Days passed... All the things went normal... I talked with Abhishek a lot and tried to share his pain... we gave so many treatments to him... he was facing for them calmly... I was so happy as he is fine... his behaviours became normal... I was somewhat success in making him normal... now I needed to make him free from his all guiltys and distract his thoughts from past...

By talking with him and by the diary I found now he is sad because of losing his ma... he was thinking that he is the reason for his ma's death... didn't he know his ma was suffering from a cancer till now... may be doctor Purab didn't tell as it will make him another more sad...

Atlast I got an idea how to make his mind busy with something else and distract his mind from past... I asked him to complete his degree... first he was not ready... but when I said his ma's wish was to see him become topper from exams... he looked at me as is that true... why didn't he got it by reading diary... maybe he couldn't read diary properly with sadness... after convincing him a lot and saying my wish too to see him in a good position he became somewhat fine with my idea... but still we couldn't discharge him as we were not sure how his past was haunting him now too... but my idea gave a hope to his life...

I discussed about this with doctor Purab and make arrangements for him to start his studies from August... doctor Purab too agreed with my idea... I was so happy thinking soon he will be normal and get discharged...

But all my happiness flew away that day seeing him like that... did  his past still bothering him... yeah may be... how can he forget his past that easily... why did I think like that...

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Pragya sighed remembering that day... how much pain he was going through... my innocent Abhishek... I don't know how he went through such big pain... how much that feelings hurt him... but I never thought to see such behaviour from him after lot of treatments... I felt huge pain that day... not because of the injury... because of thinking he is still suffering from pain of bitter past...

Pragya look at her left hand which has a small scar mark due to an injury...
Now also if he see this his eyes getting welled up with tears...

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I thought he was completely okay and I could make him discharge soon... but I forgot still I have to be alert of him... I forgot about that day... which made him all alone in his own world...

July 30th...
Actually I forgot... as Abhishek was well I didn't think a little that again he will face for such behaviour...

Morning I woke up with a sudden jerk... seeing a dream... first I was wondering why I got such kind of dream suddenly... but next second everything came to my mind... I jumped out of the bed to get ready as fast as possible to go to hospital soon...

I went to Abhishek's room... whole room is a mess... where is this preethu... anyway where is Abhishek... where have he gone...
I felt scared thinking is any bad thing happened... did he get any memories again... whether he eloped from hospital... no way security are there... then where is he...

Wait what's that sound behind the cupboard... I rushed towards the cupboard... all the things were scattered on floor... but I didn't mind for them... my only target was to find Abhishek...

Yes he was there... my heart stopped for a while seeing him like this... he was in total mess... his hand was bleeding... I can see some glass pieces near him... he was huffing and panting like he ran for a marathon... I screamed...

"Abhishek... what's this..."

He looked at me... but the friendly and caring look he always have in his face was not there... instead of that I could see trail of tears in full angered face... why is this... I couldn't think of anything... hearing my scream attendant peeped in to the room... at once he shouted for help...

what nonsense... how irresponsible they are... until now Abhishek has done this much thing... no one cared to look at him... what if something happen to him... luckily I came... now this attendant is shouting like I tangled his neck... without helping me to make abhishek calm... anyhow I have to do something...

I tried to go near him... I can hear all have came and shouting for me to not to go near him... but I stepped a little closer... at once... Abhishek roared...
"Stopppp.... don't come  near me..."

I got scared with that loud voice... without my knowledge my legs taken a back... my heart beat raised... I couldn't understand what happened...
But my mind ordered me..."pragya you have to save him... goooo..."

I again start to go near him... I can see he is staring at me with bloody red eyes... my heart felt scared seeing him like that as I couldn't guessed what he will do next... my fear increased with the loud noice of the nurses asking me not to go near him... I can feel some male nurses are nearing me to save me... but I signalled no... if we all go... he will feel scared...

With determination I went near him... at once he start to struggle like I am going to beat him... I ran to him and try to make him calm... but his strong arm hitted on me making me lose my balance... I fallen down... my hand injured with the brocken glass piece... I felt pain... but I looked at him... I can see he noticed I got injured... he looked at me for a minute like a statue... and next second he tried to come near me... may be to help... because I saw the  caring look in his eyes which he lost few minutes  ago...

But next minute all the male nurses hold him tightly without letting him to come near me... I can see his struggle while looking at me with guilt filled eyes... some female nurses came an make me stand... then only I noticed its severe cut and I felt pain... nurses tried to took me out... I looked at Abhishek... ohh nooo... if he struggle like this another more they will tie him or make him inject sleeping pills...

I looked at abhi's eyes straightly while nurses dragging me out... our eyes met  for a second... I gestured him to be calm and I am okay... I saw he stopped his struggle... I gave a weak smile to him... he gave me a look like saying sorry to me... I nodded my head... soon nurses dragged me out of the room...

They are treating my wound... I feel pain... but my mind is busy thinking is Abhishek okay... an unknown pain is going through my mind thinking what happen to him again... isn't he still recovered...

I knew those nurses won't leave me now... but I needed to go near Abhishek... doctor Purab also not in hospital... I have to be there... by saying I need to be alone for sometime I send all nurses out from my room...
After sometime I went to Abhishek's room without anyone's notice...

He was sleeping... did they inject him... ohh... why didn't I instruct them not... they don't need to inject him if he become calm nah... I went to him slowly and hold his injured hand... nurses have treated it... but as soon as I touched his hand he open his eyes and sat on the bed... so he was not sleeping... good he has stayed like I said...

