Chapter 1
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-No one's POV-

The sun was on it's way up to the sky. It was still a dark blue, only a few lights were decorating the early morning. The small lights, or also called stars or planets, couldn't be seen on the sky. The edges of the city were slightly dusted with hues of red, orange and yellow as the sun made it's way up.

A lot of people were already awake, considering some shops needed to be open when other citizens were just fighting to get out of their beds. Children all ages needed to be awake for their long school hours. Others were still asleep, mostly those who worked in the evening or nights.

It wasn't any different with the new Idol-group named IDOLiSH7. Some of the members had an early schedule while some only had to work in some show later in the evening.

Nanase Riku was one of those for the evening works. But he still let his alarm wake him up in the morning. He liked to be awake when someone of the group had work to do in the early morning. He always made coffee and a light and fast breakfast, considering they had a diet to follow.

Riku made his way from his room, with clothes in his hands, to the shared bathroom. The apartment they all lived in wasn't all that big. They had four bedrooms and with seven members, some had to share one. Riku was the lucky one to get a room for himself. He threw his clothes in a basket and entered the shower.

Iori-kun and Tamaki-kun need to wake up soon. They have school today.

The red-head thought to himself as he put shampoo into his hair. This was a routine the boy always followed, ever since he got to know the other group members. After a short shower, Riku exited the shower, dried his wet and slim body before putting on his clothes for today.

They have 20 minutes before they need to leave the apartment or else they are going to be late. Am I going to wake them up just to be safe first... or start with breakfast ??

The boy decided to wake the two up before making their breakfast. He made his way from the bathroom over to the boys shared bedroom. It would be a hassle to put the youngest members, who still go to school, in different rooms. If even they didn't like it at first, they both noticed just how each needed the other sometimes.

As Riku headed to the boys room, he could see the light shining through the space between the door and the ground. This means that both are definitely awake or at least trying.

Riku knocked on the door before opening, stepping inside and closing it behind him. He always went to their rooms in the weekdays, mostly in the morning. The red-head likes to know if they did all there work, what their excuse is if not, if they packed everything they needed in school or simply to make sure they were healthy enough to leave. The boy played a role similar to an older sibling, but he nor the younger ones minded.

"You two are already awake. Good morning to you both, Tamaki-kun and Iori-kun."

"Good morning to you too, Nanase-san."

"Mornin'~"

"Iori-kun~ you know that I don't like it. You calling me by my last name." Riku pounded after completing his sentence. When ever someone called him by his last name, he felt weird. Or that's what he tells everyone.

"Make sure you have everything for school. Change into your uniforms and than come to the living room for breakfast. And hurry up."

-Time Skip-

The two 17-year-olds sat down on the couch in their uniforms, their school bag sitting beside their legs on the ground. They could hear metal and plates coming into contract with each other. And it didn't take long before the red-head came to them with two plates with eggs, bacon, a small salad and a sandwich. He placed them before them wordlessly, going back into the kitchen.

It was a bit unusual to see the positive boy silent but the younger ones had to hurry for school. They had roughly ten to five minutes before leaving the apartment and yet they still haven't eaten. Riku came back a few minutes later, two lunch packs in his hands. He places both before the younger ones before leaving to go to his room.

Iori and Tamaki stuffed their faces with the meal as fast as they could, packed their lunches into their bags and rushed to the front door with them. Both put their shoes on, throwing their long coats on and putting a white mask on. It was still could outside and couldn't risk getting sick.

"WE ARE LEAVING!"

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AN

Hello, it's been a while. It has been roughly a year and two months since I last updated anything for this Story. It was supposed to be done, but lately I felt like updating my Stuff. I still like the idea, the plot if this Book, but in my opinion it wasn't in the greatest shape.

My writing style changed a bit in the nearly two years I have been on Watpad.

I hope everyone is healthy and stays healthy.
I also wish for everyone to enjoy this updated version. I won't bring in new stuff or leave some out.

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Chapter 2
▪Edited▪
-Riku's POV-

As soon as the two left the apartment, I heard my ringtone. I didn't feel like taking the call, I was just in a bad mood today. I hope those two didn't get too suspicious of me. Considering I didn't act like I usually am a few minutes ago. The ringing stopped only to start again.

"Ahh... please stop..."

I took my phone into my hands and looked at the display. 'Doctor-san'. I pushed the red button displayed. Whatever he is going to tell me now, will only make my mood worse. Sadly, the display lighted up right after. I sighed out loud before accepting the call.

"Good morning, Doctor-san."

"Nanase-san... why did you ignore my calls ??"

"Please, I'm in a bad mood, Doctor-san. Just tell me what you needed from me."

"Nanase-san. I called to tell you that your appointment today was rescheduled. Instead of it being around midday, it is in roughly half an hour from now."

Ahh... those damn appointments. I hate them so much. No matter how often I go, the results won't change...

I sighed, rolling my eyes. I felt the usual tears forming in the corners of my eyes. I hate this. I hate this damn sickness, it just makes my life harder. It is a burden to everyone around me and myself. I blinked a few times, to make the tears disappear, before going back to my conversation.

"Alright. See you later."

Before he could say anything else, I ended the call and threw my phone on my bed. There so much going on. I can't stress myself to much, or I'll just be a burden again. I hate this so much. But I'm glad I was cursed with this and none of the other members.

Knowing that the other four members are going to wake up in roughly one and a half to two hours from now, I'm going to write a note. A note saying that I'm out and will come back around lunch.

I made my way to my desk and searched for a small sticky note paper. It is easier to make small notes than to write what is really going on. Kinda why don't tell everybody everything, only small bits. No one will look down on you this way. No one will take pity on you. No one will treat you in a different way, than before.

-Time Skip-
-Sogo's POV-

I woke up to the sun shining through the curtain right at my face. Sighing, I grabbed my phone from my nightstand. I turned it on and instantly regretted it.

Too bright...

Turning down the brightness, I looked at the time. '11.26 a.m'. Now is good time to wake up. Before it was going to be later. I forced myself out of my source of comfort and warmth, and out to the Reality and coldness of life.

Walking up to the bed opposite of mine, I saw that Yamato-san must have been awake already, seeing that his bed was empty. Once again I sighed, walking to our closet and taking out some clothes for today. On my way over to the bathroom, I saw Nagi-san and Mitsuki-san coming out of their room. They were still in their pajamas and still looked tired.

"Ah, good morning you two." I said as I slightly bowed my head at them. They returned the gesture. I turned back to the bathroom, headed in, changed my clothes and splashing my face with a bit of cold water. After doing so, I styled my hair a bit. Nothing weird or unusual, just my usual hair style. Once I was done, I headed to the kitchen.

As I was there, I noticed something was wrong. Normally Riku-kun would be already up and waiting for me in the kitchen. Together we would make breakfast for the others, but he wasn't here.

Where is he... ??

Confused, I walked into the living room. Nagi-san, Mitsuki-san and Yamato-san were sitting on the couch watching TV. But... if Riku wasn't here and he wasn't in the kitchen... then where is he ??

"Has anyone seen Riku-kun ??"

"Ah, Sogo. He left a note, he probably had to go somewhere important." Yamato-san said as he stood up and gave me the note from the red-head. I looked at it, but Yamato-san already said everything.

"Alright. I'll start with breakfast or rather an early lunch." I said as I took the note with me to the kitchen, to put it on the fridge.

'I'm out. Don't worry, I'll be back around midday. -Riku'

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AN

Okay, I know I said that I don't want to change the plot, but I have to make small changes here and there.

Also, if you haven't noticed already, the chapters are getting longer. Considering I'm roughly at the point where the first Original chapter ended, this Book is getting more chapters.

I hope nobody is actually mad at me for doing this, but I was really unsatisfied with the Original. It could happen that this will happen to other stories too.

If there is a book from, you would like an update from or an edited version, just tell me. I want to give you all the best I can do!

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Chapter 3
Update for Amoona-nanase
▪Edited▪
-No one's POV-

It was 02.52pm now and the red-head of the group still hadn't returned home, even through the note said, that he was going to return around midday. That's roughly two hours ago. Iori and Tamaki returned twenty minutes earlier. Considering they are part of a band, they can't join the other students for their afternoon classes.

The two students didn't dare touch their homework for the next day. They were too worried after hearing what was going on. The other four didn't inform their Manager. Why? Because they wouldn't want her to leave her work and worry just like them. It would be her right to know what is going on in the apartment, but they all knew how much work she has to do.

Ever since Iori and Tamaki came home, were told what was going on by Yamato, they all sat in the living room. Waiting for the missing person to show up.

"He didn't tell you where he was going ??" Mitsuki asked his younger brother. He tried to be cheerful, but he knew that this wasn't a time to be cheerful. With Riku's Asthma, anything could have happened.

"No, Nii-san. But he seemed rather upset this morning. We were in a hurry through and didn't comment on it."

The small boy sighed, closing his eyes for a second. All of them were worried. They tried calling the red-head but he wouldn't answer them. Riku didn't notify anyone about where he was going. No one knew where he wanted to go and his reasons.

"Maybe we are all over reacting. Maybe he met someo-"

The front door was slammed open. Nagi stopped his words, words which were meant to calm everyone's worries down. But with that noise, he just sighed before standing up to see what the matter was. The blonde boy stood by the door frame between their living room and their small space for the front door.

The male stood frozen by the frame. He wanted to walk further. He wanted to ask the other where he was. He wanted to make sure the other was safe. He wanted to know why he was dripping wet.

It took Nagi a few seconds of just starring and standing by the frame before he ran over to the other boy. He cradled the others face in his hands, feeling the wet cold skin, making sure the smaller boy was looking at him. The younger was panting, he was exhausted.

"Are you okay, Riku ?? And why are you wet ??"

"I-"

"NAGI! WHO IS IT??"

Before Riku or Nagi could say anything, the other five boys already stood by the frame, Nagi stood before. Mitsuki immediately returned to the living room to gather one or two blankets for the younger. Sogo ran to the red-head's bedroom, searched for some dry clothes and setting them in the bathroom.

"Riku..."

"I'm fine. Just a bit out of breath from all the runnin-" Iori hit the smaller boy gently on the head. The other knows that he shouldn't run.

"IORI!- Riku why were you running?? You know it isn't good for your health..."

"It started to rain on my way back... and some fans recognized me." Riku mumbled loud enough for the others to hear. He took of his soaked shoes and coat, put them next to a heating system. The boy left the other six males standing by the front door, going to his bedroom.

Yamato sighed, closing the forgotten door before it started to rain inside the apartment. The eldest went back to the living room, sitting down on the couch and turning the TV on.

"Yamato... What are you doing ??"

"That boy is stubborn. We learned that already. If Riku wants to tell us what is bothering him, he will. Forcing him to talk won't make anything better, only worse."

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AN

So, my school closed. I got a lot of work to do at home for that. ㅠ~ㅠ
But the thing is, I am going to be home. I am going to try updating Stories. I'm hoping for some people to leave some suggestions, just like Amoona-nanase did.

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Chapter 4
Requested by Fuj0shiS0ftie
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-Riku's POV-

I felt bad. I didn't tell them where I was and for what reason. Making them worry wasn't my intention, but it still happened.

I'm the worst...

I locked my bedroom door behind me, walked up to my window and sat before it. The rain was still coming down, single raindrops clashing against the glass. It was calming. The noise wasn't loud, even through the storm outside was bad.

Suddenly I felt tears in my eyes swelling up. I tried to keep them away by blinking and looking from one corner to the next (AN; me too). But... it wasn't working. I felt my lips twitching as I still fought against my self. Pulling my legs to my chest, I felt the soaked clothes clinging onto me. It was uncomfortable. But I didn't care. I hugged my legs closer to my body, putting my forehead on my knees.

If I can't stop it... I'll just let it happen...

-No one's POV-

And with that, the tears just streamed down the poor boys face, closing his eyes shut tightly. Riku's body started rocking, shaking from the pent up emotions. This was his breaking point. He couldn't handle anymore...

His emotions were everywhere. And that tomorrow would be the anniversary of his parents wasn't helping either. Seven years. Seven years just flew by like they were nothing. It still felt like yesterday to Riku, that unfortunate day. The boy still wishes to just wake up from this nightmare, this dream which started all those years ago. Ten years ago, when his brother left.

Why...

The volume of the boys crying went up and up over a long period of time. For how long, that is unknown to the fragile boy. For some reason he felt like a burden. Often you feel relieved when you cry or just talk about emotional stuff. But Riku felt like a burden.
His friends were so strong, the strongest in his opinion.

Why can't I be like them ?? They are so strong... so brave...

The red-head thought as he brought his head up, looking at the blurry window. He couldn't say if it was that way because he was crying or because it  was raining harshly outside. He tilted his head slightly, trying to swipe the tears from his eyes with his right hand.

Riku starred into nothing. He couldn't hear anything, or really see anything happening around him. He couldn't hear the rain clashing with the glass. He couldn't hear the banging on his door. He couldn't hear the door being thrown open and hurried footsteps. He couldn't see the rain hitting his window anymore, his gaze focused on something unknown to the boy. He couldn't see the taller male crouching in front of him, shaking his shoulders.

His mind was blank.

