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~{Y/N}'s POV~

"The Shinigami Realm, huh?" I muttered, gazing at the gloomy area. "It seems so... Bare."

"Don't worry. Once we get closer you'll see what it's like. And then you can go home. Wanna take a break now that our goal's in sight?" B asked, and I nodded.

"Might as well." I agreed, plopping down on the ground beneath us.

"So? Getting excited?"

"Not particularly. I just somehow feel..." I droned off.

Incomplete.

"Well, don't feel any kind of nervousness, alright? You're gonna be on Earth again pretty soon!!"

"That's true," I agreed, "But, I kinda wish Mel was here for it."

Why am I always like this? Indecisive, and regrets it all at the last moment, when it's too late?

"Being my husband and all, I wish he could see Lawliet again, too."

B gave me a sympathetic smile and took my hand. "Don't worry. It's gonna work itself out."

"Mmm." I hummed, and I heard muffled laughter coming from behind us.

B seemed to hear it to, and he jumped up, rolling up the sleeves of his shirt and cracking his neck. "I'm gonna go see what the fuck that was."

"No, B, it's probably nothing." I said, and he shook his head.

"Someone's following us. I'm gonna go see who it is." He whisper-yelled, running off to a large rock not too far from where I was sitting.

~B's POV~

I followed the sound to the rock and turned the corner. "A, I know you're following us. Stop." I said, before even looking at the crouched boy.

"Eh? You knew?" A questioned, standing up and dusting off his pants.

"Of course I knew, I'm not stupid." I scoffed. "Besides, I can hear you laughing from all the way over there."

"Hmm, whatever. I do have something I wanna ask you, though."

Oh, God, no.

"What do you want, A? Seriously, I don't want anything to do with you right now."

"I wanna know," he growled, grabbing a fistful of my hair, "Why you're running after that girl when you've already got me."

Ahh, A's dominant side!! It's been so long since I've seen it!!

"W-who said that I've got you, hmm?" I managed to squeak, and his grip tightened.

"Me, you dumbass. You're mine."

Now, I had told {Y/N} that I wasn't submissive, and that A was the one taking it. But being submissive with A was the only time I was submissive at all. And God, having his hand in my hair like that drove me wild.

No, B, don't let him see you wanting him. You have more important things to do.

"A, l-let go," I begged, lightly hitting his hand to try and prove my point.

"As if I'm going to listen. Come on, B. You know the routine. On your knees. Or do we have to do training since its been such a long time?"

No, I can't. {Y/N}'s right there. If I take too long, she's gonna come over here and--

I was pushed to my knees in front of A, and somehow, something in me snapped.

"You know what to do, B. Get to work." He ordered, and I nodded, pulling down his zipper and pants, causing him to hum in anticipation. "It's been so long since you've done this. Do you need to familiarize yourself with sucking cock again?"

I shook my head, pulling his member out of his underwear and licking up the sides. A blush slowly tinted his cheek,and I took pride in the fact that I was still able to make him completely fall apart with pleasure.

"Ahh, that's my good boy," he mused, shooting me a toothy grin. "Always such a good little cockslut for me."

Ahh, I have to hurry up, else {Y/N}'s gonna see us...

"You know, B," A gasped, "I missed this. I missed having you with me. I missed you being under me, I missed everything with you. I missed you."

I felt a shiver go down my spine and I sucked harder before pulling my mouth off and wrapping a hand around A instead, my tongue hanging out my mouth.

"A..." I mumbled, "I missed you too. I'm yours. All yours."

"My little slut," he mused, tugging on my hair, and I moaned loudly.

We both froze as we heard footsteps coming closer. "Ahh, B...? You okay over there?"

Answer her, he mouthed, and I nodded obediently.

"Yeah, {Y/N}, everything's fine. Gimme a minute, alright?" I managed, and A smirked, pulling my hair harder.

"Oh, alright," she said, and the footsteps went away, getting softer as she walked away.

A pushed me away and zipped up his pants, fixing his clothes to look proper again. "That's enough for now," he said, "Since {Y/N} got suspicious. Come on, let's go get whatever needs to be done finished so you can I can have our own little alone time."

A-alone time?

"W-what do you mean by 'alone time'?" I asked, and he smirked.

"You'll see once we get there."

He extended a hand to me and helped to pull me up, and I fell right onto him. "A..." I whispered against his chest.

He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head, causing the blood in my cheeks to run warm. "Come on now, B," he replied, "Let's go get this over with."

