Ñame: (Y/n) Rodríguez
Time: 10:00 p.m
Date: September 11, 2019
Diary
Brat. Attention seeker. Selfish Bitch. Ugly creature. Slut. Whore. Monster. Cruel witch.
Heartless asshole.
Those were all the names I was known by in my school, at home and even at my job.

I may have gotten use to answering to these names but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt at all.... it always did.
Even though my only two friends would try to convince me, I wasn't any of those things they said, I still believed them. I'm a heartless monster. Just like the thing that created and gave birth to me.
I hated her with all my heart.
She was the one that formed me like this. I tried changing but it was to late. I didn't know how to act kind. Or sweet. Or gentle. I was brutal, harsh, cruel, and blunt.

I lost most of my friends... they moved on and didn't bother looking back.
My only two friends with me, are staying longer.
It won't be long before they soon move on.
They tried to take me out to go eat something, but I wasn't hungry.
Cisco doesn't understand how I feel. Neither does Caitlin.
They would never understand.
They both think they do....but they don't.

They have been helping the flash along with Harrison.
I don't trust that man... I know who he really is. But I just leave him alone.
He doesn't know who I am though.
If he ever finds this diary. He will.
I don't mind dying.
It'll be an end to all this pain.

I believe Barry is back. I should go and put on a fake smile.
They might need me to bring them drinks for another celebration of catching the bad guy.
I don't want to leave.. I want to continue writing my feelings down.

Oh. I must go now. Barry and the others are heading this way.

Good bye Diary. Until tomorrow.

This is just my feelings... I was feeling down and this will be a mini series. Like Diary entries.
Might make a book specifically for this.
I'll try to update tomorrow for this..