The male couldn't think of anything, no thoughts came to his mind. He couldn't make out, who was sitting in front of him or whose voice he only heard mumbles from it was.

The next thing he knew was darkness.
Everything was black.

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AN
I'm sorry for suddenly changing the POV's in this chapter, but if I had continued with Riku's view... well let's just say I had tears swelling up.
Probably because of the slight pressure of having to do your school work at home without the teachers help. Well that and the fact that I am emotionally unstable for a few months...

Another thing... it is shorter than the first three, only because I didn't want to make it too sad, or depressing...

Anyway, stay safe and healthy!

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Chapter 5
Update for blueppe, spot6600, CassieMilanese
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-Time Skip-
-No one's POV-

Waking up with a slight headache, in a brightly lit room with blurry people around oneself, isn't the best. But what could the redhead do about it. The boy blacked out. It was probably a light cold or something similar from the heavy rain earlier. Riku blinked a few times, his sight now better.

"Nanase-san, are you okay now ?? Is something hurting you somewhere ??" Iori asked the slightly older but smaller male just as he noticed the Other waking up. The other five in the room just looked at Riku with worry clearly written on their faces.

"Ah, Iori...", Riku stopped for a few seconds, which felt like hours to the other six, "I'm okay. Nothing is hurting." Riku told them with a smile to keep them from worrying. But it didn't work, it was too fake and was noticed.

The redhead pulled the covers of his bed down. Tamaki put him there after the boy blacked out on them. He wanted the older to be comfortable when he would wake up. Riku sat up as he did so. The others just watched, worry and now also confusion on their faces.

"What are you doing Riku ??" Yamato broke the silence just as the other wanted to leave his bed.

"I still have somewhere I need to be."

"Where do need to be ??" Iori asked not wanting their Center to overwork his body. Him collapsing practically said it all, the older shouldn't do anything anymore today. At least nothing which requires strong movements.

"Riku you need to rest. You have to let your body get some rest." Mitsuki commented with worry in his voice. He cared for the slightly taller boy just as he cared for Iori. Like Riku was his younger sibling. The others all thought the same, even Tamaki and Iori.

"I have to visit my parents today. If you want, you can come with." Riku wasn't sure if he really wanted this. Taking his only friends with him to see his parents. But thinking again, they wouldn't leave the house alone after the stunt he pulled earlier.

The 'middle child' in the band stood up and walked up to his closet. He still had his wet clothes on. His pants weren't bothering him, but his shirt. Riku pulled out a black hoodie, switching it with his wet shirt. He changed his clothes not caring that the others saw him. And how skinny he was.

After finishing, he left his room and made his way over to their front door. Once there, he put on a dry pair of shoes and a coat. Luckily the rain stopped a while ago, so the redhead wouldn't need a raincoat or an umbrella. And just as the boy set foot out of the door, his members and close friends came running out of his room and up to him.

"RIKU! Wait for us. We'll come with you."

-Time Skip of 20 minutes-

"So where exactly do your parents live ??" Sogo asked while they walked beside a long and busy street. They all had black masks on, so nobody would recognize them and hinder them from visiting Riku's parents.

"Yeah, we have been walking for a while now..." Nagi commented while the group of seven crossed the street. Tamaki has been slightly annoying him with him being tired and wanting his beloved pudding.

"Well,", Riku started as he stopped walking. The others followed his movements, just now noticing where they are. Yamato and Mitsuki had an idea but didn't say it. In case they were wrong. "Here we are. Now we just have go through the gates, and walk for a bit under five minutes. "

In the end, the two eldest were right.
They were at a cemetery. His parents were dead.

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AN

I hope all Readers know how much I love you for reading and supporting my content. Because I really do, I appreciate it a lot.

But honestly, I don't like such comments/ requests. Not because this person was asking for an update, but more on how they asked for it. I don't feel comfortable reading such comments, so I hope similar ones like this one won't come to me in future.

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(It also puts pressure on me. My mind will be like; you have to update right now.)

Also, please wish me luck for my upcoming exams. I had a breakdown on Tuesday because I had a bad grade in our last maths-test and my mom made it sound like I did it on purpose. I wanna do good in them 🙃.

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Chapter 6
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-No one's POV-

"Here we are. Now we just have go through the gates, and walk for a bit under five minutes." Riku said as he continued his walk, the group following him again. The eldest glanced at Mitsuki, him doing the same.

In the end, their suspicions were correct. Riku had been acting like this, because it was his dead parents Anniversary. Mitsuki and he had talked a bit while the redhead was knocked out- away from the others. The smaller one brought the idea up, but neither of them actually wanted to believe it.

"W-w-wait!"

"What do you mean, 'Here we are'?"

Tamaki and Nagi stopped, yelling out. They tried to keep quiet, considering the place they were at, but their emotions got the best of them. The two just couldn't understand how calm their Center was.

"Quiet you two!" Sogo let out, he too couldn't understand the whole situation but there was no need for anyone to yell- especially at a graveyard.

"But-" The two quieted down after having received Sogo's glare- the one that could literally kill anyone. Tamaki was the one who was gifted with this side of the white haired man the most out of the six. He knew when it was enough.

Iori has been awfully quiet. Sure they were at a graveyard, it's good manners to stay as silent as possible, but the boy was just lost in his own thoughts. The younger Izumi was sure that the redhead has been acting or letting his real emotions shine because of his parents. More precisely, their death Anniversary.

The second youngest always thought that no one could be so positive and cheerful like their Center, every day. He always had the assumption that Riku was hiding himself- the real Nanase Riku.

"We are here..." Riku stood before a stone of white marble- the Nanase Family grave. The writing's were in black, having three names on it. The group was located a few meters away from the boy, having been in thought or talking apparently slowed them down.

"Hey Mom, Dad and hello to you too, Grandma." The redhead said as he kneeled in the grass in front of the beautiful grave. The other six visitors were slowly making their way over to the male, bowing their heads once in front of the stone. "I brought some visitors this time. I finally made some friends like you always wanted, Mom."

The mentioned friends felt a bit awkward, none of them had ever been to a graveyard- they didn't know what to do or what no too, except for the common knowledge. Watching their friend in front of the grave talking about everything which happened in last few months, did something inside of each of them.

A few minutes passed before Riku wished the three family members a good year and promised them to stay as healthy as possible considering his health problems.

The boys were snapped out of their thoughts by the sound of some crying. Their friend, group member, was crying while kneeling in front of his family grave, and they just stood there doing nothing. If they hadn't felt bad while Riku sat there, than they definitely felt heartbreak now.

"Everything will be okay..." Surprisingly those words came from their youngest. He pulled the tearful boy up, hugging him afterwards. One arm on the boys small waist the other holding gently the red hair as the said male just let out his mourning out harder.

The colorful group went for a group-hug shortly after. Seeing their literal sunshine breaking down in the arms of their youngest, warmed their swelling hearts. Tamaki told them a few months ago, how he couldn't really react to people showing certain emotions.

"Riku, everything is okay."

"Come on, don't make me emotional too!"

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Chapter 7
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-20 minutes before-
-No one's POV-

A semi-long, black car was driving over the highway to Tokyo. The vehicle had four people sitting inside of it. Three of the four were the members of the Idol group called Trigger, the driver was their manager. The oldest member had just lost his grandmother recently. Thinking of the brunette, the younger two decided to visit his family, who don't live in or near Tokyo.

Ryunosukes grandfather left this world when the boy was in his teenage years, he lived and worked in the Japanese capital since he himself was just a young Male. The old man always said how he would die in the city he was born in, than man thought he would betray his hometown if he were to die in another place.

The brunettes grandmother always wished to be buried by her deceased partner, as she lived with her daughter and son-in-law. Her wish has been fulfilled a week ago, but the Idols only now had time to pay a visit to Ryuus parents. After seeing them they planed to see his dead grandparents.

-16 minutes later-

"Okay boys, here we are. Don't forget to put on your masks and hats, we don't want to get any unwanted attention. And Ryunosuke?" The bands manager let out as he parked the vehicle near the gate. Tenn and Gaku left their eldest alone, giving him some privacy with their manager. Even through both wanted to know what their semi-bodyguard had to say to the brunette, it wasn't their place to know, unless Ryuu tells them himself.

Inside the car, Ryuu fixed his hat and masked while his two friends stood outside of the means of conveyance. He waited for the older Male to say something but didn't want to just sit there and make the atmosphere awkward.

"Ryuu, I know this is whole situation isn't the best, but you should know that I am always open for you and the others to talk to okay? I don't want any of you to keep your pain, thoughts and sadness to yourselfs."

"I know manager," the brown haired Male said with a gentle and genuine smile, he really appreciated the people around him. "The death of my grandmother isn't as painful as it would have been if I didn't get to meet you or those two dorks outside. I appreciate your concern but don't worry too much."

Gaku already moved towards the gates of the graveyard, as the older two were talking to each other. Tenn has been standing next to the car, his back turned to it. As much as he wanted to show how he didn't care for the older members but also give them their privacy, Tenn was worried for Ryuu ever since a relative died, but he's also worried about Gaku. Gaku and his father don't get along at all, the cause was the death of his mother, it changed their boss for the negative.

"What are you worrying you pretty little head over now, Tenn?" Ryunosuke asked while petting their centres head.

"Nothing of your concern, now come."

Ryuu chuckled at the younger's behaviour. It may seem rude to strangers, but that's just the boys way of trying to show no weaknesses. He acts rude to strangers and haters to not give them any space to attack him. He knows how to protect him in his career, even if he is a bit too young for the responsibility.

"Ryuu, what did he want?"

"Nothing, just wanted to check on me and how we shouldn't bottle our emotions up until it all comes out suddenly."

"Your old man brain remembers where their graves are at right?"

"Tenn I'm not old!"

The three laughed a bit at their small pre debut joke. You should always try to be a bit positive, no matter the situation, and to be with your loved ones or friends. The boys reached the grave in no time, seeing as others left flowers over flowers at the grave, they kept their visit short.
Or at least that was the plan. As the three returned to the gate, Tenn could hear someone speaking not too far from them. He stopped, looked back and froze in place, the older two noticing a few seconds later on.

Right behind them was a big group of people, bigger than theirs at least. Something anyone would notice, were their colourful heads, reaching from a vibrant red to a soft violet.

"-everything is okay." and "Come on, don't make me emotional too!" were the only sentences that the small group of three could hear clearly. In Japan, it isn't uncommon for people to visit a graveyard, seeing how often suicide is chosen over talking over their problems. But Tenn's eyes caught someone in particular,  the boy with the red hair looked way too similar to his former twin, as he had to leave his family behind, the Nanase Family.

The pale-pinknette slowly took some small steps to the group. His members tried to get him back with interrupting the other people as they kept their voices normal. But the seven noticed and separated from their group hug. They stared at the other three, some with disbelief and some being confused on how this similar looking Male kept inching closer and closer.

"Riku..."

"Tenn." Ouch... but I guess I deserve that... I left without saying much.

"W-what are you doing here? Not that I'm complaining, I'm relieved to see you again and well." Tenn stuttered out, hitting himself on the inside for seeming weak in front of his brother, or at least blood related brother. He missed the slightly younger so much over the years.

"I could ask you the same, Tenn."

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Chapter 8
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-No one's POV-

"Riku..." Tenn mumbled, a bit hurt on how Riku spoke to him, more like in which tone he spoke. It sounded so unbelievable hurt. Nothing like his sweet voice.

"Oi, Brat. Do you know them?" The silver haired man asked his groups youngest. The group in front of them looked strangely familiar, but he couldn't remember where he could have seen them before. Maybe he saw them once as they drove from a hotel to a concert hall, or when they had the rare chance of walking round the city.

The atmosphere was starting to turn from tense to awkward in mere seconds. No one knew what to say. Ryuu and Gaku still tried to remember where they could have seen the colourful group before, Sogo tried to not act like a fan towards Trigger. He wanted to seem professional, acting like a fangirl ,or in his case fanboy, wouldn't help him with his task.
The others, not including the twins, were confused with the whole situation.

"One of my friends relative died not too long ago. We came to pay a visit." Tenn finally let out. The stare his younger sibling was giving him was killing him on the inside. This was not how he remembered the boy, not from back then nor from when he saw IDOLiSH7 perform. His once shining red eyes were now a dull, darker red. "Answer me please, Riku."

The two older members of TRIGGER snapped out of their thoughts after they heard their youngest plead.
They never heard him sound so desperate for anything. It broke their hearts, Gakus just slightly. It seemed like the red head was important to their center. They have lived with each other for three years in total, maybe a few months more, but they have never witnessed the young Kujo to sound like this.

"I was visiting someone too."

"Can I know?"

Sogo, as a loyal TRIGGER-fanboy, never heard the youngers voice so shaken. Tenn was known to overwork himself for the sake of his fans and his group. But his voice was always stable no matter the situation. This was a literal shock, but also to Ryuu and Gaku.

"My parents." Wai-WHAT?!

"What do you mean... our parents are d-dead?" If Tenn would have let himself, he would be crying now. But his ego didn't let him, not in front of his bandmates, the other rookie Idol group and especially not in front of his brother. "How come I never kn-"

"You are mistaken Kujo Tenn. My parents are dead, not yours." The smarter ones of each group easily put the pieces of this big puzzle together.
"Now, if you three would excuse us, I want to be home before the sun starts to set."

