I noticed how he slowly stopped asking for anything from us. First whenever he wanted a toy he would just sneak in our bed at late night and hug me tightly. He would look at me with his big cat eyes and cute face that i couldn't deny it. I noticed how he would eye jungkook when jin praised him for good score in test wven when yoongi himself scored almost the same. I knew jin was just trying to make jungkook confortable with him but it didn't mean that he would treat his own son differently. I noticed how he would keep his demands to himself, how he would just sit separately and solve the puzzles during christmas. He was trying so hard to look busy when he was just trying tohide how sad he was feeling when jungkook played with all his cousins.

I still remember that day. It was just next day after their result and they were about to enter middle school. Jin was out with jungkook. He asked yoongi to join but he denied saying it would be boring. Slowly i opened his room's door. He was lying on his bed doing something which i wasn't able to see as he blocked it. I knocked on the door to get his attention. That day we had conversation for like hours but it was worth it. Yoongi, after so many tries and reassurence, finally opened up. He shared all his bottled feeling with me. I was so glad for it.

Even after that i falied so many times as a father. I should have stopped jin, i din't. I should have asked him to pay attention to yoongi,i didn't. I completely agree that it wasn't jin fault entirely but mine as well. I did did a lot mistakes. After he left we, specially jin, was devastated. He was miserable.

But when he saw yoongi again he was so overjoyed. He wanted to get his son back but was hesitant. He saw how happy he was with them. It was really dreadful to see yoongi lying on that hospital bed for me. For everyone.

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