Jaykee

19 February 2017

Knowing that today is my beloved Sunday, what always comes to my mind is to sleep a little while longer until 10.30 am instead of 6.15 am. Nevertheless, I have to sacrifice my plan because today is different. Even worse than my waking time before, my brother, who is sort of a low key ARMY, comes bursting my door without knocking to wake me up.

With a little reluctance, I squeeze open my eyes while listening to what he trumpets towards my unprepared eardrum. "Sis sis sis, BTS had just uploaded a new MV." I know the new song's name – Not Today. "I believe you'll love it, sis. This MV is more hype than Fire!" The word 'really' eventually appears in my mind in block letters and bold alongside with a question mark and an exclamation mark.

Upon hearing my brother's comments, I immediately am wide awake while what happens next is me, springing up from bed and sprinting downstairs to watch the music video using the television. I don't care whether or not my brother has followed or my father would allow, I just want to see the boy I'm fond of.

"That's early," says my father when he takes another bite on his whole meal butter-kaya bread.

"Morning dad," I salute without even looking at him while my instincts and desire drive me to the remote control. Light footsteps soon can be heard, indicating my brother has returned to finish his breakfast.

"I won't forget to eat, dad." My brother reassures although my father doesn't seem to be convinced. As he doesn't voice out at the sight of me turning on the TV bravely, I decide to try my luck and continue the short procedure. After entering the Youtube channel, the word – not today – is then typed on the Search bar.

After choosing on the right square that is presented with the very title, the three of us then start watching the video. Once the music starts, I keep reminding myself not to fangirl especially when my father is around. Unlike Spring Day which is soothing, the boys in the music video are seemed to be showing their magnificent dance moves.

In fact, Namjoon's hair colour is different again. This time, it's purple instead of light brown. His narrowed eyes almost drives my soul right into the television as I watch him rapping his lines. People dressing in black surrounds him, adding the effect of "woah" in all their audience.

Chong jojun balsa!

My mouth turns circular when the dancers behind the boys appear together in the group dance. Watching them dance under the pink sky and on a big piece of ice, those background dancers make me think about the walkers. What I mean is those who'd acted in Alan Walker's Alone MV. When all the members dance with Jungkook leading in front, it is when the scene becomes inerasable in my mind.

"Sis, we have to go," says my brother as he ruffles my hair along his way to the door. Unlike the international schedule, Sunday is considered as the first school day for students studying in Malaysian government schools. As Malaysia is a multicultural country, this type of schedule is designed for the Muslims as they need to pray longer on Friday if I'm not wrong.

"You should have brushed your teeth first, Qi." My father reminds in his solemn, fatherly style while following my brother to the door. His right hand is holding onto the handle of his Lenovo bag.

"Sorry dad, but I'll do it after watching the video." My father stays silent as he sees me smiling. During all those days I've spent to study for exam, I seldom laugh and smile and grin. What only appears on my face is my furrowed brows. Maybe this is why he doesn't choose to stop me.

After watching the gentlemen leave, I pause the video before darting upstairs to brush my teeth. Then, I run back down to the living room to switch on the jogging machine. Yes, I am fully motivated to get myself fit thanks to the song. Perhaps the word 'not today' means today is not a usual Sunday for me to waste like before. While running, I play the video and repeat it thrice.

Not Today will become my latest favourite song starting now.

Soon, my body is already caked with sweat yet I feel lively instead of tired like before. Switching off the machine, I wipe my sweaty face and neck while taking a seat on a rattan chair. Reaching for the remote control, I decide to watch the reaction videos posted by other Youtubers. One of them is JREKML.

Throughout the watching process, I can't stop myself from leading out pathetic laughs. Not that I love to laugh at everything, it's because of the edited part which is done to make the audience laugh. In fact, the Youtuber's reaction towards the video is truly hilarious.

"Good morning," calls my mother while walking down the stairs. I bet she must be awakened because of my horselaughs. A naughty smile creeps onto my face when my freshly brushed teeth is revealed through the grin.

https://youtu.be/iFx8PGuBUTM

Credited to JREKML

"Morning mum." I turn and greet with that funny face still plastered on. "BTS has their new music video released and I just can't wait to watch it." Excitement and happiness make me end my sentence with a giggle.

"Oh, that Jungkook's team?" My mother confirms, earning a nod and 'yes' from me. "They're really doing a hard job." She then comments lightly while proceeding towards the kitchen. I remember watching MAMA with my mother last year and both of us know that BTS had achieved the Album of the Year Award for the first time. I remember seeing their tears flowing out of happiness. Besides that, I also remember them preparing to clap for the other K-pop group before realizing that they were the winner.

Switching off the television, I sigh inwardly while heading upstairs to clean myself. However-

"Qi, your phone is ringing," calls my mother when I activate my own physical break system. "It's Jungkook, dear!" She adds, leading me to dash back down and reach my phone as soon as possible.

"Yoboseyo." I greet rhythmically.

"Jaykee," calls the boy happily. "Have you watch our new MV? How was it? Do you like it?" And I'll never expect the next moment of me being bombarded with questions about the music video.

I scream in delight like those crazy fan girls while answering, "I loveeeee it! You guys are so cool!!" In the meantime, I can imagine Jungkook pulling the phone away from his ear when I blurt out my genuine feelings and thoughts upon the video.

Upon hearing my answers, Jungkook rewards me with his bright chuckle. "Glad you loveeeee it, Jaykee. You know what? It was so cold back there, unlike your hot and sticky Malaysia, this is totally a different place." Jungkook grumbles while I listen with giggles. I remember seeing them their exhaled gases turn into white vapour. Besides that, there are also snowflakes floating around them as can be seen in the MV.

"Steal Yoongi's jacket then." I make a naughty suggestion. "His jacket looks warmer." Indeed, that's a leather jacket. Boys studying in the same campus as mine love wearing such jackets. When being asked for a reason, there would be a high tendency for them to answer this very question – it makes us look good.

"You want the Golden Maknae to strike again eh?" asks Jungkook with teasing laughs, leading out a dry chuckle from me. "Jaykee," Just like last time when we were eating lunch, his call pulls me back to reality. "I have to attend my Japan fan meeting later. After this, today will be a very busy day. So, have a good holiday. We'll talk often like this, yaksok (promise)?" A bitter smile creeps up onto my face.

"Thanks Kook, I will."

"Again, kamsa hamnida (thank you) for supporting BTS, Jaykee. Annyeong (Bye)," says Jungkook with his satisfied and lively tone. "We'll talk often." An imagination of him waving at me from afar reveals in my head, making me realise how far away the distance is between the both of us.

"Annyeong (Bye)." I hang up the phone and my heart sinks immediately. To be honest, no matter how many times Jungkook has promised to talk to me often, I hate that I have to end every bit of our conversations with the word 'goodbye'. Before my tears roll off, I dart upstairs for shower, hoping to wash my sorrow away. Then, I'll have my breakfast to eat my happy life out. Sometimes, food heals me, even though not every of them appear to be tasty and beautiful.

Perhaps I'm as greedy as those fan girls, because I really, really want to see Jungkook right now. I have to say that by looking into his eyes and watching him smile at me, my day would become fantastic. Regardless of how many bad lucks striking towards me, Jungkook's smile would always lead me towards thinking on the positive side.

However, it's definitely not today.

*Surprise update today~My holiday is coming, I'm going to be busy if I start doing my part-time job. But don't worry, I'll try to manage okay~ Still will update one chapter every week. If I can't, I'll put a notice or something. So, see you again~

First updated in May 14, 2017.
Last edited in May 31, 2018.