Riku brushed his older brothers shoulder as he walked the way to the gate. His words were true, through,  the sun started to set for the moon to shine in his full glory. His six friends, who still slightly confused on how Riku knew the other guy or on how the boy talked about the topic, quickly followed him, the eldest ones wishing the other three a good drive home.

"Hey Riku..." Mitsuki said as they were out of the graveyard and on their way home, it has been at least seven minutes since their encounter with TRIGGER. The others have tried to look through the whole thing without jumping to conclusions, after that they silently played rock-scissors-paper to choose someone to talk to the silent redhead.

"Yes Mitsuki-San?" The boy stopped and the group of six behind him followed his movements. Afterwards the said boy turned to his friends, wanting to know what they wanted, or Mitsuki wanted. His usual warm, red eyes started to appear again, the dull ones vanishing.

"Can you please explain what that whole situation was about?"

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AN

okay so, now here in Chapter 8 we have completed the first, original, five chapters of the story.
Does it seem better written or maybe more mature??

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Like this was the original 5th chapter. This chapter is practically now the 8th one of the edited Story.
Personally I like my writing style at the moment, not my first one.

(Meaning I will be rewriting almost all of my books in the future.)

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Up until now, these are the ones I'm editing right now ^^

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Chapter 9
(I'm sorry that this took so long!!!)
Update request: Dzkyhh24
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AN

So... I just gotta say, I was confused when I looked through the comments from original 8th chapter. Like I remember reading 'Tenn is caring'. But when I looked through the original 6th chapter everything made sense.
Riku had a fever and collapsed.

So now you all will have a small spoiler what's going to be happening ^^, but it will be rewritten, of course.

+ Another thing, I noticed how I am more comfortable in writing the plot in 3rd person, so it will be rare to see it from someone's view. Get used to it 🙃.

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-No one's POV-

"Can you please explain what that whole situation was about?" Mitsuki asked without thinking twice. Of course the boy, and definitely the others too, wanted to know about what happened the last few minutes ago. But after saying what he did and thinking about it afterwards, he felt guilty.

He felt like he could have worded his question better, nicer. It seemed so rude and non-caring to Mitsuki.

"Mitsuki-san... the person who I was talking to back there, Kujo Tenn of TRIGGER, was my twin brother." The red headed man spoke with not a single hint, nothing that could have showed sadness, pain or maybe some other negative emotions. His tone and face stayed emotionless, but his eyes shone brightly, like they used to.
"He left my family years ago and went with another man to become the person he is today."

Riku started walking again, wanting to get to their dorm and cuddle into his blankets. He knew he should tell his friends what was happening and what had happened in the past. But he didn't want to re-live the memories, which were made all those years ago.

-Time skip-
-At the dorm-

"Please give me some time to myself."

That was the first thing, which has been said ever since Riku told them about Tenn being his brother. Or ashe said it, was his brother not playing that role anymore in the boys life. Said male marched up to his room and vanished into it before anything else was spoken.

Nagi let out a sigh, not knowing what to do. They had gotten into the same position as before the red haired boy fainted. Riku also wanted to be alone but blacked out not long after.

"Well, I'm not going to stand here once again, doing nothing. I'll go make sure Riku-kun is fine."

The others didn't know whether to follow Sogo or give the red head some time and space. They wanted to help and make sure, that Riku knew that he could trust his groupmates. On the other hand, they didn't want to force said boy onto anything.

"H-HEY R-RIKU!"

Sogo wasn't long in the boys room, panick started to bloom in the five others. They all knew about said boys health condition and hearing their calmest of them all yell, made them all extremely worried.

No one needed to say anything before they all sprinted over to their centers room, stopping in front of the open door. The view they had, looking into the room, was something none of them ever wanted to see. There laid Riku on the ground, face sweaty and hair slightly moist, his breathing was uneven. Sogo was kneeling beside him, panicked and not getting his body to move the unconscious person.

"Oi, Sogo calm down. What happened?" As the eldest, Yamato tried his best to mask his worry and panick. They needed to move and help the younger, but without knowing they can't help. The green haired male stepped into the room and kneeled by Riku's side, opposite of Sogo.

"W-well I ju-just came here a-a-and Riku was alr-already like thi-this." The white haired boy stuttered out.

Yamato took his left hand and placed it on top of said boys forehead. He could feel unnecessary heat radiating from the younger boy, coming to the conclusion - Riku has a fever.

"He has a fever..."

"B-but he was perfectly fine earlier!"

"Riku was probably hiding it to not worry us."

"Well, what are you waiting for? Let's move him to his bed!" Mitsuki's older-brother-must-protect-younger mode activated as soon as Yamato said that Riku had a fever. The short male walked straight up to the red heads bed, taking the near placed blanket of, waiting for someone stronger to move said boy.

Tamaki followed the shorter, stopping by Yamato through. He bend down, and took the unconscious boy into his arms, walking up to Mitsuki and placing Riku onto his bed. Mitsuki tucked the younger into bed.

"I've got a thermometer."

"And I brought some could water and a cloth."

In the whole chaos, Iori and Nagi went to get said things. They would need to know if Riku's body temperature was too high and if he needed to be moved to a hospital.

"Okay, let me call someone." Yamato disappeared after telling them. He knew deep down that they would need this person to get Riku better, even if it's only a bit. Riku might seem like he doesn't like them on the outside, but on the inside he knew himself that he needed them.

Once out of sight, Yamato searched through his phone finding the contact he was looking for, and clicked on it.

"Hello..."

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Chapter 10
Update request: Ranxsaru, HannaVillar6, SheelomeeTimpac, @Zohad12
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-Riku's POV-

It was dark.

Wherever I looked, everything was dark. I couldn't even see myself, like my arms or hands, not even my legs and feet. The darkness was everywhere, wherever this place is. I tried moving, thinking that I could escape this place. But it felt like I kept walking on the spot, nothing changed.

"EXCUSE ME!!"

Nothing.

"IS ANYONE HERE WITH ME?!"

No answer.

There wasn't a single hint onto where I was and more importantly, why I was here to begin with. The darkness didn't vanish, no light could be seen. I couldn't here anything, no matter how hard I tried or moved around for that matter.

"Riku..."

My body stopped moving, standing still in this dark place. I was sure that there was no one with me in here, considering there wasn't any sound whatsoever before. There wasn't any response to my shouting before, why is there now... someone calling my name?

"Riku...."

"WHERE ARE YOU?? WHERE AM I?? WHO ARE YOU??" I couldn't pinpoint from where to voice came from. It was also too quite, if I were to know it, I wouldn't know. But it sounded like a children's voice. So... how does he know my name??

"Riku..... I'm Sorry."

"You need to be careful, Riku."

Who is this... Why does this sound so familiar to me...?

"Riku..... I'm Sorry."

"Don't cry. I'll make it better!"

"Riku..... I'm Sorry."

"PLEASE STOP!!!" I screamed my lungs out, not wanting to hear this voice any longer. It apologizing making it not better and making it only worse by the second.

"Riku..... I'm SoRrY."

"NO MORE!!" I gripped my red hair, falling down on my knees. I pulledon my locks, hoping that the voice would stop. The sound of it also turned darker, it didn't sound familiar anymore. It wasn't the voice of a child anymore.

"RikU- I- SoRR-"

"I'm leaving, Riku."

It stopped. But why now? I looked around the place, searching for the source of the voice. But nothing. There was nothing.
I could feel panic, fear and loneliness making an appearance. Whoever that was, was leaving me... alone. I didn't want that. Tears started forming and falling to the ground. If there was something like that in here.

-No one's POV-

As Riku stayed hunched over on the ground, he didn't notice the darkness lighten up. He didn't notice the black place turning into a colourful room, a child's room. Nor did he notice that it was his childhood bedroom.
His eyes were closed as the tears kept falling down. His hands went from clenching his hair to hugging his frame.

"Riku, don't cry."

The boy looked up at the voice, his tears stopped coming. As if the person speaking performed some type of unknown magic. A warm, happy feeling started to bloom inside of the red-head's body.
Riku looked over to the source of the voice, finding two small boys cuddling on the bed.

"When did-?"

"Riku... I'm here and I'll be forever here."

Lies. Riku knew this. The two boys on the bed, were him and Tenn. A few years ago and a few months before Tenn left him, left his family.

"I'll protect you tomorrow and the day after that, the day after that one, the one after th-"

"Tenn-nii~! Stop it. Just don't leave me."

"I promise-"

Lies. They are lies.

"I will never leave you."

It was that moment, that Riku liked to scream. Scream at his stupid older brother, his stupid past-self, his stupid present-self. Just to let his feelings and thoughts out. But he couldn't. The poor boy couldn't seem to find his voice as he looked at thw children, holding each other.

"Riku..... I'm sorry."

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Chapter 11
Update request: appumypetdog
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-No one's POV-

"Riku..... I'm sorry."

Tenn has been sitting beside his younger twin brother for a few hours now. He has been making sure that the other was warm enough, ventilating the room every half an hour for at least ten minutes. He has been patting the red hair and singing soft tunes of childhood memories.

To say he wasn't worried, would be an understatement. When Yamato had contracted him earlier telling him how his younger brother had collapsed because of a fever, Tenn couldn't control his emotions. The male was sad, upset, frustrated but also angry. Angry mostly at himself.

"𝑷𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒅𝒈𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓
𝑼𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈
𝑼𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒇𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒔
𝑷𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚, 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓"

Tenn sighed after trying to keep the slowly building tears from falling - to keep his voice from breaking. He felt like he had failed to be Riku's brother. He felt like he couldn't protect him enough from the harsh world around them.

The news from early that day kept haunting his mind.
'You are mistaken Kujo Tenn. My parents are dead, not yours.'
On his way home, he couldn't concentrate. Tenn wasn't known to space out or to not react when being called. He was always on edge, ready for what every may come. Knowing that his parents had past away - years later - broke him more than what he had imagined.

Even now, Tenn was caught spacing out. He was looking out of the window into the dark night sky. Sitting beside the youngers bed, patting his head.

"Tenn...-nii."

A weak, barely hear able voice broke him out of it. He blinked his eyes a few times before widening them. The older brother looked to the other, feeling the urge to cry all of his pent up emotions out for the world to see.

"Riku, you are awake. Thank God."

"Why... are you here, Tenn?"

The older felt how small pieces of his heart started to crumble and shatter. His younger brother wouldn't look him in the eyes, his voice held no emotion neither did his face. What hurt the most was how Riku stopped using a suffix at the end of Tenn's name. Tenn-nii.

"Riku, you have fever. Let me take care of you."

"I don't want nor do I need your help."

The redhead tried to sit up but failed. The boy had no energy in his thin body. The stress he had felt build up and caused a fever, which caused him to have no energy left. Riku sighed in frustration. He couldn't understand why the man by his side was by his side. The older had left his family, he had no right to care for him anymore.

"I... I know that I hurt you all those years ago. B-But I can explain why I had done what I did."

This irked something deep inside the sick boy. Riku always wanted to know the reasons but gave up. He started to push those thoughts away and lock them up in a dark corner ever since his parents had left the world of the living.

"You can save your excuses. Tenn, just leave."

"But you need help, you are sick."

"I DON'T CARE IF I'M SICK OR THE PERSON DOWN THE STREET! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO CARE FOR ME!"

"Riku, calm down."

"WHY SHOULD I, HUH? SO THE GREAT KUJO TENN CAN TAKE CARE OF HIS SICKLY YOUNGER BROTHER? SO THE WORLD CAN KNOW JUST HOW PATHETIC SAID BROTHER IS COMPARED TO YOU?"

Tears were falling from Riku's eyes. The frustration breaking his build-up wall like it has been made from paper. That wall took years until it was perfect, perfect enough for him to not let anyone see his emotions, his real emotions.
His mask has been cracking, but now everything has been broken down.

The redhead pulled and forced his body to sit up. He moved his legs up to his chest, holding them tight to his body with his arms. Riku laid his head on to his knees, having his warm blanket as a cushion between both body parts.

Tenn could only watch his younger brother crumble in front of him without doing anything. The hurt in his eyes was very visible. But he knew that what the other said was right. He left the Nanase family, he has no rights to care for the younger. Not the way he had done when they were younger. Not the way he wanted to help him now.

"Please... just leave..."

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Chapter 12
Update request: appumypetdog, @Zohad12
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-No one's POV-

"Please... just leave..." Rikus voice was weak. It was barely understandable, his emotions could be heard very clearly. One could hear how the boy tried to keep himself from breaking down completely.
When a person was upset they often said things they would never say to another. Things that could another. Riku didn't want to hurt his brother, even if the others past actions brought a lot of painful months.

Tenn knew his younger brother was hurting, it was his fault to begin with. He knew how the other relied on him when they were children, when they knew nothing. Seeing the younger in the kind of mental state he was in - Tenn felt like a failure. The older didn't want to leave the red-head like this but he knew when he crossed a line and when the other didn't wish for his presence.

The Kujo boy sighed softly, standing up to leave the other alone. Like he had told him. Like he had wished.