"Abhishek... are you okay..."

But he was not in mind to reply me... his whole attention is on my injured hand... he took my hand in his hand caringly... and looked at me with tear filled eyes... I understood the reason for his sad look...

"Abhishek... don't be sad... its not a big injury... only bandage is big... tell me how are you now... fine nah..."

He looked at me... I can see tears are flowing from his eyes...

"I...I... am... so...sorry..."

"Arrey Abhishek don't be sad... I am okay yaar... now tell me you are okay nah..."

"Hmm... please... forgive me... I didn't mean to hurt you... for few seconds I saw you and all like her and her love... because of her only I lost my ma... I am sorry... please forgive me... don't be angry with me..."

Tears are flowing continuously from his eyes...

I know Abhishek... today is the day your ma left this world... still you have the guilt of her death... sorry... if I remembered it yesterday I would have give necessary medicines to you and go... I don't know why and how... I saw your ma in my dreams... then only I remembered today is July 30th... that's why I came hurriedly...

"Arrey Abhishek who said you I am angry with you..."
Once our conversation disturbed with preethu's entry...

"Madam... you here... I thought you in your cabin... I went to take his medicine... but how are you... why are you here..." suddenly she realised I am making him calm... she excused and left the room... I sighed and look at Abhishek who is cursing himself and crying like a baby...

"Okay Abhishek... look at me... I am not angry with you... and already forgave you... so don't blame yourself now... but I need a promise from you... will you promise me..."

He looked at my eyes innocently and nodded his head little...

"Abhishek... promise me... hereafter you won't take anger like this and won't hurt yourself... please promise me..."

I looked at him for his agreement... after looking at me for a while he opened his mouth...

"I will try doctor pragya... I don't know... whether I can... when I remembered her..  I am losing my control... I am sorry... I will try my best..."

I can understand his situation... I know he behaving like that without his knowledge even... but I know now this incident will stick in his mind... I have to use this chance to control his mind...

"Abhishek... listen... I can understand your situation... but look now... because of your anger you got hurt yourself... don't think about me... mine is small injury... and I am not angry with you for that... but see... I was planning to make you continue your studies from August... as you was normal... I thought I can let you participate for classes... but now if I ask doctor Purab he won't allow you...
Making you complete your studies is not only my target... its your ma's dream... think for a while... will she be happy if she see you with these injuries... it will hurt her nah... is that good to do...
I know you are feeling guilty for your ma's death... but if your ma heard you are suffering like this because of her death... how will she feel... Abhishek past is past... we can't change it... its now over... but still there are things you can do that are incomplete... your ma's dream is to see you in a good position... she never dreamed to see you on a hospital bed with injuries... no mom will like to see there son like this... so then... why... why can't you fulfil your ma's dream now... you can noh... think a little Abhishek...

That girl betrayed you... you know one thing... her real intention was like to take revenge on you for something... so are you going to make her intention fulfil by staying like this... no you must not Abhishek... atleast for me you have to get up from all this... you have ro succeed... you have to gain everything you lost... will you...???"

"But how can I gain my ma's love again... she won't come to me again nah..."

He said straightly making me lost words... but I struggled with my mind to take strength to change his mind...

"Abhishek I told you nah... we can't change past... that not means we have live with the past... we can't change some some thing in past... but we can for some... your ma won't come again... but she is with you... looking at your success... still you can make her happy by making her dreams fulfil... but by staying like this you are making her sad... why not you think to make her happy... tell me will you agree with me... promise me you won't behave like this and hurt yourself again... promise me... you will reach the high your ma and you dream... please Abhishek promise me... atleast for me you will do that..."

Both we had tears in our eyes... he looked at me straightly... after few minutes silence I heard his voice...

"I promise you doctor Pragya... atleast for you and my ma... I will fulfil my dreams... I promise you I will try to control me not to loose my patience... I promise you... doctor pragya..."

I felt so happy... I succeed in making him understand... but I have to be with him... I have to support him... but now I am so happy... up to the extent I couldn't express even...

I hugged him with that happiness... but he didn't respond... I broke the hug and looked at him... he was lost in his thoughts... I tapped on his shoulder... he gave a smile to me... as always his smile has some power that making me lose in some world... I don't know why I am feeling like that... sometimes I too feeling what's this closeness of mine to him... always I make my mind by thinking its because he is my friend..  sometimes best friend...

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That day I didn't think this unknown feeling is my love towards him... but why didn't I get it... poor me...
Luckily our destiny had a better plan for us... I thought to be with him as his doctor or friend... but I never thought to be in his side as his soulmate... I thought he is only my best friend... but I never thought he will be my life... I never thought that smile which made me lost my sence will get my heart like this...  but still I am losing my self in his caring smile... 

I didn't see that smile for two days Abhishek... I am missing you badly... please come soon yaar...
Pragya look at her phone wallpaper which is her love with a sweet smile... "you know Abhishek... at any stress I am going through... your this smile make me lost all my stress and pains... I love you abhishek... I love you soooo much..."

"But still I am angry with you for the shock you gave me that day... how much pain you gave me... why you left me like that... why didn't you think I will be worry for you..."

Pragya look at her love's pic in phone with cute angry pout.... 

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So as promised I came up with a long update... how was it friends..??? Sorry for the mistakes... Waiting for your valuable comments...

To be continued...

By Tharuuu_