In a world where those with depression or any related mental illnesses are given pills that make them happy.

Fake happiness.

Yoongi is one of those people.

He relied on those pills to give him a fake happiness for just 9 hours per 2 pills.

But once they wore off he could feel it worse.

Feel the world choking him.

Now he was struggling to breath, class had only started but the pill wore off.

He breathed deeply, searching his bag for the yellow pills but they fell, rolling to one of his friends.

The honey skinned male looked at Yoongi and motioned to the pills, Yoongi nodding desperately.

Hoseok looked mad for a second, staring at the pills, he shook his head and kicked them across the room, yoongi letting out a small sound of dismay.

Hoseok, instead, scooted his chair closer to Yoongi.  He grabbed the smaller's hand and rubbed circles onto the back with his thumb.

"Ask to go to the bathroom, then wait for me.  Do not take them."

Yoongi nodded.

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Yoongi sat on the sink/bathroom counter, Hoseok in front of him.

The taller male took a deep breath, looking Yoongi in the eyes, "cry."

"What?"

"You heard me.  Cry.  I know you want to and need to."

Hoseok gently took Yoongi off the counter, holding him, hopefully getting Yoongi to feel sadness, to not reject that he needed to let it go instead of locking it up like the pills do.

Yoongi teared up, holding onto Hoseok, his knees buckling when a tear fell down his face.

"Never take those ever again.  Those pills trigger fake emotions.  You'll feel worse, to the point you'd probably overdose on them or kill yourself if they didn't kill you.   The government is tired of paying for facilities to have therapists.  On those pills you feel nothing.  That's not happiness, it's just an adrenaline rush meant to feel like happiness.  It's like eating 10 spoonfuls of sugar right after you took a huge power nap."

Yoongi sniffled, hiding his red face and let hoseok talk.

"If I didn't stop taking them I'd be dead by now."

Yoongi looked up at Hoseok, confused.

"Y-you had to take them?"

Hoseok smiled sadly, nodding.

"B-but you're always so happy on your own?"

"Cause that's genuine happiness, sweetheart.  I get down just like you.  I feel like shit sometimes too.  But if you just look at the good things you didn't notice before, you would find happiness for yourself."

Yoongi gulped, rubbing his tear stained cheeks with the backs of his hands only for more tears to flow.

Hoseok kissed the top of Yoongi's head, the small male not able to stop his crying.

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"W-we still have class... What are you doing....?"

"Go home and change into something comfy, meet me at the bus stop in 20 minutes."

Yoongi nodded and ran the last few steps home, his mother lifting her head from her book.

"Yoon!? What are you doin home!?"

"Saving myself!"

It wasn't a lie, Yoongi thought as he changed out of his uncomfortable clothes he wore to change his vibe for people who don't know him.

He threw on a black and purple oversized hoodie and ripped skinny jeans over black fishnet tights, black Vans to go along.

He was first to the bus stop, but he didn't wait long, only about 2 minutes until he was hugged from behind.

"Hope you weren't waiting long."

Yoongi shook his head.

"Good, we got places to be~"

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The rode the bus in silence, Hoseok patting Yoongi's head or playing with his hair from time to time.

Yoongi just stared out the window when suddenly he felt like a weight pushed down on him, making him shiver and tense up.

"Don't Worry, since you haven't taken the pill in a few hours your mind with respond with random outputs of exhaustion or any negative emotion."

"I-is that bad?"

"No, it actually good.  It's your mind trying to tell you it needs a release."

Yoongi took a deep breath as Hoseok pulled him into his lap, rubbing his back softly, waiting for Yoongi to cry.

Yoongi couldn't help it, sniffling as the tears fell, whimpering out, "L-life feels heavy...."

Hoseok smiled, "that's okay.  It gets better."

Yoongi nodded, wiping his tears till his face was dry.

Hoseok pressed a kiss to Yoongi's red nose, proud of the small male for not resisting his erge to cry.

Yoongi bit his lip, not knowing how to take all of Hoseok's affection towards him.

The bus stopped at the furthest bus stop from town, Hoseok gently putting Yoongi on his feet before pulling his out behind him, looking for the path.

Yoongi just let himself get pulled along, "H-hobi....Where are we going?"

Hoseok just pointed up the hill, Yoongi's eyes widening.

"But won't that take forever?"

"There's a short cut up the path."

The walk wasn't as long as Yoongi thought, and it was still a good hour of walking.

Hoseok even picked him up about half an hour in and walked a good 20 minutes with him in his arms.

Yoongi walked quickly, following Hoseok.

Hoseok grabbed Yoongi's arm once again and ran, dragging him behind.

Hoseok let go, holding his arms out and spinning around.

Yoongi looked around in awe.

"It's beautiful up here..."

"You're beautiful too, you pretty baby," Hoseok booped Yoongi's nose, the shorter's face lighting in pink.

"Shut up..."

Hoseok just laughed and climbed up a huge boulder, holding his hand up to setting sun.

Yoongi squinted, looking over at Hoseok who was glowing with the orange-pink glow of sunset. 

Yoongi gasped, realizing something the pills kept him from feeling for his friend.

He spoke quietly, hoping Hoseok could still catch his words, "The day went quick...."

"The bus ride did take up most of the time."

Yoongi smiled, hurrying over and climbing up beside Hoseok.

Hoseok took Yoongi's hand, holding it up to the sun, "What do you feel?"

"Happy......I feel happy."

"Good.  This is the genuine happiness."

Hoseok let go of Yoongi's hand, the smaller letting the sun bathe his hand as it sunk behind the horizon.

It was beautiful, the world under the two shades of green and yellow and orange and pink.

"H-hey Hobi."

"Mhm?"

"I love you."

Hoseok smiled, laughing a little as he hugged Yoongi, almost crushing the smaller in the tight hug, "I love you more, Yoongi. I dont know how I didn't notice the pills before."

Yoongi took a deep breath, gently kissing Hoseok's lips, unsure how else to express himself. 

Hoseok smiled into the kiss, kissing Yoongi back with the same gentleness.

Yoongi pulled away, Hoseok pressing his forehead to Yoongi's.

"So Yoongi, can you tell the difference now?"

"Yeah... Cause you're my happiness," Yoongi giggled, "And you're real."