His steps were slow, still hesitant. Should he leave or leave completely? Should he only leave the room, the building or the others life?

When Tenn reached the door, his hand got stuck on the handle. His eyes switched from one place to another. He was trying to think of what he should do and on what Riku wanted him to do. He clearly left his responsibility on the younger the day he left the Nanase family.

His depressing thoughts came to a halt when two thin arms trapped his waist. Tenn felt warmth form on his back. He could feel the body behind him rocking slightly.

"Please..." Riku stopped shortly, trying to get his tears from falling, to get his voice to sound stronger than he felt. But the tears wouldn't stop, the red-head simply pushed his face into his twin's neck. "Stay..."

"Riku..."

"Please just... don't leave again."

"Riku..."

"I'm sorry! Don't leave me alone again..."

Tenn placed his own hands onto the youngers arms, successfully getting the body parts around him to loosen. He turned his body to his other half and gently pulled him into his chest. One hand led the youngers face to the olders neck, the other was placed on Riku's back.

He could feel his twin brother break down. The tears stained his shirt. Arms huged back tightly. Riku wasn't trying to hide himself behind a facade anymore, he let out everything. Every emotion, every negative emotion, was let out through the tears. He let out his pain and frustrations.

"Te-Tenn... -nii..."

"I'm here Riku, don't cry. I won't leave you."

"I w-want to kn-know why you l-left..."

Tenn didn't know how to feel. But a warm and gentle smile formed itself on his lips. He missed his brother. Even if him crying wasn't the best thing in the world, it brought childhood memories back. Happy memories.

"Calm down first. I won't leave."

It took Riku a few minutes before the tears halted and no new ones came from his glassy eyes. His breathing also got calmer, it had started to become faster, shorter when he was crying. Both boy sat down on the bed. The head of the younger laid on his brothers shoulder, holding his hand in his own two. Tenn held Riku close to him, holding his waist.

"I want an honest answer, Tenn...-nii. Why did you leave us?"

Even through the red-head had mentioned the question only a few minutes ago, Tenn still felt hesitant and heartbreak. Regret and pain were felt in his heart. Having his brother close to him in this state made him blame himself.

"Riku... I'm sorry. Really I am, if I had known what would happen in the future, I would have never left your side. But when he came to me and talked to me in private... well he had mentioned that if I went with him and become an Idol than..."

The older tightened his hold on the other, sighing before continuing. He had to stay calm, if he were to cry now what would Riku think of him.

"He told me that me going with him and becoming an Idol, I could help you, Mom and Dad. I had asked him when I'm going to see you again over and over again, he told me that I abandoned you and our parents.
He said that you weren't important anymore and I should only focus on myself. He had said our parents didn't even care about me anymore. He told me that you, Riku, didn't need me anymore. That you forgot me."

At the end Tenn couldn't help himself. He broke down, crying. Riku engulfed his twin into a hug, copying what the other had done for him when the red-head was having a breakdown himself.

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AN

It is not the best but I tried my best. I also brought back most of an original chapter with this one.

I hope it is okay, I am not too happy with what I made up. Back then and even now.

Anyway, stay safe and healthy.
And a happy new year, I hope the upcoming one will be better than this one.

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Chapter 13
Update request: appumypetdog, yourheartispower, AerialHanno2
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-No one's POV-

"He told me that you, Riku, didn't need me anymore. That you forgot me."

"Tenn...-nii, I'm sorry that something like that had hapened to you." Riku was hesitant with using the suffix. But he felt like it was okay - it was alright to try to comfort your older brother right? They were related by blood, he couldn't change or deny that.
Riku knew that he would have wanted his brother with him whenever he faced hardships in the past.

Riku let his fingers comb through his brothers light pink hair. It was a gesture their mother had done to him whenever he was sick or when he was scared. It was calming in his eyes. And judging on how the older let him without any kind of protests - Riku was sure Tenn found the small act comforting.

"Tenn-nii, I didn't forget you. Not one day."

Tenn hugged the younger tighter than before. For some reason he feltike the whole situation was taken place in a dream. Thinking back to the rest of the day, it needed to be re-worded. A dream in a nightmare.

"There had been not one day where I didn't miss you. I had been hoping for you to come back home. To stay."

"Riku..." Kujo felt his heart shatter. He knew that his twin meant what he said. Every word. The red-head had been very honest since his early childhood. If there had been a time that it didn't seem like it - than he was hiding behind tall, grey, cold walls. Hiding his thoughts, his emotions.
Riku just couldn't lie even if it would cost his life. But he had mastered the act of hiding his true intentions. So much he could hide most of his fragile self.

"Riku... I an sorry for bringing you pain all of those past few years. It was never my intention."

"I know that, Tenn-nii."

"Could you... maybe tell me about our parents?"

Tenn let his hands fall limp to his side, forcing them upward to hold onto his brothers ones. They were slightly cold, unnoticeably paler than his own and only a tad bit smaller than his. He sat a bit back, wanting to look at the younger properly.

He hadn't noticed earlier that day, but Riku's features were very similar to his mother's ones. His eyes, his nose. Their mother had also been a red haired being, very cheerful and positive. It brought back childhood memories. Memories from a better time. Memories he will never get to visit again.

"Roughly... two months after you left with... that guy."

"Kujo Takamasa."

"After that short time period our parents started to get into fights regularly. Often it was about each others behavior towards you leaving the family. Other time is concerned me."

"Riku- they didn't hurt you, right?"

"Not physically, mom always protected me whenever dad got drunk. But mentally. Them arguing broke me."

Tenn drew one of his hands back, bring it up to his brother's face. He waited for a bit. He didn't want to startle the younger or make him uncomfortable. Tenn could wait. When Riku looked up with his red eyes glazed over with small tears and nodded his head ever so slightly - Tenn touched the red-head's cheek.

He stroked it gently, afraid of hurting the younger further. Riku hat been enough pain throughout his whole life. There was no need to cause more onto that long list.

"If you are not well with telling me this, I understand. Don't push yourself, Riku."

Riku smiled at his brother. 'So he still cares about me. That's sweet.' The boy thought as a small smile found it's way onto his lips. He slightly tilted his head wanting his brothers hand to stay. It brought comfort. It made him feel the safest he has ever been. He felt protected and cared for. Nothing else mattered right now.

"Tenn-nii. I'm okay. You are here now. Anyway, over the next few months after that there hadn't been a day where they didn't have a disagreement at least twice a day. At some point they decided to end their relationship and got divorced.
On the days I was well enough to go to school,my classmates stayed away from me. They treated me like I was some sort of disease that could infect them if they came too close to me. Older students picked on me together with younger ones too sometimes."

"Oh, Riku... I don't know what to say. An apology isn't enough anymore at this point."

Riku stayed silent for a bit. There was more. Of course that hadn't been everything he was forced to live through as a child, a young teenager. But he could feel how the older blamed himself for it. It was very clear and Riku couldn't summon enough strength to hurt the other by continuing his story. Not like he wanted to Anyway. He wasn't cold-hearted.

"My poor brother, that is not everything is it?"

Riku looked up at the pale pink coloured eyes of the older twin. He wriggled his hand from the older before wrapping both hands around the other.

"That is a story for another time, Tenn-nii. Ve a bit more patient please. It hurts to relieve these moments."

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AN

I am sorry for having take once again quite long to update. (I am noticing that I am practically always apologizing to you when ever I put something like this in a chapter...)

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it.

Stay safe and healthy.

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Chapter 14

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Chapter 15

/_Tenn's Pov_\

It has been hours since Riku left us here. It's now around 8pm. The other IDOLiSH7 member ate dinner in silence with me. We left enough for Riku... but he never came out of his room. "I'm going to check on Riku-kun." Said Osaka Sogo. "I'm going with you Osaka-san."

"No. As his older Brother it's my responsibility to look after him. I'll go check." And with that I left them and walked towards Riku's room. I knocked on it but there was nothing but silence. But I noticed that his door was a little bit open after me knocking on it.

"Riku, I'm coming in."

As I went in, I saw nothing. Well everything in his room is still there but no Riku. I noticed a photo album on his bed. Alone from standibg still in the doorway, I could see that it were pictures of when we didn't know someone named Takamasa Kujo....But than it hit me. Riku ran away. I grew worried and ran out of the hallway towards the main door.

"Kujo-san, where are you going ??" Asked Izumi Iori. "I'm going after Riku. He ran away."

I could hear that the other six members of IDOLiSH7 is running with me, running out of the door and onto the street. I could bearly see the red hair of my Brother as he runs down the same street as us.

"RIKU!!! PLEASE STOP!! STOP RUNNING, YOU ARE HURTING YOURSELF!!!!" I screamed at him as loud as I could. And I could tell that he heared me, he just didn't want to listen. We all ran after him but IDOLiSH7, except Riku, was getting slower and slower. Riku too.

And thanks to that I could finally catch him. When I got near him, I quickly went infront of him and held him tight. He was trying to get out of my hold while crying but it didn't work.

"Riku, calm down. You're okay now, I'm sorry. Riku..... I'm Sorry."

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Chapter 16

/_Riku's POV_\

I struggled to get out of my brothers grip, but I couldn't. The whole way, I've been running until just now, I was crying. I know it's not a good thing if you run away from your problems, they will never ever let you escape.

"Riku, calm down. You're okay now, I'm sorry. Riku..... I'm Sorry."

Why....Why does he think what happened in the past was his fault ??! It's not his, not Mothers or anyones fault. It happened because I was too weak. That's what my second father told me too, that I'm too weak to be alive.

"It's not your fault Tenn-nii....stop blaming yourself for something you're not part of...."

After saying that, I could not only feel but also hear other people being behind me. Probably IDOLiSH7..... I was trying to get out of my Brothers grip. I couldn't let anyone see me when I'm on the edge of breaking down completely. My Mask- my Act, which I have been working on so hard, will break if I don't get away.

Nobody saw through my act until now. Nobody. So why is it so hard to keep it up now ?? I never had so much trouble keeping my act up- keeping myself together. I started with this Mask when I was only five years old. It happened because Tenn-nii's and mine parents had their first fight around than. They screamed at each other for hours, for days..... and that because of me and my Illness.

"Tenn-nii please let me go.... I-I can't keep my act up anymore if I'm with at least one of you in the same place..... I just can't fake my personality and feelings anymore...."

Now it's out. My great kept Secret, which nobody new or even noticed, is out now.... I could feel the person infront of me tense up by the mentioning of 'act' and 'fake'. I also guess that the other members of IDOLiSH7 were just as shocked as Tenn-nii right now.

I understand that, that they must hate me now..... I kept lying to everyone I knew. I never really told anyone how I was really feeling. I sometimes even regretted doing that but it couldn't be helped.

I had to fake my whole life, to keep living like a normal person.

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Chapter 17

/_Riku's POV_\

"Rikkun, what do you mean with 'act' ??" Tamaki asked me as I was still caught up in my Brothers embrace and crying like Mother died before my eyes....

"I-I mean th-that I lied to everyone. I lied to Tenn-nii, I lied to you guys, *sob* to Doctor-san and even my parents. I lied to everyone I knew about my feelings and ju-just everything !!" I screamed the last part. Well not really screamed but I got louder and louder at the end.

"Hey Riku..." Trailed my Twin off "How about we first get back to the Dorm ?? We all don't want that Illness of yours to act up again...." By that Tenn-nii slowly let his hold on me losen. With every word he said.

I stepped a few steps backwards. I wrapped both of my arms around my chest while letting silent tears escape my eyes. Nobody really cares about me....

"Thanks to that Illness....." I trailed off as I could feel how everyone around me just stared at me. "THANKS TO THAT ILLNESS, I EVEN STARTED WITH MY WHOLE ACT!!!! Everyone just cares about that Illness and not one thing about me..... You all are no Exception!"

After my speech I was feeling dizzy and started coughing like crazy. I couldn't hear anything and my vision started to get blurry too. The next thing I knew was that I fell on knees and on my right side. After that nothing. I could see nothing but black.

It was so dark, so silent.

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Chapter 18

/_Tenn's POV_\

Iori called an Ambulance after my Twin collapesed on the ground. I have been sitting on my knees with Riku's head on them. After what happened today, I don't think that I know my only family anymore.

'THANKS TO THAT ILLNESS, I EVEN STARTED WITH MY WHOLE ACT!!!! Everyone just cares about that Illness and not one thing about me..... You all are no Exception!'

I wonder what he meant with that.....

'I-I mean th-that I lied to everyone. I lied to Tenn-nii, I lied to you guys, *sob* to Doctor-san and even my parents. I lied to everyone I knew about my feelings and ju-just everything!!'

And with that too...
Riku always had his Family, well not always but you know what I'm trying to say here. I don't really understand him anymore...... I wonder who long he kept up this 'act' of his?? He did say that it started with his Illness but.... he couldn't have faked all 18 years he has been alive right ??

But that's not the importanced thing right now. The only thing which is important now, is if Riku's life is in Danger or not.... I hope not. He is the only family I have left. Plus he is my Twin Brother and people say that Twins are like two half if seperated and together their are one. I don't want to lose him....

