I woke up next Sunny. He was snoozing next to me, his eyes closed but his breathing breathing was too fast to be awake. "Morning." He glanced at me from his lazy position. His arm behind his head and the other over his stomach. "The streets again?" He asked. I curled up on my side. "Do you care?" I asked. "Little bit."

"Sophie is more important to you..." he frowned. "What?"
"Nothing," I slid out of bed and collected some clothing before retreating in the bathroom. "Thyst." I looked over my shoulder. "What did you mean by that?" He asked. "Nothing, Sunstreaker. Nothing," I muttered.

After I dressed up, Sunstreaker took a shower. He looked pretty good today once he had finished. Black skinny jeans. Yellow skin tight shirt and his leather jacket on top. He caught me looking at him. "What?" He mocked. I shook my head and looked away to hide my embarrassment.

"Amethyst." The mech grabbed me and wrapped his arms around me. "You're really bad at lying," he said. I shrugged, "it doesn't matter..." I mumbled. "Talk to me, what's the matter?" He asked. "I— nothing. Honestly, just drop it," I muttered. He brushed some hair from my face and kissed my head. "Alright." He walked off and left me standing here.

I went to the messhall and he was sitting with Sophie again. Why her? I ate my food while watching. Sideswipe came in, passed me without even noticing me and sat down with his brother and Sophie. It's their life but the fact he hadn't even noticed me and if he did, he didn't greet me pissed me off. I finished my breakfast and got up.

I left the mess hall and hung out with Jazz for some time until he had to leave as well. Today, everyone just seemed so horrible busy. I sat down underneath the stairs and stared at nothing but the underside of the concrete stairs. I brushed some tears off my face. They don't look back at me anymore, so what am I doing here? I got up and left the base to continue my life on the streets. I wondered around for days without anyone coming after me so I assumed they didn't care as much as they told me.

At the fifth day, I saw the twins and Sophie walking through the park. I snorted and hid behind a tree. She's beautiful in all kinds of ways. I will never be beautiful. My skinny body couldn't be compared to how good she's looking. I sighed and looked at myself, bones sticking out and my skin pale. I didn't believe I had gained any weight. I had tried but nothing worked. I even started to eat cookies, chips and candy but it seemed like the sugar never made it to my stomach.

I walked in the opposite direction hunger clutched onto my stomach. I reached into a bin, searching for some food, just anything. I yelped as I felt someone grabbed my neck and pulling me away from the bin. "Ah, Thyst... what on earth are you doing? Look how filthy you are," Sunstreaker scowled. "What are you doing here?" He asked. "You look like shot," he scowled. "This way you will never heal," he added angrily. "Isn't that the chick you have to look after?"

This is absolutely great. "Yup," Sideswipe sighed. "Leave me alone," I snapped. Sunstreaker didn't let me go. "I go back to base with her," he said. "Streetrat," Sophie scowled. I looked away while Sunstreaker took me back to base. "You smell horrible," he growled. He glanced at me but I avoided his eyes and looked out of the window.

He brought me back to base. "Undress." I sighed and started to remove my clothing. He threw everything aside and pushed me into the bathroom. "What is wrong with you, Thyst?" he asked. I avoided his eyes, "what do you mean?" I asked. "You shouldn't be on the streets," he snapped. I blinked my tears away and sat down in the bathtub. "Like you care..." I scowled icely. "I do," he snapped. "Oh, so that's why you don't look back at me anymore?" I snapped and glared at him. Sunstreaker grabbed the soap and started to wash my hair. My tears mixed with the water. "Look how dirty the water is..." he grumbled, mostly to himself. I completely ingored it and stared at the wall ahead of me.

He dressed me up in sweater and pj pants and gestured to me to sit down. "You can't leave the base, Amethyst," he snapped. "You're awlays talking about the things I can't do... I can't make fun, I can't run, I can't train, I can't watch you train, I can't hang out with the other Autobots... I can't even hang out with you. All you do is complaining about all the stuff I am doing wrong, you're just like everyone else. Don't you think I already feel miserable for ending up like this?" I snapped and jumped back on my feet. "It's not about that, Thyst." Sideswipe walked up to us. I hadn't even seen him walking in. "Oh, piss off, Sideswipe," I snapped. "Just sit down, so we can talk about it," Sunstreaker said. "I don't want to talk... I want to leave this damn place and this damn city," I sneered.

"Yeah? Where are you going then?" Sunstreaker mocked and crossed his arms. "Nowhere... I don't belong anywhere but the streets," I scowled. "That's not true, we are trying to help you," Sideswipe tried. "You're only haning out with Sophie and ignoring me and I get it... she's everything I am not and most importantly, she's beautiful," I snarled. "You are beautiful too... we don't judge because you're thin," Sunstreaker said and pointed at me. "I hate myself," I growled and passed him. "Don't say that, Amethyst..." Sideswipe said and followed me, blocking my way. "Sophie is just a friend..." he added. "We can hang out with whoever we want," Sunstreaker added.

"Yeah, but not with me, so leave me alone."

I left and slammed the door shut, taking a sprint and settled in the meeting room. With a grunt I sat down and rested my head on the table, playing with a abounded pen. Tears run down my face but the silence smoothed the pain a little bit. It just hurt to see the twins hang out with a girl who's ten times more beautiful than I am... she's perfect and what am I? A walking skeleton. I want to be like them, I want to learn from them but they started to ignore me and only boss me around all the time. It felt like I don't belong anywhere but the streets.

I didn't respond when the door opened. "Amethyst? Are you okay?" I snorted and got up, wiping some tears off my face. "Yeah, I am fine." I tried to pass Optimus and Prowl but they pushed me back in the meeting room. "Talk to us... what's going on?" Optimus asked. "I hate myself... the twins don't like me..." I muttered. "That's not true... they were worried about you," Optimus said. "Yeah while in the mean time they're ignoring me and tell me about all the things I can't do..." I snapped. "They are just worried. It's not because they like to be bossy or tell you about all the things you can't do. They know how hard it is to live on the streets and if they could turn back time and give you a another childhood, they would. Right now, they are trying to make it you as easy as possible and they don't want you to get into trouble or do stupid things," Optimus said.

"Than why are they ignoring me?"
"Sophie has their attention right now but they aren't as font about her as you think they are," Prowl said. "They like you much more," Optimus added. I wish I could believe them but I don't think I can. "You should talk to them and don't run away from your problems, it won't solve anything," Optimus said. Soldiers passed them to enter the meeting room. Apprently there's a meeting in about a few minutes. I left and settled somewhere else on my own to think. For years I am trying to fit in but people keep calling me street rat and that hurt. I hate it.

"Hey streetrat."

I rolled my eyes and decided not to respond on that. I uttered a scream as the person kicked me. Angrily I got up and turned around. "Leave me alone, bitch," I snapped. Sophie snorted and looked over my body. "Damn, it's only skin and bone, huh? You are the chick who wants to become a soldier? That ain't gonna happen. You are so ugly, you don't need an halloween costume. No wonder the twins are avoiding you. They must think you're the most ugliest creature who ever walked this earth," she laughed. "Only because I am thin?" I snapped.

"You come straight off the streets... you're in the lowest level of society and you will never become a good soldier. I am not trying to discourage you, I am trying to help you understand that you're fantasies about being just as good as them is an illusion. They only have pity for an ugly rat like you... do you really think they will choose for you? I am so much better looking and smarter," she scoffed. "I am sorry for the truth... you need to hear this before you end up dead... like you probably should've years ago. That you are born is a mistake... I am not trying to be rude... only telling facts," she said and passed me.