As usual, (Y/N) wasn't thinking before she spoke. It was something she picked up from talking to Jon so much. "Jon? I-I'm sorry.. I didn't mean-"

"Did I really say that?"

"Yes but I didn't mean to come off that way. I really do like you but-"

"But what? You like Evan more?"

"No! I-"

"Oh my bad, you like Mini? Wildcat?"

"Jon please just let me finish my-"

"You don't need to say anymore, (Y/N)."

"Jon!" (Y/N) raised her voice. "Please, just hear me out. AND LET ME finish my sentences."

Jon huffed angrily. "I'm listening."

"They don't even know it's me, alright? The day I moved here, I didn't know I was going to be moving next to Craig, I promise! Then he introduced my to Evan and Tyler and then.." She paused, thinking of a way to continue. Somehow it felt like Jon was going to take offense in whatever she says.

"That it?" Jon said with no emotion in his voice.

"I'm sorry, Jon. I really was gonna tell you but-"

"Were you also gonna tell me that you knew how I felt this whole time? Because it really feels like you've been taking advantage of me."

Now (Y/N) was really fed up with her best friend. "STOP interrupting me! Jon, it's not that I don't feel the same way. It's just.."

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My blood was boiling in rage. I was packing all of my now-ex-boyfriend's belongings in my room. There was no way I was going to spend another day of yelling, crying about this so-called relationship that was barely hanging on a string.

"(Y/N) would you please talk to me?!"

No answer, all I did was continue stuffing his clothes into a box he gave me from a gift.

Suddenly, my hands were slapped away from the box. "Will you stop acting like bitch?! Who even are you anymore?!"

"Your ex." I replied, spitting on his face.

Then, that's when I was pushed to the ground. He just watched me groan in pain. "First you cheat on me now you try to kick me out? What's gotten into you?" He kneeled down to my level while I felt tears prick at my (E/C) eyes. Never in my life have I cried this much within a year and a half. A year and a half being with this goddamn prick I called my boyfriend. "Answer me!" He tugged on my (H/C) and that's when I lost it. I got up and wildly started throwing punches at his face. "Yea, hit me! If that's what makes you happy, do it!"

However, I'd be partially lying if I said it was what I wanted. This isn't me. I really didn't even know if it was me. I lost myself a long time ago in the process of trying to love him.

"(Y/N) get off of him!" My mom came in out of nowhere and pried me off of him.

"Stop babying him, mom! Don't you see how he treats me?!" She knew how much pain I was in, yet she continued to try to make things work out between Luke and I. "You're supposed to be MY mom, not his! Why can't you see that I'm not happy?!"

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"Just..?"

"I'm not ready for another relationship." It was a painful memory to recall for (Y/N). She represses every single horrible memory until it becomes impossible to even remember.

Jon doesn't know about Luke. He knows she's been in a few relationships. Never once did she spoke about them. Sadly, Luke was her last serious relationship.. if you even consider it serious. That's another can of worms (Y/N) probably should not open up to Jon.

"I see." Jon said a bit sad.

"Please don't take it the wrong way, I still wanna play games and talk shit with my best friend!"

"It really doesn't sound like that, (N/N)." He chuckled, trying to cover up his hurt. It was obvious for (Y/N) after knowing him for so long.

"I'm sorry. I don't know how many goddamn times am I gonna say that in this call. But Jon, I don't know how else can I show you that I'm really sorry! I can't just fly back to North Carolina. I don't even know where you live now!"

The call went quiet. It was filled with both of their sobs, and it made the guilt even harder to bare with. "Jon?"

"Hang on,"

"What are you doing?" Jon began typing away, loudly.

"I'll tell you soon."

"Why can't you tell me now?" (Y/N) began to worry, thinking of the worse things possible.

"There. Now we can make up those years of not seeing each other." Her phone vibrated and revealed a picture message. It was a plane ticket to L.A.

(Y/N) sighed in defeat. Guess Jon won. "Jon, you don't need to do this."

"Why not? Am I gonna get in the way between you and your boyfriends?" Jon emphasized 'boyfriends.' It was getting to the point where (Y/N) was tired of fighting back. A part of her would be lying if she said she wasn't happy with seeing her best friend after many years. So she kept quiet. "That's what I thought. Delirious wins! As usual~"

"You're an asshole."

"And you still love me."

