But beta this is from your savings. Take it back. It will help you in future." Papa said.

"No, Papa please..it's request." I said looking at him.

"Okey.." Papa whispered while nodding his head.

I sniffed and wiped my tears.

"Both of you should sleep now." I said while getting up from the floor.

Mummy nodded her head. I make her lay down on bed and tuck her on a duvet.

"Good night Papa.." I said and walk out from their room.
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Preeti- I 'll join office from tomorrow.

I sent message to kshama to let her know that I will join the office Tomorrow. I'll have to work to pay the loan. I'm ready to face everyone. I can do anything to my family. If I have to work in his office then I have to do it and it's not like I will see him everyday.

He is way far from me in New York with his love, living his life happily with his love. I will always pray for him to be happy and will get everything what he wish for. I pray for him that He will get most loving woman whom he loved. What if it's not me, what if I'm not happy. He has every right to marry his love and live happy with her, have kids with her and see his future with her. I will always pray for you Siddharth.