So I was now sitting on a chair, which stands against a wall. Two meters infront of me is Riku in a hospital bed. It's now around midnight but I can't just go and sleep, not when Riku is like that infront of me. But I need sleep. That's what Riku's Doctor told me.

It's not healthy and for an Idol to hear such words is one of the worst thing that could happen to you, well not all that bad. Maybe like when you break one of your arms or legs. It's not bad, stuff like that happens, but it hurts....

And because I nearly fell asleep before, when Riku's Doctor told me that. And so I let myself fall asleep on the uncontrolable chair I'm sitting on. I hope that my younger Brother won't die while I'm sleeping......

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Chapter 19

/_No one's POV_\

Right after Riku went to the Hospital, the Idolgroup was left alone in the street.

"Standing here won't bring anyone of us anything. It won't change, what will happen to Riku. Let's go back and wait there for news...." Yamato said.

"Yeah, let's go home." Said Iori as the others turned around and started walking back to the Dorm. "And let's not walk on the street."

They arrived not long after that at the Dorm. When Sogo wanted to open the Door infront of the group, it opened itself. Well not really...... They're Manager opened it. She looked like she just saw a ghost. She was sweating and looked a little bit paler.

"Manager, did something happen ?? You're all pale and sweaty....." Said Mitsuki. He commented, what everyone saw and wanted to say, but than again their Manager is female. They didn't want to hurt her or her pride.

'Mitsuki/Nii-san is really brave for stating the obivous....' thought the other 5 Idols. They all looked at her, to see how she will react to what Mitsuki just said.

"*pant* Yeah something happened..... Everyone *pant* now knows about Kujo-san and Riku-san's relationship. *pant* And t-they know that Riku-san has to be Ill." The only female in the Group stated.

But it was the truth. About 10 minutes before this happened, Tsumugi saw that an Ambulance took Riku and his older Brother with it. They also got confirmed, that Riku and Tenn are Family and to that even Twins. And because no one could see blood or a wound on the red haired boy, they just said that he has an Illness.

Which is true. Both of them but still.....

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Chapter 20

/_No one's POV_\

It shocked all six members of IDOLiSH7. Those news kinda told the whole world about their Center's Brother and his Illness, which he wanted to be unknown to his Fans.

Riku dislikes pity. And the group knows about that.

"How about we go inside and tell me what happened...." Tsumugi said as she slightly glared at the older Izumi Brother. She is angry about what he said. "I searched and looked everywhere for you all, but I couldn't find at least one of you. And that I see the news....."

As the Idols walked from their front door to the Livingroom, they all had the same thought. They also sweatdropped at the thought....
'Please don't let Manager kill Mitsuki/Nii-san/Me.'
But they all knew, that Mitsuki won't get away that easily. He said something to his Manager- to a woman, which should never have been said in the first place.

"W-Well we were all here, even Kujo-san was here, and those two Twins told us their background-Story. Nanase-san couldn't say anymore to that and left us alone. We later found out that he had run away. Kujo-san waa ahead of us, as we run after Nanase-san. Kujo-san cought up to his Brother. I can't remember anything else after that, I was to far from those two...."

Iori told her, as she slowly let her killer-look slip away. She could already say, thanks to the News, that Riku got worked up and collapsed. The poor boy.....

They got in the morning, around 9 am, a call from the Hospital. Riku's Doctor told them about his Situation and that he woke up around half a hour ago. After hearing those news, they all were on their way to their poor, fragile Center.

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Chapter 21

/_Riku's POV_\

When I woke up, I already knew what happened and where I am. I have been here to often after collapesing, so I'm pretty sure, I'm in a hospitel again. But something felt a little heavier than the blanket over my body.

I looked over and saw white. Because of that, I sat up to look at the white thing better. But when I did, I noticed that it was only my Twin. Thank God. Who knows what else it could have been.....

I knew that I collapesed, it was in a weird way even my goal. Because of that what 'Father' did to me, the only thing IDOLiSH7 and Tenn-nii don't know about. Thanks to that, my mask started to crack and my Act slowly broke down.

That Bastard raped me.

Now it's out. But I deserved it... Because of my stupid Illness, Tenn-nii left the Family. And after that everything else. So all the things that 'Father' did to me, were all things someone like me deserved.

That's also the reason, I wanted to die.... To finally leave this cruel world. But that doesn't matter right now.

I bent forward and shook my Twin awake. It took him a while, to let his head move upwords. But when he did, My brother looked me in the eyes. He looked at me with eyes, which aren't awake yet. "Good morning Tenn-nii."

By that, his eyes shot open and he looked shocked but a little bit Happy. I guess. I don't know..... He turned his head slowly my way. When he finally looked at me, my older Brother teared up. He hugged me while crying into my shoulder. I hugged him, trying to calm him down.

"I'm glad you are okay R-Riku...."

"Tenn-nii calm down. Of course I'm okay. Why wouldn't I be ??" I told him with a fake smile as he started to let go and sit on the Hospital bed. The whole time he did that, I couldn't look him in the eyes. Reason..... Well his hair shadowed them. He also held his head slightly to the ground.

"Riku..... The Doctor said that there were only 25% of you waking up."

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Chapter 22

/_Riku's POV_\

"Riku..... The Doctor said that there were only 25% of you waking up." I was shocked when Tenn-nii said that.

And I mean really shocked. I could feel my blood turn ice-cold and stop running through my body. My heart started to beat too fast, I was never in a situation like this one. I started to breath uneven and I could swear that I looked like a dead person, completely pale.

"That's not true right ??!" As I said that, I already got the feeling of going insane. "TELL ME THAT THIS ISN'T REAL!!! TENN-NII ANSWER MEEE!!!!!?"

After my out burst, the door to this room opened. Doctor-san was the person who walked in. "Riku-kun, please don't yell. Remember, we are inside a Hospital." He told me, completely calm.

'How can he be so calm about this??...... I co-could have died .....' I thought as tears started to fall from my eyes. I curled myself while still sitting on the Hospital bed. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to be in the middle of the room, because I really hate all the attention I'm getting.

I didn't want to be alive at that moment.
I wished I died.

"Riku-kun, there is no need for you to cry like that. Nothing serious happened. Oh. And I called your Friends, telling them that you're awake." And with that he left already. It was realky quiet after that....

"Riku.... do want to be alone for a bit ?? I can wait outside the room until your Friends arrive..." Tenn-nii questioned me as I only nodded to him. I couldn't speak to him right now..... 'Nothing serious happened.' I just can't get that sentence out of my already hurting head.

And yeah....my head started to hurt really bed, when my older Twin told me about my 25% chance of waking up. But I j-just can't believe what Doctor-san just said.....

I mean nobody says something like that, to someone who could have died. Or am I mistaking at that point ?? Not that I know of.

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Chapter 23

/_Riku's POV_\

I was still crying like the world will end in two weeks. But that won't happen. Sadly..... than I could finally have some peace in my life.

I'm glad my Brother left me alone, even through he will come in again when IDOLiSH7 arrives. Now I could finally be myself again. So I let my mask- my Act break away. I don't care anymore, really.
But still....
My Doctor's words just wouldn't leave my hurting head. Why does this World hate me so fucking much ??

'Nothing serious happened.' Why....Why did that Bastard #2 say that. He knows me right ?? I spend half of my life, if not my whole life, by him. I thought we were like Family......

I was now completely broken thanks to that asshole. I was broken by only 45%, when my parents had their fight about my well-being. Than another 10% when mom died. Only 5% when my Stepfather got abusive and now, I'm to 100% broken.

Now I was not only crying my poor, broken heart out, but I was also so angry. I never was so angry like right now. If only I could, I would kill Asshole #2 really slowly and painfully. But I can't. I have no intention of going to jail for something like that.

But insted of planing something I wouldn't do, I just stood up. I stood up to walk over to a cupboard on the opposite of the bed. I opened one of the small doors and looked inside. I saw some small cans in orange.

Out of rage, I took some random ones and thrown them on the ground as hard as I could. I repeated the action but with one difference. And this time, I threw them against the large window, between the cupboard and the damn Hospital bed. I threw them so hard the window broke.
Ops....Sorry not Sorry.

I bent forward and picked a broken piece of glass up. And no, I don't know how it landed inside the room and not outside the stupid Building. I looked at it like I was crazy. And to be honest, I knew that I must have completely lost every normal sence.

Because that piece of broken glass looked so friendly..... So I held it against my left arm to feel absolutely nothing. I thought that it would hurt like hell but nothing. And thanks to that, I held it on my arm, always going a little bit nearer my wrist.

But nothing.
I couldn't hear anything.
I couldn't feel any of the pain or the blood flowing out of the cut, along my arm and down to the floor. Nothing.....

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Chapter 24

/_No one's POV_\

As Tenn just walked out of the Hospital room, his younger Twin Brother was in, he still could hear the crying from his only Family left. And that broke his heart. He too thought why Riku's Doctor said such cruel things to his Brother.

Riku could have died!
And that damn Doctor, who took Riku in for long time, said to not worry about anything. Or that nothing serious happened, while Riku was crying.

He sat on the opposite side of the room. There were three chairs and a small table with a little clock and Magazins. Now Tenn just had to wait until the rest of IDOLiSH7 came there. Because than, he could go to his Brother again.

"Kujo-san." Tenn suddenly heared a voice. He turned his head to were he heared it and was angry at the person beside him. "Riku-kun's Friends will be here soon but someone else will be here soon too. It will take him a little longer than your Brothers Friends, but please wait for him."

And than he left again. What is wrong with that Doctor ? Tenn thought that he wanted to Apologize for what he said just a few minutes ago. But nothing...
And who is that other person he meant ??

After around 10 minutes, Tenn could hear a herd of people running in the Distance. When he looked to his right, he saw IDOLiSH7, minus Riku, and their Manager now walking like normal people towards him. Tenn had relive writen all over his face. Now he could finally go back to his younger Brother.

"Kujo-san, why are you here outside ??" Asked Tsumugi. The whole way from the Dorm 'til the group reached the Hospital, she was worring about IDOLiSH7's Center. She had a really big feeling, if they wouldn't get there fast enough, that Riku would die. "Shouldn't you be by Riku-san ?? Did somet-"

Tsumugi was cut off, when the eight people infront of Riku's Hospital room, heared something shatter. Something like glass. After a few minutes of pure shock and worry about the person inside, Tenn was the first person to slam the door to his Twin open and run inside.

The others were right behind him. But when they saw what happened, they were shocked. The only but big window had a hole, some shards of the window were inside the room too. A small door to a cupboard was open and some cans full with medizen were missing. Others were lying and only a few were still standing like they were suposed to do.

Right infront of the window, was Riku sitting on his knees while cutting his arm with a piece of broken glass. Tenn stood there shocked, while Iori over to his Center run and took the glass away. Tenn ran over to his Brother with a bandage and started to wrap it around Riku's now wounded arm.

"...That should at least stop the bleeding for now..... Just what happened the few minutes I wasn't here?" Tenn questioned himself the last part. He couldn't believe what would have happened if he was waiting not infront of this Twins room. He could have lost his last Family member!

He could have lost the only person, who keeps him sane.
He could have lost the only humanbeing, he truely trusted....

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Chapter 25

/_Riku's POV_\

Tenn came running inside with IDOLiSH7 and Manager. Iori was the first one, to come up to me. My twin came a few seconds after him. Tenn wrapped a bandage around the arm, I just started to cut. They also said something but I couldn't understand anything.

I wonder why they stopped me.....
I mean even my 'Doctor' didn't care about me, so why are they trying so hard ??

"Riku, please don't do something like that again. I thought, that I would lose you okay ?" Asked Tenn. He seemed relived that I'm still breathing. But nobody really cares about a burden like me, so why did he just say something like that ??

"We will leave you alone for bit."
And with that everyone else left. Now it was just Tenn and me. Alone in this Hospital room. Oh yeah..... I don't know if I already said it but, when I let my ask break or when I was completely alone, I started to call my older Twin just Tenn.

"Riku....." Pulled out my thoughts, I looked over to the only other person here with me. "Why did you do that ??" I gave him a confused look. "You know what I mean. Why did you break the glass?? Why did you harm yourself ??"

I just looked at him. I though-thought I made it pretty obivous, or not ?
"What did it look like ?? I wanted to die of course!! What else would I want doing something like Self-Harm if I wanted to live in this cruel world ??"

"..." My only other Family beside my Stepfather was speechless. I never saw Tenn in a state like that. I guess there is a first time for everything.... But it felt weird. Really it did. The Tenn I know, was never speechless. But well, I didn't know how he was, when he was with Kujo-san or when he was with TRIGGER.

He tried saying something, but nothing came out of his mouth. He looked down, while we were still sitting on our legs. When he looked up, Tenn had confidence in his eyes. "Riku I-I'm Sor-"

He was cut off, when the door to this room opened. And now, Tenn wasn't the one, who was speechless but me. I never thought, that I would see him again....

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AN

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Just like always💞
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Chapter 26

AN

Hey.....
Okay, this is going to be a little bit important for the Story



This is Riku's Stepfather



And this is his Doctor

Well that's it
Now on with the Chapter!!
Hope you will enjoy it💞

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/_No one's POV_\

The door to the Hospital room, where Tenn and Riku where at, opened and a man stepped in. He looked really pale. His hair was purple with a little bit grey in it. The eyes of this man were also purple. He wore a black jacket with a white shirt underneath it, and also black jeans.