I nodded and followed him as I tailed behind him to where {Y/N} was sitting. When she saw A, she stood up, narrowing her eyes. "B, why is he...?"

"He'd been following us," I explained, "Don't worry. He's gonna take us to the Shinigami Realm."

"Yeah. I know exactly what we're doing.  I've tried to do it before," A said, and I turned to him.

"What do you mean, 'you've tried to do it before'...?" I questioned, and he remained silent.

"A?" {Y/N} asked, "What did you try to do?"

"Go back," he answered, "To see B. And there's not a way to go back without getting a Death Note."

He tried to come back to see me...?

"You... tried to go back to see me?" I asked, and he nodded.

"I did. But once I saw you leave Wammy's House, I figured you'd moved on. You killed people. You did your own thing."

"So you did try to see me!" I exclaimed, "This whole time, I thought you'd left me behind."

"I'd never leave you behind. I just... went crazy."

So now I can finally live out the love story with A that I'd always dreamed of, huh?

"Wait," {Y/N} interrupted, her voice cracking,  "You're telling me that this was all for nothing? There's no way to go back?"

Ah, shit... I forgot. {Y/N}...

~{Y/N}'s POV~

"Wait," I said, "You're telling me that this was all for nothing? There's no way to go back?"

No... it's impossible. There has to be a way.

God, please. Haven't Mello and I suffered enough? Jesus, all I wanted to do was see my baby.

"Well, I don't know. I refused to steal a Death Note from any of the Shinigami, so maybe if you get one then you can travel with them. Or by yourself. But as far as I know, there's no way to go back. We're here forever." A explained, and I felt my blood run cold.

"No..." I whispered, "There's gotta be a way..."

"{Y/N}," B said, stepping towards me, and I shook my head.

"You told me, B, that there was a way," I mumbled, "You did say that it was nearly impossible, but you said that there was a way."

"That's from what I'd learned about MU as a living person... since I'd had the Shinigami Eyes, I read into it. I thought..."

"You thought wrong," I choked out, tears flowing down my cheek. "Now I'm away from my husband and my best friend, who probably hate me right now, and I'm away from my baby."

"{Y/N}," A said, "If you can get ahold of a Death Note, then there might still be a way, you know..."

"Why would I want something that completely and utterly destroyed my life? If it weren't for that stupid notebook, I would still be alive! L would've been alive! Mello, Matt and I wouldn't have left Wammy's House!! If it weren't for that fucking notebook, I would've had a semi-normal life!"

"{Y/N}..." B uttered softly, and I felt myself shaking.

"I just want to go home," I sobbed, "I want to be with my family again. I don't wanna be dead. I wanna live. I wanna live with Matt, and L, and Mello. I wanna be with Mello again."

B walked up to be and wrapped his arms around me and I fell into his shoulder, letting myself cry. I was so fed up with everything at that point, and all I could do was cry and let my frustration out.

~Mello's POV~

"So," Matt said, "What happens if there actually is a way for her to go back to the living world?"

I remained quiet, not wanting to answer the question. I was already worried and stressing over not knowing what B was up to. Thinking about {Y/N} leaving me behind was a separate issue altogether.

She had promised never to leave me...

Matt noticed the silence and gave me a sympathetic smile. "It's okay. She's not an idiot. She wouldn't leave you behind."

"I know," I mumbled, "But even you know... I don't like being away from her. It kills me."

"Back then, you had the strength to try and leave her at Wammy's House with me. She was so destroyed that she went looking for you with me. It hurts her, too."

"Yeah, but..." I sighed, "Somehow, I've got a bad feeling."

We remained quiet until L and Light suddenly stopped. "Uh, guys?" He said, pointing at three figures in the distance.

""Why would I want something that completely and utterly destroyed my life? If it weren't for that stupid notebook, I would still be alive! L would've been alive! Mello, Matt and I wouldn't have left Wammy's House!! If it weren't for that fucking notebook, I would've had a semi-normal life!" One figure yelled.

"Mello, Matt and I...?" {Y/N}!

I began to walk towards the figure.

"I just want to go home. I want to be with my family again. I don't wanna be dead. I wanna live. I wanna live with Matt, and L, and Mello. I wanna be with Mello again." She cried, and a black haired person wrapped his arms around her.

B.

Then who's...?

As I studied the third figure, a pit formed in my stomach, making me feel uneasy. I could tell after only a few moments who it was. The very first Wammy's House letter... A.

With the uneasy feeling, I ran to {Y/N} and when I got there a minute later, I pulled B off her and hugged her.

"{Y/N}!" I exclaimed, and her eyes widened.

