"What do you mean?" Jihee laid her legs lazily over the arm of the couch as she watched Youngjae scribble away in his leather book.

"I mean." He fell silent and bit his lip. "I don't know what I mean. You're just supposed to know."

"Youngjae if I understood everyone in the world my life would be fucking golden." 

He scrunched up his nose while vigorously erasing a sketch and he threw the book down. "I just- why would he let her do that?"

She tilted her head and made a sad sigh. "Because he's a boy, and boy's are dumb."

"I'm a boy?"

"And? My point still stands." He scoffed and looked down at the ground, remembering the scene that made him upset... for whatever reason.

-

The two continued their kiss that held deep desperation as neither of them wanted to pull away. Jaebum had his hands on Youngjae's waist and subtly tugged at the bottom of his shirt, making him move closer. 

When the cheering only got louder the two finally realized where they were and Youngjae was the first to move away, pushing Jaebum in the process. 

Upon noticing their surroundings a girl from within the crowd had screamed out Jaebum's name in a tone Youngjae wished he never had to hear again. 

"IM JAEBUM WHERE ARE YOU BABE?"

Jaebum felt the ear piercing scream through his ears and he instantly went to run away. He had grabbed Youngjae's hand and when he refused to run with him Jaebum knew he was stuck and couldn't get away.

A girl emerged from the crowd with blonde hair straight down past her waist line. Her face was caked in makeup and her smile was blinding in the sun. She was wearing a fitted uniform and she definitely caught some eyes. 

Even Youngjae thought she was attractive, and he was the gayest thing ever.

Jaebum on the other hand was practically shitting himself. Her general appearance made him want to rip apart his insides. 

"Baby there you are." She ran up to him, completely ignoring the fact that Youngjae was still holding onto his hand. "I missed you. You left so quickly earlier." Her hands made their way up his torso and Youngjae took back the thought of her being attractive. 

"You can't do that here." Jaebum let go of Youngjae so he could take her hands off and he looked around clearly embarrassed. 

"Why not?" She pouted and he held onto her hips, similarly to what he was doing with Youngjae, who was now standing in confusion.

"Because there's people, and they can't-" He hesitated as he glanced at Youngjae and tried to avoid his stare. "Look we're not together anymore you know that."

"But it was just a break while I went away. I'm back now." She giggled and he felt the need to throw up.

"Yeah well we broke up before you left for different reasons now please don't make a scene."

"Make a scene???" 

"Let's just go talk somewhere else." He tried to guide her away when she stomped her feet down and protested.

"If we're going to talk we're doing it here!" 

At this point most people had left but those who were interested in mindless drama stayed to watch behind Youngjae. 

"Look if we go somewhere else I'll buy you something nice." Jaebum continued to try and push her forward when she turned around and suddenly put her lips on his.

As much as he wanted to object and push her away he was trapped and Youngjae felt himself crumble a little. 

"I knew you still loved me baby." She forcefully put his hands on her ass and he felt more and more death overtake him.

"Let's just go." He mumbled, or growled as Youngjae heard.

The growl then put thoughts in Youngjae's head that made him want to cry. He refused to look back to Jaebum as he pushed his way through the crowd, even though Jaebum had looked back once more and regretted everything. 

-

"On a happier note-" Jihee perked up and threw herself off the couch. "You can come help me finish some of my looks for the TV and Video class??"

"How is that happier?" Youngjae narrowed his eyes but stood up regardless. "I get to be your human barbie doll for seven hours."

"I know! That's the happy part duh." She took his hand carelessly and started dragging him out of the dark dorm he called home. 

"I don't want to be happy."

"Well too fucking bad."

"Jihee." He whined which made her squeeze his hand tighter.

"We're gonna slap some yellow on that ugly ass face and you'll look bright and happy."

"Are you calling me yellow?" He gasped in offence and she groaned. "That's RACIST!"

"SHUT UP YOU STUPID BRICK. JUST LET ME FORCE YOU TO BE HAPPY."

"NO YOU."

"I HATE YOU."

"I KNOW!"

"CAN Y'ALL STOP YELLING!" Bambam emerged from the room next door and Jihee smirked.

"Why? Whatcha doin in there?"

"Masturbating." He answered plainly, making her eyes widen in disgust.

"THAT'S NASTY I WAS JUST KIDDING."

"Oh yeah- ha me too." Bambam smiled innocently and Youngjae hid his face in Jihee's hair.

