(Y/N)'s POV because I miss writing like this

After four awkward days with the guys, the doctors finally discharged me from the hospital. I never really got a chance to talk to Jon since Tyler made sure I wasn't in the room with him alone. I can't lie though, puberty did him right.

Besides Jon, I couldn't stop thinking of what Craig asked.

Luke. The same Luke that put me in the hospital? Or could it have been another one of their friends?

"(Y/N)?" Tyler snapped me back into reality. "You feeling alright?"

"Yea.." I said and walked into my apartment, and zoned out again on Tyler.

"H-Hey!" He stopped me from closing the door. I wasn't angry with him, or anyone. But seeing the same people for four days straight while I was bed ridden made it seem very hard to breathe.

No wonder Luke and I never worked out.

"I'm sorry, Tyler. I just need some time to myself." I said bluntly and forced my door shut.

The apartment was awfully quiet. My thoughts seemed louder than the sound of the cars outside driving by. As I walked to my room, I got out my laptop and turned on some music, loudly.

Seeing the tweets the guys and I have gotten while I was at the hospital brought my mood down even more.

"What happened to @(YT/N)? Did she leave again?"

"Why haven't you guys been uploading? @VanossGaming @MiniLaddd @I_AM_WILDCAT"
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"Probably with that girl from Mini's video"
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"She's hot, but I can't say I really like her"

"Leaves for more than a month. Comes back in her friends' videos but doesn't upload from her POV. Leaves again for days. Best Youtuber @(YT/N)"

"@LuiCalibre is more active than you @(YT/N)."

"I already know @(YT/N) is the reason why her friends aren't uploading"
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"What's so special about her anyway? @VanossGaming @I_AM_WILDCAT @MiniLaddd @H2ODelirious make better videos than her"

"@(YT/N) i've been subbed since 600. if ur gonna leave youtube at least do a face reveal first"

It just went downhill from there. My tears was not worth this bullshit. I had no energy to be mad at anyone right now, mainly because all of it went to worrying about Jon and Luke.

And don't think I'm not blind, I did check Nogla's Skype messages he's sent me. I felt so bad for standing him up. But it wasn't my fault.. Poor Nogla, he's even worried about the boys with me right now.

How was I supposed to reply to all of this?

My mind was scattered. I didn't know which problem to handle first. But I had to pull it together again after hearing a few knocks come from my door. "(Y/N)?" This time, I was actually kind of happy to hear company.

I walked over and opened the door, revealing the man behind that unique voice, Jon. "Hey." I gave him half a smile watching him walk in.

"Look I-" He cut me off and pulled me in for a hug, one that I so needed after years of not seeing each other.

"I missed you."

"I missed you too."

We pulled away awkwardly. For some reason, even after the times we spent before I moved and the Skype calls alone together, I felt nervous talking to him. What else was I supposed to say? "Sorry I-uh.." Jon stuttered, scratching the back of his neck.

He didn't continue. At least I knew I wasn't the only one weirded out with all of this. I giggled seeing his porcelain cheeks burn up. "C'mon let's go to my room."

I pulled his wrist and walked back to my bed. Just before I could get comfy again, Skype starts ringing. Nogla was calling, it was probably a good idea to have switched my status to invisible when I turned on my laptop. "Don't answer it." Jon said sternly.

But that'd be rude, what was he thinking? "But Jon-"

"You talk to him every day as (YT/N). It can wait." Jon pleaded as he squeezed my hand. "I haven't seen you for years!"

He looked straight into my (E/C) eyes, begging me not answer. But what if Nogla had something important to tell me?

I diverted my gaze away from his blue eyes and answered the call. "Whatever, don't let your best friend get in the way of you and your Irish lover." Jon mumbled and shuffled to the opposite end of the bed.

I let out a frustrated sigh before answering. "Hey Nogla."

"Wow, where have ye been? I stayed up all that whole night you said we can play."

"I just.. had some family issues going on when I got home, sorry." Jon tsked loudly in the background as I said this.

Nogla sighed and I could just picture his expression on his face. "I'm sorry. Things have been going to shite for most of us hasn't it?"

"What are you talking about?" I asked as if I didn't know about Tyler's 'date.'

"Tyler had a rough date. She ended up in the hospital so Craig and Evan went to visit them."

"Shit, must've been rough. Are they alright?" Jon started to laugh and tried his best to contain it. Dumb shit.

"Yea, they got out today actually." Nogla said a bit more cheerful. "So, now that that shite is out of the way, I've been meaning to ask ye something and I'll understand if ye don't wanna answer. Are you going to PAX East this year?"

Jon raised an eyebrow at me, waiting for my answer. I honestly didn't know if I should go. Sure people didn't know how I looked but it also meant I can't hang out with who I really wanted to be there with, them. And what's the point in that? "No, I'm not.. sorry."

The poor bastard.. he really wants to see me. It isn't fair to him or the others who haven't seen me yet. Even though Evan, Craig, and Tyler still believe they haven't either, they still got a head start before the rest of them. But Jon had the earliest one before anybody else. He definitely lightened up hearing my answer. "I see." Nogla said more quiet.

Jon cleared his throat catching my attention. He tapped on his watch, making ticking noises emphasizing his impatience. It really pains me to tell Nogla 'I'm busy' after what happened and after telling him something he was hoping not to hear.

But looks like I wasn't going to get a choice anyway. Jon scooted back towards me and took the mouse. Shit. "Hey Nogla, I'm really sorry. But I have someone over. I'lltalktoyoulateralright-" And Jon ended the call from there, not even letting him say goodbye.

He pulled me in for a hug and laid back on my bed. "We can go to PAX together. Don't worry."

I looked up at Jon thinking he was insane. "Aren't we gonna get caught?"

Jon laughed. "I went all the time with Luke. I just never went close to any of the guys who came. You can come with us!"

My heart dropped at the idea of getting near Luke again. I wanted to refuse but I finally had an opportunity to go and enjoy myself with one of the most important person in my life. But at the price of seeing an ex I still hated? I'd rather help Nogla clean Joe and Tony's shit than see him again.

"(Y/N)? What's wrong?" Jon broke my train of thought as I was still debating on an answer.

"Nothing. I'm just not entirely sure if I wanna go."

"Would you relax? We're not gonna get caught!"

"It's not that, Jon!"

"Then what is it?" I was about to spill the truth behind Luke right there until Jon's phone rang. He looked at the screen with a confused face.

"Who is it?"

"You."

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Filler chapters suck, I know :c But I just couldn't wait to get to this part book. Might be slow, might not be till PAX, I'll see how I feel when I writing the next chapter. Peace out everybody! Goodbye~