So I just want to write or-I don't know type this but I searched some signs and symptoms and looked up on sites I just found out that I have social anxiety. I cried about it like an hour while typing this. I know I'm a sorry excuse for anything but I just knew something was wrong with me since I was-I don't know! 6 or 7 then it all came to me all this years I was always being teased and me having trust issues, even to my mom I kept some secrets from her that are probably forgoten by now, always bullied (since elementary), taken advantage of and other things. . . . And I want to experience things like drink wine (light alchohol and flavoured) but i want to experience it with my parents first. Even the first two weeks of j.high my mom would always walk me to the schools' transportation.

Sorry for rambling I just have to get it out of me
(^_^")

I'm a well known good intention badass now at school!! But I still have troubles interacting with some people and activities or group projects and such, I most defenitely hate other P.E. activities like partners or groups well my bff is always partnered with the other student but if it goes like that she comforts me and tell that I would just partner with my seatmate (my seatmate is a kind hearted girl ^~^) I trust her enough to share half of my life and some embarassing moments in it and hers too.

Writing (typing) this made me better it stopped me from hysterically crying for hours and theirs no one helping bc everyone is asleep tonight and I don't want to disturb them.

Love you guys who is reading this useless book of mine sorry 😅