After the call ended, (Y/N) moved to her bed and continued her much needed sleep. She basically spent the rest of the day catching up on sleep. Though, food was a thing she needed. The tired girl woke up to an aching and growing stomach.

The (H/C) stretched her tired self awake and walked over to her kitchen to make her daily dose of coffee. It was nearly 1:30 in the afternoon, but any night owl knows coffee or a can of monster is a night owl's best friend.

After brewing her fix, she took her mug and sat down at her living room, turning on her TV for some white noise in the back and her spare laptop. (Y/N) checked out twitter and saw Craig's tweet pop up first:

@MiniLaddd: Twitchcon hotel booked :D 10 months away seems so far away but I also know it'll fly around faster then I think!
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@(YT/N): Guess I'm not seeing you at PAX East? :c
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@MiniLaddd: YOU DON'T EVEN SHOW UP TO THESE
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@(YT/N): That's what you think ;)

(Y/N) giggled to herself and continued to mess around on Twitter. It was a small gesture to show that she wasn't completely dead for months to her friends and her subscribers.

She switched over to Tumblr where she could let her fangirl side loose. When she wasn't looking for fan art to feature in her videos, she was looking at other fandoms she was originally a part of. After looking through the (Other Fandom) tag, her eyes peered over to a tag tumblr recommended and left on her dashboard. It was a fan art of Nogla and (YT/N). Looked like it was from the Towers Unite video from last night. (Y/N) chuckled at the cute picture and reblogged it.

Curiosity never leads to anything good on tumblr, unless you somehow find yourself a new kink looking through an unknown tag. That's exactly what (Y/N) was experiencing when she clicked on the ship tag made for her and Nogla. It was an underrated ship as far as she could tell. One thing she caught herself staring at was a NSFW picture of her, Nogla, and Lui. She certainly had mixed feelings seeing this.

Speak of the Irish devil himself, her train wrecked mind woke back up when she saw Nogla calling her on Skype. (Y/N) tried to calm herself as quick as she could and answered the call. "Yeeees?"

"So I heard ye and Brock had a little conversation after we left~" Nogla cooed make (Y/N) fluster back up again.

"H-How'd you know that?!"

"Oh Marcel and I don't know what ye talked about. Brock just told us to leave after the game before you got in the call." He started to laugh his cute wheezy laugh. "I just needed something to say when I called ya."

"Jesus Christ, Nogla." (Y/N) face palmed as he laughed.

"So, are ye going to VidCon this year? Lui really wants me to go."

"How long have you been my friend to not know I don't show my face?"

"Hey that not what ye said on Twitter!" Nogla said, throwing that hissy tone he does when he whines.

(Y/N) chuckled nervously, pausing to think of an excuse. She tweeted that as a joke, not to be taken seriously. Not once has she gone to a PAX or Twitch convention, let alone VidCon. "I was just joking! I actually need the money right now.. so no traveling or conventions for me." She huffed.

"So ye haven't seen any of us in person yet?"

"Of course not!"

At least not until now.

Nogla laughed a little hiding his sadness. "I was gonna ask if ye wanted to meet up if before the convention started. Guess not.."

Nogla would be the second person (Y/N) hated hearing sad, next to Brock. He was an annoying and loud potato sure, but he was just too adorable to (Y/N) sometimes. "Sorry... we'll meet up one day!"

"Yea, years later, probably never."

"Hey, you'll all see me one day, I promise."

Guess Craig, Evan, and Tyler got their head start.

The Irish male chuckled. "Yea, one day." Nogla said with sarcastically. "SohaveyoutalkedtoTyleryet?" He said quickly changing the subject.

"Umm no why?" Lies.

"He texted me the other morning that he can't go back to Tennessee." (Tyler lives in Tennessee right now. He's FROM Indiana)

"What? Why not?!"

"Kelly and him had a fight and they ended up breaking up. So he's been staying with Craig and Evan at L.A."

"Oh my god.. that's horrible." (Y/N) couldn't even tell what was more worse, her friend breaking up with one of her closest girl friends or the fact that she has to deal with one more of her online friends finding out her true self.

"Yea, but did ye see that new video of Mini's?" Nogla started. "Don't tell Tyler I told ye this but I think he moved on pretty fast. He was thinking of asking that girl in the video on a date."

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Fun fact, the flashback actually happened. HAHAhehehuehhoooo. Anyway, again sorry for the delay. Hoping your first weeks of 2017 was better than mine <3 I hope this crappy chapter made up for it. Peace out everybody! Goodbye~