This man is known as Sakanoue Kinzo. Also known as Riku's Stepfather. Kinzo had no emotion in his eyes, just a blank stare with an emotinless face. He stepped into his Sons room and closed the door behind him.

"Hello Riku-chan, how are you?? I haven't seen you in ages....." His voice was gentle at first but it got colder and colder, when he saw that someone else was with his Son. Kinzo doesn't like it one bit, if someone except him, or his Lover, is around Riku.

"Who are you and how do you know Riku ??" Asked Tenn getting angry but also confused. It doesn't happen everyday, that somone who knows his Twin suddenly appears out of no where and sounds really cold just by talking. Tenn never met a person, who was even near that man's character.

"No one said that you could say something kid! So just stay away from my Family!!" Kinzo nearly screamed at the poor TRIGGER Member. "I was speaking to my Son, so shut your mouth kid!! So Riku-chan, how are you ??" At first, Kinzo was still pissed at the third person in the room but he got more gentle with his words and voice, when he was, again, asking Riku.

Riku, himself, was shocked to see his Stepfather again. He thought he would never ever see him in his life again. Riku was told that Kinzo would be in Jail for his whole life.
"Father, I-I'm quiet alright." He answered as polite as possible. "But what are you doing here, if it's alright for me to ask." By now Riku was standing while Tenn was still sitting on the cold hard Ground.

"To answer your question my Lovely Son, my Lover got me out a year ago. He payed so much that I could leave hell early." Kinzo told mostly Riku. He ignored Tenn completely. "And you know him pretty well. He looked after you after all."

And than it clicked in Riku's head. There was only one person, who looked after him, while his Stepfather was in Jail. His Doctor, Ishimaru Tetsu. The younger one of the Twins looked shocked and he had fear clearly visible in his eyes. Tenn was still confused and just a little bit angry at the man, for ignoring him.

"Yeah. That's right my dear Son. My lover is the one and only, Ishimaru Tetsu. Your personal Doctor."

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Chapter 27

/_Riku's POV_\

"Yeah. That's right my dear Son. My lover is the one and only, Ishimaru Tetsu. Your personal Doctor. The whole time, you two spend together, he was always acting. Just like you, Riku-chan."

With every word, my Stepfather came closer. By his last sentence, he stood right infront of me, while caressing my left cheek. And I could do nothing but stand there and let him do, what ever he wanted to do.

"What do you think your doing to Riku??!" Screamed Tenn-nii. I didn't notice him standing up and walking up to us both. "LET GO OF MY BROTHER, YOU CREEP !!" Tenn-nii pushed my Stepfather away and stood now infront of me.

"Tenn-nii calm do-" I got cut off as the room door slamed open. Something like that never happened in this Hospital before. That's why I hid myself behind my older Twin Brother. Someone came in but they stopped walking infront of Tenn-nii. I looked up from behind my Twin and saw...

"Kin-chan, you know that this a Hospital right ?? You can't be to loud." My Doctor had his arms wrapped around my Stepfathers waist and his chin laid on Sakanoue's shoulder. 'Why is he here ??!' I thought paniced.

"Gomen, Tetsu. But that Brat got between me and my adorable Son." My Stepfather told my Doctor. It really feels weird, seeing those two like that. I felt like I need to puke, when I remembered Stepfathers words.
" The whole time, you two spend together, he was always acting. Just like you, Riku-chan."

And I thought, that had someone who cared about me, while Stepfather was in Jail.
I thought worng. And how wrong I guessed!

"Fa-Father..." I started still with fear controlling my body. "How long have you and Ishimaru-san been together ??" I had this feeling deep down, that I really didn't want an answer. But it just came out....

"Oh. For ages my Boy. Mhmm.... let me think, around 10 years. Right Tetsu ?" He told me, as my 'Doctor' nodded to his Statement. "That means I was gay before I met your Dead Mom."

I-I just couldn't understand this man. Why did he marry Mom i-if he wasn't even into females ?
I started to cry and Tenn-nii was trying hard to calm me down. Stepfather and Ishimaru-san left together. But before that Stepfather said something.

"Riku-chan, I'll be waiting at home for you~. Then we can finally play again~."

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Chapter 28

/_No one's POV_\

"Riku want me to bring IDOLiSH7??" Tenn asked his younger Twin. He wanted to help Riku but didn't know how. So he thought of bringing his Brothers Friends.
But Riku never answered Tenn's question, so he just left, to go find them.

Tenn ran through the hall of the Hospital, trying to find IDOLiSH7 as fast as possible. He didn't want to leave his Twin alone for too long. Not after the fact, that Riku's Stepfather came back. He ran and ran until he finally found them. Why did they have to be on the other side of the Hospital??

"Something is wrong with Riku....." Tenn told them as he was panting with his hands on his knees. The six members and their Manager instantly understood what the Center of TRIGGER wanted from them. He wanted them to help him.

As they all were running back to Riku's room, Tsumugi asked, "Kujo-san, what exacly is wrong with Riku-san ??"

"You will probably know when you see him." As soon Tenn finished, you could hear a scream through the hole building. And the eight people on the run, knew from who and from where that scream came from. From IDOLiSH7's Center, out of the room 13.

They all started run even faster. Tsumigi opened the door to Riku's room, when they reached it. Everyone ran in to see Riku screaming, tears streaming down his face and hands on both sides of his head.

Riku didn't even notice someone at the door, he just kept screaming. Like trying to keep something out of his head..... It broke Tenn. He slowly walked over to Riku, without saying anything. Just the tears, which were now running down his cheeks, were telling everyone, how he feels right now.

He walked up to Riku and hugged him. Trying to calm him from all the screaming.... The seven other people only stood there watching the whole thing.

"I'm sorry
I'm so sorry now
I'm sorry
That I let you down"

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Chapter 29

/_Riku's POV_\

"I'm sorry
I'm so sorry now
I'm sorry
That I let you down"

Wh-Why did Tenn-nii say that ??
It's not his fault, but mine...
He never let me down, but I let everyone I care about down, all the time.

I stopped my screaming as soon as I noticed that the person hugging me, was only Tenn-nii and nobody else. I was screaming b-because I felt completely terrified. I didn't notice that Tenn-nii left this room, and I tought thst he left me all alone. Again...
It was stupid of me, to even think like that...

I don't want to go back to my Stepfather again. Or that crazy Bastard, who called himself my second Father or even 'my' personal Doctor. He betrayed my trust completely.

"T-Tenn-nii *sob* I d-don't wa-want to go back t-to my Ste-Stepfather...." I told him as I hugged him back. But my voice was a little bit horse thanks to all my screaming. I could feel my Brothers arms tighting on me. I opened my eyes, looking staight ahead of me. And what I saw shocked me a little.

The worried faces of my Friends....
"Riku.... You don't have to." Said Tenn-nii, trying to calm down from all the crying.
"Yeah Rikkun! We'll protect you."
"Nanase-san we'd never let you go to him."

And something like that was said by the others too. I'm glad that I have such good Friends. I feel so lucky....

After a while a nurse told me, that I was now allowed to leave. We all went straight to IDOLiSH7's Dorm. We were all now sitting, again, in the Livingroom. Talking about what we will do about this Situation. And in the end, we decided that Tenn-nii and me would stay at Yaotome Production.

Ishimaru-san knew where IDOLiSH7's Dorm is and where Takanashi Productions. Because I told him.... But Tenn-nii said that I would be saver, when he knew where I was and when I'm around him.

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AN

Hey
How are you Reader-chan??
I'm sick.....😧

But today is the day!!!!!
Today should come the last two Episodes of IDOLiSH7.
Or at least the first Season......hopefully

I made pic⬇ around the time when Episode 15 ended...



Hope you will enjoy the upcoming Episodes
&
I hope you enjoyed this Chapter💞

Bye bye
My little poor Souls💝

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Chapter 30

/_No one's POV_\

Riku and Tenn left the IDOLiSH7-Dorm. Outside was already a black car waiting for them. Riku already told his Friends a Temporary Goodbye.

This whole thing was just for him, nobody around him wants to hurt him. Or see him hurt or even getting mistreated from his aggressiv Stepfather or lying Doctor.

So when we finally reached Yaotome Productions, Tenn-nii brought me to the other TRIGGER members. He told them what happened at the hospital, a little bit of the past between my Stepfather and myself and he explained them why I'm here right now.

Tenn-nii than left us three all alone to talk with Gaku-san's Father and their Manager. To be honest, I think that that man is really strange...., but that's probably only me who thinks even like that.

It was quiet between TRIGGER and me. Well it was until Ryou-san decided to break it.
"Hey Riku-kun, can I ask you something ??"
I nodded to him, signaling him to continue.

"This may sound pretty stupid but... Are you really okay? And I'm asking the Riku Nanase behind his mask."

"H-How d-"

"I had a Friend back in Middle school. He acted the same way, but the only difference between you and him is that you are still alive, Riku-kun.
So how are you feeling??"

I guess I can't hide everything from everyone.... But I'm glad that there is at least one person who can see through me.

"I'm sorry for your lose, Ryou-san." I told him as I bowed myself. "And I'm not really okay..... Finding out that the person, who I trusted beside Tenn-nii, was betraying me, wasn't easy to sink in. And to see my Stepfather again, just..... just broke me."

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Chapter 31

/_Tenn's POV_\

When I finished explaining Riku's Situation to TRIGGER'S Manager, I walked back to the room where I left my precious little brother with the other two Idols from TRIGGER.

I opened the door to find Riku already asleep on the couch while Gaku sat on a armchair, doing something on his phone, and Ryou had my Twins head on his lap.

"Ah. Tenn, he fell asleep and Gaku and I thought that this would be the best for him......"

"Don't worry Ryou. But can you please bring him into my room ? It's getting late, we should all go to bed now...."

Ryou brought Riku into my room-my bed and than left to go to his own. Gaku stayed a little longer in that armchair, I guess....
I don't know, I left at the same time as Ryou.....

I walked over to Riku, who was sleeping in my bed. I layed myself beside him, so that we were now face to face. I smiled at him, even through he can't see it, and brushed a little bit of his red hair out of his face.

He is adorable. When he was still young and now too.

After a few minutes, I also feel asleep. The next thing I knew, was that I was back in school. With Riku. When we were still young and before I left him alone.

When I think back to that day, I always felt really guilty.

I was invited to a classmates birthday party and I did go to the party.... Before I went there, Riku told me that he wasn't invited, that meant he walked home alone. I later found out that he got an attack and that he had to go to the Hospital.

Our parents picked me from the party up and we all drove to Riku. They told me that he never arrived at home. They got to know about Riku's attack from his Doctor.

When we arrived at the hospital, we weren't allowed to go and see Riku. I still have no idea why we couldn't....
That Doctor told us that a man called the Ambulance, when he saw some kids bigger than Riku, beating him up.

After a whole week- after seven days, Riku finally was allowed to come back home. Those days, I was really depressive, I just blamed myself for what happened to Riku.

"If I never went to that party and just walked home together with him..... t-than that would have never happened!!!!"

I told myself that all the time. Mom, Dad and even Riku told me always that it wasn't my fault. But even until today, when I'm together with TRIGGER, I still blame myself.

A week later, I left with Kujo-san. I missed our shared birthdays from the age of 11 until 18, or until now.
I messed up big time....

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Chapter 32

/_Riku's POV_\

When I woke up, the first thing I noticed was that I wasn't lying on the couch from yesterday anymore. I was lying in a bed, with a blanket over my body and fluffy pillow under my head.

But.... I was alone.
Alone in this bed and probably even in this room.
I wonder whose room this even is.... Maybe Tenn-nii's....

I stood up from the bed, noticed that I really was alone, and walked over to the door. But before I could open it, someone else opened it and it hit right on my forehead. I stepped a few feet away from the door while holding my forehead.

I looked at the door and saw Tenn-nii still holding the door knob. It took him a while before he noticed the Situation. When he came running to me, while apologizing to me, I started to laugh.

His reaction was really funny. I couldn't stop myself.

"Hey Riku, I'm Sorry.... I didn't mean to hit you. Are you alright ?? Does it still hurt ?? And why are you laughing?? Riku ??!"

"Tenn-nii, Tenn-nii. Calm down, I'm alright. It doesn't hurt anymore and I'm laughing because this reminded me a lot of our shared childhood."

I told him that with my eyes closed and a bright smile on my face. When I opened my eyes again, he smiled back at me but only with a small smile.....

"That's good. Well than come on! Gaku and Ryou decided to eat Breakfast somewhere in the city."

And with that he left me alone again. But this time I knew why. I had to shower myself and dress myself. Because I was getting really hungry, I hurried with the shower and dressed myself up in less that 3 minutes.

When I was done, the members of TRIGGER were already waiting for me at the bottom of this damn high building. When I reached them, we all walked out of Yaotome Productions together.

Walked through the city in pairs of two, but still walking together as we left. Just with Gaku-san and Ryou-san infront of my brother and me.

