Alder belongs to wolfmonkey822

Sullivan's POV

I walked into my homeroom feeling half-dead. I had to study for three tests I had today. I went to my seat. The teacher was about to take roll call when in walked Alder Foley. Immediately, the funny feeling returned, the racing heart. Alder was quite short. I was probably about a foot above him. He had musky blonde hair and pretty blue eyes, the colour of tropical water. Mine, well, they were a grass green. Not the greatest, I know. Alder sat down in his seat. It was in the row next to mine and three seats up. His blonde hair was on the longer side, but nowhere near Connor's in Dear Evan Hansen. Oh, I probably should've said. I LOVE musicals. I've never seen any, mind you. I've seen pictures though. While we're on the topic of DEH, there are these two actors, Ben Platt and Mike Faist, I also get the funny feeling from. Ben, for his voice, as the titular Evan Hansen and Mike for his looks. Why do these men make me feel like this? To girls, this feeling would be normal. But, the reason it's funny for me is... they're men, and... I'm straight.

At least, I believe I am.

I hardly noticed that I had started drawing on a exam pad. My thoughts wandered away, I guess. I looked at the drawing. It was a couple, male and female. I smiled. I wondered if I'd ever get a date. Alder noticed me drawing. I handed over the drawing to him mouthing, "Meet me at break." He nodded and looked at the board.

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One test down, two to go. I walked to break. I went to sit beside the old willow tree. It's my favourite spot. Alder noticed me and walked over. I opened my lunchbox and started to eat a peanut butter sandwich. He sat down next to me. He started munching on carrots. I swallowed down the sandwich. "I don't believe we've officially met, I'm Sullivan." I lifted my hand.

"Alder." He shook my hand

"So, what's new with you? Any crushes?" I asked.

"None I'm yet aware of. I don't think many other boys at this school are gay.." He replied, laughing slightly. I felt my heart rate increase again.

"Oh, you're gay? That's cool!" Alder smiled.

"Yeah, it is kind of cool I guess," he laughed. "Funny how I came out though, I had these dyed rainbow hair streaks in my hair and I shouted out 'I'm gay!' at the top of my lungs."

"Oh! That was you? That was so brave!" I commented. Alder blushed and giggled nervously.

"Was it? I was petrified."

"It was! If I was gay, I'd be too scared to do something like that." Alder looked at me smiling. "Okay, subject change. Any celebrities you find cute?" Alder's entire face turned red and he looked at the ground.

"L-Leslie Odom, Jr. who plays B-Burr in Hamilton.." he admitted. I smirked.

"Okay, I'll tell you mine," I said. "Emma Watson is a goddess and a half, but then, who doesn't like her? Then, I get this really weird feeling when Ben Platt sings and when I look at pictures of Mike Faist my heart skips a beat for some reason." I went off into a long tangent of all the celebrities I found cute.

"My God, Sullivan," Alder laughed. "If your head is that up in the clouds, you'll never get a date." I blinked. Maybe I had voiced some of my thoughts out loud. It's happened before.

"Fun Fact: Ben and Mike are actors in Dear Evan Hansen."

"Dear Evan Hansen?" Alder asked, curious.

"It's a Broadway musical," I replied. "I've never seen it myself, but I've heard the soundtrack. It's really good."

"Could you sing me something from it?" My cheeks burned.

"I-I don't like singing in public."

"C'mon, just one?"

"Okay..." I took a breath. Did I mention my singing voice is soft and squeaky? I started to sing,"End of May or early June this, picture perfect afternoon we share. Drive the winding country road, grab a scoop at A La Mode and then we're there. An open field that's framed with trees, we pick a spot and shoot the breeze like buddies do. Quoting songs by our favourite bands, telling jokes no one understands except us two, and we talk and take in the view, all we see is sky For Forever we, let the world pass by for forever, feels like we could go on for forever this way, two friends.. on a perfect day." I only sung the first paragraph of lyrics and the refrain. Alder looked at me.

"That was really good!" I blushed at the compliment. My heart was racing.

"Um... heh... t-thanks."

"That song was really nice, what is it called?"

"For Forever."

"Awesome. Hey, have you heard of Hamilton?"

"I've heard a few songs..."

"I'm not throwing away my shot, no, I'm not throwing away my shot," Alder suddenly rapped. I giggled.

"That's from Hamilton I'm guessing?" He smiled.

"Yep!"

"So So So So this is what it feels like to match wits with someone at your level what the hell is the catch?" I stumbled while trying to rapping. Alder was much better. I lay back on the grass, out of breath. "Do you have any ideas why Ben and Mike make me feel like that?" I asked suddenly. Alder blinked before smirking.

"Well, Mr. Sense, for one, you are the most oblivious person alive."

"Whaddya mean?"

"It may be, that you are not as straight as you first thought," he said simply. If he had tea he would definitely be sipping that. This possible solution didn't bother me, if anything it made sense.

"Well then, what could I be?" His reply was simple:

"Bisexual, meaning, you like both men and women." I knew what Bisexual meant, but I didn't voice out that I did know.

"That... actually makes... sense." Alder smiled softly. "Now I wonder... do I actually like someone?" I did know, actually.

He was sitting next to me.

"You could. And maybe I wasn't being totally honest earlier. I do like someone. But I'm not sure if he likes me back." I sat back down. I'd never felt jealous before. The stab was new to me.

"Is he nice?" I asked, trying to keep the jealousy out of my voice.

Alder's gaze softened while looking at me. "Yes, very nice."

"How nice? Compare." Jealousy started leaking through. So much for subtlety. Alder raised a brow.

"Extremely nice," he replied. "He is really cute when he gets flustered." His smile was slowly morphing into a smirk.

"Extremely nice?"

"It's you, idiot!" He said, with a slight giggle. I blinked, before feeling my face heat up. "And I'm assuming by the jealousy in your voice it's me too."

Crap! I looked at him. I was already blushing. I decided to do it. "Forgive me," I said.

I kissed him.

On the lips.

Now we're dating. I never knew I could be that forward.