"M-Mello?!" She yelled, "How... when? How are you here?"

"Matty told me that you and B were going to the Shinigami Realm, and I just... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, {Y/N}." I said, running my hands through her hair.

"No, Mel, this is my fault," she said, her voice cracking, "We both came all this way for nothing."

"Wait... what?"

"There's no way back, Mel. You were right all along," she explained. "Once you're dead, that's it. We went through all of this for nothing."

"Ah, not exactly," A interrupted, "If you get your hands on a notebook then there's a possibility of going back."

"I told you," she hissed, "I'm not even touching the notebook that ruined our fucking lives. Even if I wanted to, it's fucked up, isn't it? I don't wanna drive myself insane."

"It's not the notebook that drives you insane, it's the power. So if you don't use it, then you should be fine."

"Listen, A, I'm sorry, but your boyfriend already wasted enough of my energy and time with this false hope crap. All I wanted to do was see my baby.l

"Stupid girl," A muttered, "We're dead. Did you actually think that there was a way of going back without the notebook?"

"Hey, watch it," Matt warned, stepping forward from behind me to place a protective arm on {Y/N}. "Don't call her stupid."

"Ah, Matty!!" She squealed, pulling him in for a hug. "Sorry, Matt, you've probably been worried, too!"

"It's okay, {Y/N}, just don't do that next time. Had Mells and I in tears at some points."

{Y/N} looked at the two of us with a pout and she sighed. "I'm sorry, I should've listened to the two of you."

It's okay. We're all together again.

"You know, {Y/N}," A spoke up again, "I know everything about you. I've been watching your life go by while I've been up here. Why is it really that you wanna go back?"

"Eh?" She hummed, cocking an eyebrow.

"It's not your baby, I know that. Else you wouldn't have left the baby with your sister-in-law and went off to basically kill yourself in some stupid mission. Why do you wanna go back?"

"Kill yourself in a stupid mission"...?

"Excuse you, A, my woman would've saved all three of us if it weren't for the notebook. The guys that killed Matt were under mind control, and Takada wrote our names in the notebook. So fuck you."

"Mel..." she whispered.

"She's not going back for the baby, Mello. Or at least, not only the baby. And maybe you guys don't realize it yet. {Y/N} probably doesn't even realize herself, but there's an ulterior motive for her going back."

"I don't wanna listen to this crap," Matt said, pulling on his goggles and rolling up his sleeves. He walked over to A and smirked. "Listen here, you fucker. {Y/N}'s my girl. You mess with one of us, you mess with all three. Keep talking, and Mells and I will put you through a fucking wall."

"Baby boy's acting tough, huh?" A mused, "You're as dark as she is deep down. You love her. And at some point, you were willing to do whatever it takes just to get her."

Matt grit his teeth and pulled back his fist, but I caught his arm. "Not now," I said, "Come on, we have {Y/N}, we can go our separate ways."

Matt exhaled and looked back at me, fire burning in his eyes. "She's not dark."

"I know, Matty, but we have her. Nothing else matters now."

He nodded and walked away, {Y/N} grabbing one of his hands and one of mine. As we walked away, we saw L and Light waiting for us. {Y/N} paid no attention and didn't say a single word, but gave Light the deadliest glare I'd ever seen from her.

"What," he began, "Is the matter with her, now? I'm not scared of her eyes, y'know..."

"Shut up," she whispered, "You have no right to act tough in this situation."

"Don't I? I'm not responsible for your death, since you said it yourself, Kiyomi Takada killed you."

"And why did she end up doing that? Because of Kira. You drove the world into ruin, Light Yagami. You drove my world into ruin."

"I went crazy. It wasn't my intention, {Y/N}. I just wanted to make the world a better place."

Better place, my ass.

"I'm sorry, Light, but you didn't. You tried to play God. You did everything wrong. You completely ruined the world."

We all went silent, and {Y/N} moved closer to me, pulling Matt with her. "I'm sorry, you two..."

I kissed the top of her head and she looked up at me with eyes that were shining with tears. "No, baby, it's my fault," I apologized, "I'm sorry, okay? I'm just... you know me. I can't deal with stuff like this like you can."

"I shouldn't have let you go with B, {Y/N}," Matt said, hugging her from behind. "All of this could've been avoided if I'd just been more persistent with you. I'm sorry, {Y/N}."

"No, you guys, I need to learn how to listen to you," she insisted, "I gave us all this false ass hope and I have nothing to show for it."

"It's okay, {Y/N}, you're with us, now, okay?" I said, "You're safe now."