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Chapter 33

/_No one's POV_\

After a short while of walking through town, the four Idols reached a Café. It was the only one, which is often visited my the TRIGGER Members.
When they reached it, only TRIGGER went inside it.

"Riku, you wait here. We will bring our Breakfast, okay ??" Tenn said to his Twin as he turned to look at him. With that the three members of TRIGGER walked into the Café, leaving IDOLiSH7's Center alone outside.

Riku, to lazy to wait infront of the building, walked over to one of the tables standing before the Café. He sat down at a table for four people and waited there for his older Twin Brother and the two other Idols.

After only five minutes of sitting there, he noticed something quite odd. Nobody and I mean nobody was around him. He also couldn't hear anything, even through so many people were in town only minutes ago...

Just as Riku began to really get paniced, one- no two grown ups caming and sat down. One of them sat opposite of Riku whole the other sat beside the younger of the Nanase Twins.

But....
He couldn't see their faces at all. And when the one ,opposite of himself sat, started to open his mouth and talked, Riku couldn't hear anything. It was quiet no matter what those strangers wanted from the redhead.

After some time, he somehow started to get dizzy. Still paniced, Riku slowly but clearly started to see small black dots in his vision.
'No....NO! NO! NO! PLEASE DON'T COLLAPES NOW!!!'
Riku thought but luck wasn't on his side today.

But before IDOLiSH7's Center could hit the table with his head, the man beside him caught him. But Riku could still hear and see a little bit, he forced himself to stay awake at least a little longer.

But than he could the people, who were in two before, again. Riku could also see them. Well not too good, but he could make out the shapes of women, men and children.

It's like, whatever made the people dissapre and the noise too, vanished. Like some magic spell broke.

The last thing he remember was a woman asking if he was alright. A deeper voice answered with, "He is alright. Don't worry we will bring him home, we are family after all."

And with that, Riku lost his consciousness.
But he knew that, who ever were those man, they weren't related at all.

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Chapter 34

/_Riku's POV_\

When I woke up, I was on something hard and really cold. I was laying on the ground of the basement of the house I grew up. I knew this because, I was often down here after Mom died.

But.... What am I doing here ??

Right than the old metal door opened and closed when two people entered this room. I kinda got an idea who they are, but I can't prove it 'cause they have masks on their faces.

"You are finally awake my dear Son."

And now I know that I was right eith my guess.
It's my Stepfather and my 'Doctor'.
But after hearing his voice, I felt a shiver going down my back. No matter how often I see him, I'm still scared. And now it's only his voice which scares me.

"Tetsu. Could go up ?? I need some time catching up with my Son."

My 'Doctor' left after my Stepfather told him so. Now it's only him and me. Alone in the basement. Great.....

"Riku~, you made me worried yesterday~. You never came home, what if something happened to my dear Son~?"

With every second word, he came closer and closer until he stood right infront of me. And the only thing I could do was sitting there with my arms behind my back. I noticed a few seconds ago that I had handcuffs around my wrists. Probably so that would have 0% of escaping.

I also stayed silent. That's something I learned over the last few years, speak only if your allowed to.

He moved his right hand to my hand to my cheeks and made me look at him in the eyes. Stepfather had an evil glint in them. I knew what will happen if I won't do what he wants me to do. It's either rape or torture.

"Where were you Riku~ ?!"

"I was by TRIGGER- by my Brother."

When I told him that, he moved his hand away from my face only to slap me with the same one. But I didn't let a sound from the sudden pain out, neither did I let it show on my face. It would show him that I was in pain and he would just get aggressive. More than usually.

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Chapter 35

/_No one's POV_\

That night, Kinzo left Riku chained to a wall in the basement. With nothing to eat nor drink. Kinzo walked up the stairs and into his shared bedroom. Since it was already late, his Lover was already asleep. And too lazy and tired, Kinzo only took of his pants and went under the covers to join his Lover.

At the same time down in the basement, Riku was forced to remember his past. Well he wasn't forced by any kind of person but being in the basement, of the house he used to live in, brought memories back. The good ones with his Mom, real Father and his older Twin Brother. But Memories of being beaten and everything came back too.

At the end, Riku never really got much sleep that night. Maybe around a hour or even less. And when he finally got sleep, Riku got waken up with cold water being splashed right over his head. Right after that, Kinzo kicked Riku into his stomache, to make sure that his Son was really awake.

"So now that you are awake, Riku~, I'll ask you once more. Where were you?"

Riku flinshed under his Stepfathers deadly stare.



His Stepfather must have improved it because not like all those years ago, Riku fellt really terrified of the man infront him- or in Riku's case, above his head.

"I already told you! I went straight to Yaotome Productions. To where my older Twin lives!"
Riku regretted yelling at the person infront of him. He forgot for only a second, who was around him.

Kinzo fastly took hold of the collar of Riku's shirt. And so he pulled his Son up, enough so they were now face to face. Something inside him snapped, probably the fact that his own Son just yelled at him. Or the fact, that Riku was repeating himself.

He threw Riku back against the wall, Riku was chained to, and hard. When Riku landed on the cold, wet ground he quietly hissed from the pain.

No wasting time, Kinzo kicked, kicked and kicked his Son everywhere possible. But Riku rarely let any sound out nor did it show on his face, that the young redhead was in pain. Getting bored of that, Kinzo fixed the chains so, that instead of having them on the ground but on the ceiling. Now, Riku was fored to be a little bit above the ground.

After finishing that, Kinzo left the basement. He walked up and into the kitchen of the house. Seeing that his Lover, Tetsu, was waiting for him. They ate in silence.
While they ate, Riku's stomach made himself known, meaning that the redhead was hungry. Really hungry. But that's understandable, the poor guy hadn't eaten for more that 24 hours.

His Stepfather came back some time around evening. Around than, Riku got another beating, but this time a knife was involved. Kinzo cut his Son on his arms, chest and stomach. But it wasn't even everything he could do. Tomorrow will be worse, than Kinzo will begin his actually torture.

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Chapter 36

/_No one's POV_\

And Riku was right. The real torture started the following day. Starting with his wake up call. Kinzo whipped him on the back with a black leather whip. Which he used to use when Riku was still little.

Being taken by suprise, Riku screamed out of pain.

"Riku~ Good morning~"
Even when Kinzo unly greeted him, Riku was scared. Well Riku was always scared of this man, even when Riku just met him. The poor redhead was always scared when he was around that man.

"Riku~ that shirt is in the way. It keeps me away from you, Dear~. So I'll take it off..."
And that's what the older man in the room did. But a little bit more forceful than he said. Instead of taking it off, Kinzo ripped the shirt of his Son.

Anfter doing so, Kinzo started his morning punishment. He hit Riku's skin over and over again with his leather whip. And all Riku could do was screaming out of pain. He couldn't take the pain from being whipped on his back or stomach.

"Riku~ it sounds like you are enjoying this~. Do you want Dad to hit you harder ?" Kinzo asked while standing infront of the Idol. He looked him right in the eye and when Riku moved his head to the side, Kinzo held his head in a forceful grip so, that Riku was forced to look into his Stepfathers eyes.

"N-n-no....." Riku's voice broke while saying only one simple, small word. He started crying dilently, knowing what it meant, when he disobeyed his Stepfather. But what ever Riku would have said, Kinzo wouldn't have listened to the redhead before him.

Kinzo walked behind his son and hit him as hard as possible on the redheads back. Riku cried out in pain, while feeling romething rushing out of the newest wound. He knew what it was and Kinzo was satisfied with what he just did, making his son bleed.

He moved infront of the Idol and looked at him before saying, "Riku~, Tetsu will becoming down here and bring you your lunch and some water. He will also bring you a new outfit. We'll see each other lster in the evening. Bye~."
And with that, Kinzo left the Basement after letting the chains from the ceiling fall down to the ground.

Kinzo knew that his Son would never try to escape him. Plus with the bleeding wound on his back, who knows how far he even could get. The basement doors are also locked.

And just like Kinzo said, his Lover, Tetsu, came down with something to eat, something to drink and an outfit.



Tetsu left Riku, when he was done with eating and his glass of water. He left the clothes there, saying that he will just bring the other things to the kitchen, in that time Riku should change into the brought outfit.

And Riku did so. Scared of whatever his 'Doctor' could do to him.
But when Tetsu once again, came down, he promised the redhead to try and change his Lovers plans. Tetsu fixed the chains so, that they were once again against the wall.He left with Riku's other clothes after doing so.

That night Kinzo never came down again.
Riku has been in this basement for three whole days. Even through the first day, he was with TRIGGER in the morning, it counts as being here.

And with that thought in his head, Riku fell asleep. Hoping that everything will be over soon. That he could hear his friends voices again, that he could vbe by his brothers side. And nothing more....

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AN

Hey, it's been a long while since I made a note in chapters.....
How are you ??....

Umm....
I'm sorry about the last two or three chapters with this one counted, I really am!!



Those are only a few from the last chapter ... but I'm really sorry.....



Those 2 already planed how to kill Kinzo aka Bastard aka Riku's Stepfather

Well I hope your poor Soul will still enjoy this Story and has followed this Story until now😖
The next chapter will be out either today, tomorrow or Monday.........

So until than
Bye bye💝

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Chapter 37

/_Riku's POV_\

It has been five days since Stepfather brought me here. Two days since he last hit me. Two days since I last saw him. And that Doctor of mine. It's like they completely forgot that I was down here. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy that I was left alone. But I'm kinda hungry.

"I hope somebody will find and save me...."

I murmeled to myself as I pulled my legs to my chest and embraced them with my arms. I also put my head on my knees. Waiting for something to happen, until....

/_No one's POV_\

The heavy door to the basement got thrown open. The red haired Idol looked up from his knees to see his savior. Or Saviors in this Situation....
There in the doorway stood nine other buf familiar Idols. IDOLiSH7 and TRIGGER.

Tenn, the redheads older Twin Brother, ran up to Riku to embrace him. He was really worried the last few days. First, his Brother gets broken and betrayed by the person who raised him and than, Riku suddenly disappears. Tenn blamed himself, he thought that everything, that went wrong in his younger Twins life, was his fault.

"I'm sorry Riku! I-I should ha-have come earlier!!" Tenn cried into his younger Brothers shoulder. He was afraid that Riku could have never been found, that Riku could have benn dead.
"Are you okay?! Where did that Bastard hurt you ??!"

"I'm okay Tenn-nii. And he only left one real wound, the rest healed over the last two days."
While Riku said that, Yamato and Sogo were working on the chains. After they got the off of their redheaded Center, Iori and Mitsuki help Riku standing up.

Ryou and Gaku were still standing by the bssement door, looking out for any movement outside of the room downstairs. Tenn helped his Twin with the walking, the rest of IDOLiSH7 walked either before or behind the two, looking out for them.

Gaku gave a short signal to everyone, that nobody had heared them or was around. Everyone walked up the stairs and slowly towards the front door of the building.

"It brings back memories from back than right, being in our parents house?? Right Tenn-nii??"

"Yeah... but it must bring horrible memories back for you, Riku..."

Riku only nodded and right when they all were only a few feet away from the front door, it opened. And in came Riku's Stepfather. All ten Idols looked shocked, while Kinzo olny looked Furious.

"WHAT DO YOU BRATS THINK YOU ARE DOING ??!!!!"

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Chapter 38

/_Tenn's POV_\

When I saw that Stepfather of my Twin's all the color on my face vanished. At first my blood turned cold seeing that Bastard, but as fast as it turned cold, it started to boil from hatred.

How dare he show his face after what he did to Riku!

Nagi, Yamato, Mitsuki, his younger Brother, Riku and myself walked slowly to the kitchen, hoping that the others somehow can deal with that Bastard. I let go of Riku and let him by his Friends. I walked up to the door frame and watched the other 2 from IDOLiSH7 and TRIGGER what they do with that sorry excuse of a living being.

That Sogo was holding something out of metal while Tamaki held his head. He was probably hit by that Bastard and Sogo went into his overprotective mode.
He's scary!
Gaku tried to hold Riku's 'Stepfather' down but it barely worked. Ryou went outside and held that wierd doctor on the ground while calling the police. You could see that through the kitchen window.

As Sogo threw that metal thingy at that Bastard, Gaku let go of him. Bad Idea, 'cause he dodged it and kicked Sogo into his side. He turned around and also kicked Gaku into his side. Both of them cried out of pain and fell to the ground. At that moment, I turned around to look at the others.

"Minna! He is coming! IDOLiSH7, I want you guys to protect Riku. Riku take something to protect you also, if that Bastard gets through us all, you need to protect yourself." I told them loud enough so only they could here me.

As soon as I was done, that Bastard pushed me away and I hit something from the kitchen. Shit!
When I tried to stand up, my body wouldn't move. I guess I hit my head a bit too hard.
Now I could only watch what he did the my Riku and the other four.

Yamato and Mitsuki went infront of everybody trying to protect him but both of them were pushed either side of the kitchen. Yamato hit something from the kitchen also and Mitsuki fell against the wall. The poor guy...
"Nii-san!" Was heared right after that. The Bastard took Iori and threw him into the corner next to the door frame. He did the same with Nagi but he was thrown onto the table that stood there.

