I don't understand it.

Put yourself in my shoes.

So, you've been treated like shit forever. Your mother is breaking down, your brothers disrespect you, certain issues with all 3 of your dads corrode your existence... Everyone hates you, you're depressed, you've been betrayed. Think of all the bad things you've read in here, all the pains and ups and downs of everything.

One little light breaks through that darkness. She saves you. She is everything to you, she is the only person treating you right in this horrid world. In time, she becomes the most beautiful thing, becomes the best thing, becomes everything.

So here is what I don't get: HOW DO YOU DO IT? How do you even begin to express your love or gratitude towards her? What do you say to get her to understand her meaning? What can you even do to equal all she has done for you?

CC, just say the word, and I will do it. If you want something, I will fight til it's yours. I will do anything for you.

Good night, my love, if you read this update. I currently have no service...