"I'm scared."

"Oh fuck off. Where are you guys going?"

Jihee replaced her frown with a cheeky smile. "I'm going to force Youngjae to be a happy sunflower."

"That's my favourite hobby. Let me clean up some stuff and I'll come." He disappeared back into the room and Jihee cried out again.

"THAT'S GROSS."

"STOP YELLING." Youngjae screamed into her head and she elbowed him in the gut.

"Get off me perv."

"I'm gonna shoot myself."

"Do it you won't."

"I will." Youngjae decided to slam his head against the wall instead until Bambam joined them in the hallway with an evil smile.

"Time to get to work boys."

-

"I can't look at myself."

"You're being a baby." Jihee finished styling the boy for fun and he sat in the chair with his eyes closed. 

"It takes one to know one."

"Wow so funny." She smacked him in the head with the mirror as she walked by and he mumbled out a couple curse words. 

As he slipped the blindfold off he blinked a couple times and adjusted to the light, which was non-existent. He sat there confused for a little while before he called out for Bambam or Jihee.

"Thank you, so much Jihee. I'm so happy that you left me in a dark room alone! THAT'S TOTALLY MY HAPPY TIME!" He rested his head in his hands and sighed heavily.

"Well good to know how to make you happy." A voice spoke abruptly from behind him.

Youngjae hesitated before clicking his tongue and looking at Jaebum through the mirror. "You really don't know anything."

"I'd like to think I know a couple."

"Well you're probably wrong so." Youngjae flipped his hood up again and looked away.

"Youngjae- I'm sorry."

"Sorry for what?"

Jaebum stood forward a little and Youngjae backed away. The two stared awkwardly at each other, not knowing the exact words to say.

Neither of them could say what they felt because frankly, neither of them knew what that was.

"Earlier..."

"That was nothing." He brushed it off and smiled a little. "We put on the right show for the people, right? Now it'll make it easier when we want to stage a break up."

"Stage a break-"

Before he could finish Youngjae chuckled and nodded. "Well yeah. Come on I thought we both knew this was a stupid idea."

"But you were the one who suggested it."

"Yeah and you were stupid enough to go through with it." Jaebum felt a plunge at his heart and Youngjae shrugged. "Look hyung I get it. It was all fake and now that she's back it'll be better if things go back to normal."

"But normal is boring."

"It doesn't matter." Youngjae ignored the hidden pleads in Jaebum's eyes and he exhaled. 

"Youngjae I'm not taking no for an answer."

"On what?" 

"We're going out tomorrow."

"What? No."

"I told you that you can't say no." Jaebum stood proudly and Youngjae slumped down a bit more.

"Well what if I want to."

"Then that sucks doesn't it?"

The room became quiet again until Youngjae puffed out his cheeks and stuffed his hands in his hoodie pocket where he fiddled with an elastic band. "Hyung really-"

"I clearly embarrassed you earlier, which I was fucking stupid for doing, so now I want to make it up to you. It's simple really. Nothing extravagant." 

When Youngjae stumbled with his thoughts again Jaebum put his hands together. "Youngjae I promise you it'll be simple and fun and that's it. I genuinely feel bad."

"Fine, fine." Youngjae waved him off and Jaebum cheered in victory.

"You'll love it."

"Maybe. But I don't love you."

"Maybe. But not yet." He winked and Youngjae took the elastic out swiftly so he could launch it at the older. 

"Ow fuck." Jaebum rubbed his cheek where it hit and Youngjae giggled cutely. "You have impeccable aim."

"You're just lucky I didn't hit your heart."

"Oh but Choi Youngjae you already have."

"Shut up." Youngjae rolled his eyes and stared at the boy in front of him.

"Alright fine. But I'm picking you up tomorrow at 10."

"In the morning????!" He yelled out as Jaebum went to walk back up the stairs to the building.

"In the morning."

"I'm going to overdose on caffeine!!!"

"Good. I'm paying!" He got the last word before fully disappearing and Youngjae rubbed his temples in frustration.

"What the fuck did you just do.... You dumb piece of shit he doesn't like you." He muttered the last part sadly and bit his lip.

-

Listening to Good Tonight while writing this really got me into a good mood for this story

Imma finish it before summer
Watch me

~ E [Lol it's been too long idek how I ended my stuff i'm sorry i'm crying :'(]