"Is this some kinda joke?" Jon said, raising an eyebrow.

"I'm not even laughing!" I replied and tried to grab his phone. "Don't answer it."

"You answered Nogla's call."

"Are you really gonna hold that against me?!" As soon as I shouted, the call finally went to voicemail.

There's been no signs at all of my phone since I left the hospital. Why only now? We sighed and collapsed on the bed. Silence was expected, how else were we supposed to react?

"Anyways, you were saying?" Jon continued. I forgot what we were talking about for a moment and gave a confused look in reply. "About PAX."

Suddenly, I wasn't that freaked out anymore. My mood, however, still wasn't any better. As soon as I opened my mouth again to reply, Jon's phone lights up again. This time with a message from 'me.'

"So how long has that been my contact name?" I chuckled.

Jon clicked his tongue and pushed me playfully. "Shuch up."

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"Tell that bitch if she wants her phone back, she has to talk to Luke."

Just when I thought this situation couldn't get any worse.. I snatched his phone while he was trying to process the message. "What the- hey!"

"L-look Jon, it's alright. I can just disable the number tomorrow."

"Well you didn't have to snatch my phone.." Jon tried to retrieve it but I backed up. "And did that say Luke? How do you know him?"

Fuck.. "I.. I don't!"

"That person who has your phone clearly just said you have to meet up with him!"

"Which Luke?! There's tons of Lukes out there!" I almost stumbled on my words. I had hoped playing dumb would work but Jon just wasn't buying it.

"Cartoonz Luke!" Jon began to raise his voice. His porcelain skin began to tint with pink from frustration.

I bit my tongue, fighting the urge to yell louder. "You don't know if that's the Luke they're talking about.." I said soft but bitter.

Jon sighed from frustration. I expected to be yelled at again but instead, he pulls me to his side, grabbing his phone in the process. His arm snakes my waist and his voice became more gentle. "Is there something else I don't know?" Jon asked, but I didn't reply. He sighs before continuing. "I'm not gonna yell at you, please.. just tell me."

When I finally complied, I let everything out. I explained how I thought I was madly in love with this man, who turned out to be one of my biggest regrets in my life. I thought I could finally tell this story without choking and tearing up, but it was all so overwhelming. I just couldn't hold back them back. It felt.. embarrassing, just knowing and hearing about how I let Luke treat me that way.

When that first tear fell, Jon quickly wipe down it with his hoodie's sleeve. "I'm sorry, I didn't know-"

"Look, I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Just drop it, please Jon?" I asked, turning away from him.

Jon was persistent. His arms never left my waist and we ended up spooning. I glance over to my clock: 9:05 PM. I guess I'm skipping another night of recording. No goodnights were exchanged. We just fell asleep to the sound of our breathing.

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As the sun peeked through the curtains as usual, I woke up cuddling Jon instead of spooning him. How am I not surprised?

I was about to go back to sleep, until Jon's phone buzzed under the pillow we shared. At first, I wasn't going to bother answering it. Until it started vibrating obnoxiously. I had thought it was someone calling, but it turned out to be messages from my phone again. This woke Jon up. "Why are you up so early?" He asked with that husky, tired voice of his.

I ignored his question and checked the messages, and soon he did as well.

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"If she doesn't meet up with Luke, I'm going to leak these pictures on her Twitter."

What followed were pictures of myself, including Jon and I's conversation recently on meeting the guys.

"You don't need to do this. We're gonna turn that phone off today, like you said." Jon reassured.

Then I realized my plans flaws. "But who knows if he saved the pictures else where?!" Jon had nothing to reply to that, as expected.

I was about to leave the bed until I was tugged back down."Wait, if you go, I'm coming with you."

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Jon arranged plans to meet at the park across my apartment. We waited at a table where we said nothing to each other. I knew he felt my hand shaking in fear so he grabbed it and held it tight.

Again, Jon's phone received another message:

(N/N) bear 🐻💕

"Leave. I wanna talk to her alone"

"Don't." I said and refused to let go of his hand. And again, his phone vibrated.

"Leave or I'll leak the pictures NOW"

Jon looked at me with worry. "What about the pictures?" I didn't know how to answer, but it had to be fast..

"Wow you don't listen to instructions at all." I could feel my heart in throat. That bearded man's voice was right behind me. I didn't turn around, but Jon did.

"What do you want?" Jon said and squeezed my hand.

"That's between her and I. Now, Delirious, I'm giving you one more chance to leave before I leak these."

"No." I answered, holding Jon down the moment I felt him move.

Luke huffed. "You must really not give a shit about your face reveal anymore."

I swallowed the bitter words I so wanted to spew out and replied calmly. "Whatever you have to say, you can say it in front of Jon."

The tension grew stronger. I did my best to avoid his gaze. That was until he walked right in front of me and forced me to look at him. Luke gave a disgusting, smug smile. God how I just wanted to rip it off his face. Suddenly, Jon's arms brought me closer to him and away from that asshole. "Touch her and you're dead."

Luke chuckled lowly. "I'm pretty sure I have the upper hand here, Delirious." He said and held up my phone with the screen on a tweet, ready to be sent. "I don't want any trouble. All I want is (Y/N) back."

"Not a chance." I replied, spitting in his face.

As Luke was about to respond violently with his fist in the air, Jon stepped between us. "Do you really think I'm bluffing when I say 'touch her and you're dead?' I have no problem smashing your face in right now."

Luke reacted as if he was truly offended with his jaw dropped low and his hand to his chest. "I thought I was your best friend, Delirious."

If it wasn't for Jon holding me down, my knuckles would be stained with blood over black and blue skin. Just like when Luke and I were together. "Well, I thought so too." Jon replied.

"I guess you don't care about your 'best friend's' secret now do you?"

I was just in the middle of them as they continued hissing at each other. I hated the sight of Luke, but I hated seeing Jon like this more. All I just wanted was for this to stop. I felt like I was the blame to Jon's problems, to all my friends problems now. They seemed just fine when I left. I shoudn't have came back into their lives...

My (E/C) eyes were tearing from frustration. I just wanted to leave. When I looked up, I saw Craig and Tyler in the distance, probably enjoying their morning. Their gazes and few more strangers turned my way when these two started shouting louder. How I wanted nothing more to just disappear.. so I did.

I left that park without a word, Jon and Luke calling for me, soon Craig and Tyler followed. Soon enough, I ran back to my apartment and locked it. My blood boiled, but for what reason? I don't know anymore. My mind had problems scattered all over.

At this point, I didn't care about those pictures leaking anymore. Not like they won't see me ever again anyway.

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Idk why it took me so long to update ONE chapter. I'm a lazy person, I apologize. I was gonna update again today but it's already night :/ Maybe I'll still try to. Peace out everybody! Goodbye~