"RIKU!! LEAVE HIM ALONE YOU BASTARD!!!!!" I screamed as loud as I could but that man was already standing infront of my brother with a death glare. He tried to take him but Riku moved both of his hands into the area where that assholes heart is. Riku had his eyes closed the whole time with his head to the right. The Bastard's hands and arms fell to his sides, and after some quick seconds, he fell backwards. You could see with what Riku protected himself, it was a large and sharp knife. And that was standing out of that Bastard body, where the heart lays.

It didn't take long until we heared two sirins. A police man came inside the house and looked around. Two Emergency Physicians came to us. One of them looked at our small wounds while the other took the dead body with him.

When I could finally stand up, I walked over to the frame again, to see that the others were looked at and after too. I sighed in relive and slowly made my way over to Riku. He was shaking like crazy and his breathing was unstable. I went and hugged him, I told him to slowly breathe in and out. He did that and hugged back.

"You're safe now, Riku."

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Chapter 39

/_Tenn's POV_\

After Riku's Stepfathers dead body was brought away, a police man brought Yamato, Iori, Nagi, Mitsuki, Riku and me some blankets. A paramedic wrapped a bandage around the small wound on my head, while I was on Riku's side.

He needed someone by his side right now. After everything that happened to him the last few days and hours, it's understandable. A police man asked him questions every person from the police has to ask when there was a dead body found.

When the question came, how it came to Sakanoue Kinzo's death, Riku hesitated.

So I answered for him. I told the man before us, that I told Riku to grap something to protect him as soon as we were in the kitchen. I told him that Kinzo pushed us all out of the way, so that nobody could help my twin. I also told him that everything that happened after that, was an act out of self protection. If there has been a different way to stop him in that moment, we all would have done that but there wasn't.

The police man understood that and left us be.

I turned around a bit and hugged my younger Twin. He needed it, I knew it. He immidently hugged back and broke down crying. I told him that he is save now, that nothing will happen to him. I told him that we will always be together, no matter what!
He stopped his crying after he let everything he kept away out. When he completely stopped, I put my arm around his waist and we slowly walked over to the Idols of IDOLiSH7 and TRIGGER. On the way there Riku asked me something.

"Tenn-nii, how did you and the others even find me ??"

"Thanks to that Doctor of yours. Two days ago he called us or more IDOLiSH7's Manager. But she gave the call over to me. Your Doctor told me that you had gone home. Not a second later he ended the call. It took us sometime to figure it out but that's how we could even find you."

I looked over to Riku, to wait for a reaction but when he showed one, he didn't looked shocked. More like relived, I smiled at him. It didn't take us long to reach the others after our little talk.
We talked a bit with them until it got dark. It was time for TRIGGER and IDOLiSH7 to say goodbye but I told them that I didn't want Riku to be alone. Actually he wouldn't be alone but I guess they all understood and let me stay the night with him.

And so the eight of us walked slowly towards IDOLiSH7's Dorm. Their Manager greeted us all. Everyone walked into their own rooms while their Manager left the Building to go to her Father's home or somewhere. Who knows....
I went with Riku into his room and slept like when we were younger. Together in the bed. That night I was happy and glad to have someone like Riku as my Brother. Even after everything I did, he never seemed to hate me. Not even once....

The next morning Riku woke me up. We changed into some other clothes and walked out of his room. We walked through the hallway until we reached the Dorm's kitchen. Mitsuki and Iori were the ones who cooked todays breakfast.
After around ten minutes, the other Idols came and we all ate together. I left them soon after that.

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Chapter 40

/_Riku's POV_\

Right after Tenn-nii left us, Sogo turned on the TV. The first thing it showed was the news. They talked about two older men kidnapping a 18 year old male. I knew instantly that it was about the incedent that happened the last few days. They talked how they kidnapped the boy and where.

I'm happy they don't say the name of the boy, my name. I'm really, really glad for that.

They said what excacly happened and what will happen with the kidnappers. Well kidnapper 'cause one of them died. They just said that he died but never said how or who was the cause, in which I'm also glad for. Because Ishimaru Tetsu, my Doctor, helped the boys saviours, I guess, he was only sentenced with 3 years of jail.

I smiled at that fact because, he didn't really do anything to me. He gave me food, water and something to change into. And that's it.
After that, Sogo changed the chanel to one were only music is played, for the whole day. We listened to it and talked about some stuff.

"Rikkun," I looked over to Tamaki, still with a small smile on my face. "What will happen to that weird Stepfather of yours?"

"Tamaki!"

"Well,.... I guess I can let him get burried. But not here, maybe in the next city..." I answered Tamaki's question while thinking about the subject. Nobody in their right mind would do something to their Stepfather, after every bad thing he did to those. But I never really disliked him, deep down I still saw him as a father I guess.

Plus, I was more afraid than angry at that man.

We left the subject and talked about more happy things, like our next Performance or something. Manager came later that day and told us about us having a new Song soon. It was called 'Today is'.

The next few days went like always or more like before they knew about my parents.
Those days turned into weeks, weeks turned to monthes and those turned into years.

I went every year to the grave yard with Tenn-nii. Always when our Mom had her birthday, always when our Dad got a year older, on ther wedding day and on holidays. Sometimes went to them on our Birthdays also.

Everyone grew closer to each other.
Not only Tenn-nii and myself but the others too. Yuki and Momo, from Re:vale, got together. Manager and Yaotome Gaku got together, but it toke those two a while to make it offical, and IDOLiSH7 made a month-long break from shows, Performances, etc...

Re:vale also stopped with their Idol life because they decided to have a child. They adopted one and quit their previous life.

TRIGGER and IDOLiSH7 did more things together, no more rivalry between us all. We all even decided to ge life together in a dorm with enough place for all 10 of us. Manager lived with her Father. Tenn-nii and I still decided to sleep and life together in a room, so we have a guest room for Manager, when she wants to stay the night with all of us.

Right now, I stood together with Tenn-nii outside, watching the sunset.

I wonder what will happen next....

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AN

HEY!!!
This is the last chapter to this Story.....BUT-
There will be 2 up coming specials so yeah.........

I got asked if I could make a Story about Riku losing his memories.
But I have no ideas.... I tried to force myself to think of any way but it won't work!! (,,꒪꒫꒪,,)
So if anyone has an idea, please..... share it with me or use it for yourself.

And here are a few IDOLiSH7, TRIGGER and Re:vale pictures!💖















Bye💞



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Extra 1

So~ today is Riku & Tenn's Birthday !!💝
And Author-san thought about doing something about it....

Enjoy~

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🎁- Riku's POV

Today is Tenn-nii and mine Birthday! So after not celebrating it with him for a long time, I thought about playing a trick on him.
I will try to act like I forgot it.
I wonder how he will act to that....... Well I will find out later!

So it was now 10 am. Manager told us yesterday that TRIGGER will come to us for a meeting. Or more of a Manager meeting between them and us, TRIGGER just wanted to come with their Manager.

They will arrive in two hours, so I still have time to try and act!

/15 minutes before TRIGGER arrives\

I can't do this!!!
I have been trying to lie to myself through the mirror but it isn't working! If I can't even lie to myself, how am I going to be able to lie to Tenn-nii. I just can't and I have been trying for the last hour and 30 minutes!!

Since than, I have been sitting in a near by park. And that for 15 minutes. I have thought about staying here for the rest of the day but than again Tenn-nii is going to come in the next 15 minutes.

Maybe I should stay here....

No, of course not! Today is finally our Birthday and I want to celebrate it with him this year!

So I stood up and walked slowly back to the Dorm. The others actually shouldn't know about my Birthday. I never told them, even Managers Father shouldn't know.

With those thoughts I walked all the way from the park back to the Dorm. When I reached it, it was around 12 am. Only a few minutes until TRIGGER should arrive. I walked towards the front door and opened it with my keys. I guess someone locked it...
I went inside to find everything black. It was dark inside, the only light that was in here was thanks to the door. But that was only when I opened the door, but even then I could bearly see anything.

Not a second later, the lights suddenly went on. With the lights everyone screamed 'Happy Birthday!'. From shock, I fell down on my butt. I looked up at everyone and with everyone, I mean TRIGGER, IDOLiSH7, Re:vale and our Manager with Banri-san.

Tenn-nii walked up to me, helped me up and hugged me right after that.

"Happy Birthday Riku." He whispered into my ear.
"Happy Birthday to you too, Tenn-nii." I told him.

After that we all celebrated into the night and the early morning. We had so much fun, I'm glad that my first plan didn't work. Who knows how Tenn-nii would have reacted that.

I would have hurt him badly that way.

That was the last thought before I fell asleep. I was the last one 'cause almost everyone had to get drunk for some reason. The others, who didn't get drunk, fell asleep before me.

But it was a great Birthday.
I hope next year, I can suprise Tenn-nii!

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Extra 2

So, when IDOLiSH7's 17th Episode ended......
I had a dream later that night, let's say it like that! Well it wasn't really a dream and it was definatly not around night time when I had that idea.... I think I got that idea when I was walking with a good friend and my anoying brother to school. Yeah I think it was like that, when not, than I got distracted by my thoughts in class....

And I thought about how I would have loved to see that Episode end.

Yap.......



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/_No one's POV_\

"IDOLiSH7"

The crowd screamed while the group itself cheered together with their fans. TRIGGER was a bit down but happy for the other group of Idols. Their Fans also cheered for them even if they didn't quite made it.

Riku turned away from his Fans and towards his older brother. Tenn noticed and slowly walked up to him, Riku doing the same. When they stood right infront of each other, Tenn told his younger Twin something.

"Congratulations Riku. I guess I was wrong all those years ago, huh ??" He said as he laughed softly.

"You were only worried. I undertand it now."

"Later on, I will tell you everything you want to know." Tenn told the red hed as he hugged him. Riku hesitated a bit not realizing that this was really happining right now. He could finally get the truth about the past. "But for now, do your job right."

And with that the two pulled away, Tenn walking over to his group members. Riku stayed a few minutes on the same spot before walking back to his friends, reciving their Award. TRIGGER walked to the back of the stage, still feeling a bit upset for not winning, while IDOLiSH7 went to the front of the stage tigether with the other Artists who won an Award in their catagory.

After the show ended and the Fans left, all Artists sent bsckstage. Most of them talked with others while the rest went to their waiting rooms.
Riku started to look around for his brother as soon as he left the stage. But until now he hadn't seen him nor did he see the other two Idols from TRIGGER.

"Minna, go ahead without me. I need to talk with Tenn-nii."

And with that Riku seperated himself from the others without waiting for an answer. He ran around, trying to find his brother. And because he doesn't want to bother the other Idols, Riku didn't ask any of them if they may have seen his missing person.

The Center of IDOLiSH7 finished his search in the building were the show was held and continued it outside. It could be that Tenn was waiting outside for his brother, or so Riku at least hoped.

The first thing he noticed was the lack of people. Sure the show ended an hour ago and he has been serching for 40 minutes already but it wasn't really late, people should still be out. But so, he could easily make out if his brother was before the building or not. He spent another 15 minutes outside, still in his clothes he had for stage and still a bit sweaty, trying despertly to find his older twin brother.

Riku nearly gave up but suddenly saw Tenn. He wanted to get his attention and run up to him. He took the first step but stopped. Tenn wasn't alone there. Ryou and Gaku weren't with him but someone Riku was kinda scared of.

Takamasa Kujo.
The very person who took his brother away.

That man was holding Tenn's arm, dragging him torwards a long, black car. Riku wanted to help him, but his fear overtook him and he just stood on his spot staring at the szene with wide eyes.

Riku saw the man open the door, throwing Tenn inside and slaming the door shut before stepping in at the front. The car drove away right after that.

Riku couldn't believe what he saw...
It was just like all those years ago. Tenn being taken away from him before even knowing why. Being taken away by the man Riku feared the most.

He couldn't take it anymore, falling to his knees and letting his tears fall down. He cried and cried. No one was there, he was all alone outside, probably getting sick from not changing his clothes before searching for Tenn. But Riku couldn't care less right now. Tenn promised him, just like he promised that he would never dare to leave Riku. The red head always wanted to know why his brother, his parents never dared to talk about him after ge left, so Riku waited for the day Tenn would tell him.

But now, he wasn't sure if he should even know.

After he was done with his breakdown, Riku went back into the building, into the waiting room where all his friends waited for him, worried. When they asked what happened, he ignored them and changed his clothes. He went back outside, ignoring them calling his name and walked back to the dorm.

Nothing could ruin his day even more than it already was.
He was sure of that.

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AN

Hey, it's been a while, I know.
I'm sorry that this took so long. I started with this Exrta thing a few days before I updated the 40th part of this Story and now I finished it, finally.

I hope you all know how much you all mean to me...



I talk a lot about stuff in this book. And yeah, I know I'm not interesting but, sometimes I update stuff into there others put into their books and their Readers get a bit angry when they see that it wasn't an update that came out. (But I think that is just me....)

I wrote somethings to you, about me and about the Sewol Ferry Tradegy. If you ever feel bored, my poor Soul, read it okay... or any other book I made.

I feel lonely lately because when I updated nobody really read it or stuff. Are the stories even interesting I put here or what ??

Anyway, Bye