the feeling of your eyes burning
and your throat closing so tight
that you realize the fist of life has you
is awful.

terrible.

such simple words to convey meaning,
the meaning of something very bad.
at a certain point the limitlessness of vocabulary ends
and where begins the pain in attempt
because i can't put words to truly describe
the feeling of dying from the inside
the feeling of rotting away
without the eventual cool embrace of death

is it wrong that i long for the days where
everything wasn't so hard?
is it wrong that i don't even want to try?
i don't even care anymore because no one else does

i am so sad.