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"Why are you late, again, park?"

"Oh sooo soorry for missing your important lesson. But it was that flipping nerd. I swear- oh speak of the devil."

Tears were already glistening in my eyes. Though I would do virtually anything for this dood, I know  what he is capable of. He made his way over to my desk sarcasm spewed from his lips as he sashayed across the room. He slammed his hand on which caused me to flinch and brought all attention upon me if I wasn't already there before. At this point Tae was looking a little bit worried since he was new he didn't know about Park jimin-only that I had a crush on him. All of the stares of judgement which were on me caused my anxiety to spiral out of control. With no hesitation, I ran out of that Classroom pushing past jimin in as I did so which wasn't a good choice, And made my way to the rooftop where i always would be if I was too out of it to physically do anything.

 As  I was hoping, my best friend in the world, Jin was already there but he was there with his boyfriend which probably meant I will just be a third wheel again. Well, third wheel is still better than nothing.

 I rushed to sit down next to Jin on his left side while his boyfriend was on his right. Namjoon I think his name was. I barely managed to mumble a hello before Jin started yelling.

" Yah, You disrespectful child. Don't tell me you got sent out of another lesson. Your parents aren't paying for you to go to school just to get a detention every day. You might be smart but you need to use your brains for good reason. Instead of talking smart to your teachers, talk smartly to people that will get you places in your life. Look at me now, I'm training to be a chef and actor. I talked smart and that's how I met my joonie and I'm happy now. If only you unde-"

He was instantly cut off by the sounds of my loud and sudden sobs. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I let it all out right there and then. I embarrassed myself, again. What is his boyfriend going to think of me now? The same as everyone else?  In that moment, I couldn't have cared less. I managed to explain everything without breaking down again-for the most part. Both of them shot me a quick of a quick look of sympathy before saying that they had to get to their classes. 

Sad and abandoned, I sat down on the edge of the rooftop wondering what would happen if I just moved a slight bit forwards right now. Would anyone even care? Would anyone even notice? Would anyone even mind? I was curious.  I was willing to do it. I don't even care anymore. I would've done it right there. I really would've. But not today. I have too much to do. I set the date for next week in my diary already so I really won't forget. But not today.  I took out my pocket knife and rolled up the sleeve of my Hoodie. Three perfectly straight lines. Only three. The perfect number. They weren't too deep, they weren't too long or too short, they were perfect. Unlike me... 

 It's funny how the only perfect thing I can do is hurt myself. I don't even need to do that when other people already do that for me. Really proves just how useless I am.  I rolled up my other sleeve about to repeat the three perfect lines on the other side-a mirror image- when the door burst open revealing a flustered taehyung who looked like he'd been  running around on a wild goose chase. He saw me sitting on the edge of the roof and quickly run towards me. I try to hide the pocket knife but He had already seen it, even before I knew he was there. He'd seen me from the courtyard downstairs and decided to come before things get worse. 

"Jungkookie!! You're bleeding stop it. I'm coming! Don't move any further."

With mischief everywhere around me, I looked down and decided to have fun. It couldn't have been that far of a fall. Right? Lets consider this a test. I stood, looked back at tae who was looking at me with a pleading and somewhat guilty look on his face. I smiled creepily at him and leant backward. Falling.

No. No. No. I can't even fall properly. Oh well. It was a test for next week. I guess I have to make sure tae is not around. Mentally noted. If this was a class, I would have an f.

I could've sworn I heard park jimin calling my name? Nah. After all to him I'm just a freak.

"Jungkook!! Wtf are you trying to do I stg don't ever do that again like never #sadgucci"

I burst out in laughter from this idiot and his internet speak. He just looked at me as if I had just been admitted to a mental institution. So I stopped.

"I wasn't really going to hyung calm yourself"  

"Good. But I'm never letting you out of my sight again." He pulled a serious face for a second before just going back to the same tae I've only known for 20 minutes and already miss, " speaking of sight, while I was looking for you, I walked past 2 cuties with the one and only pinkie pie. Anyway, he was shouting your name for some reason( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)"

Great. Well gotta blast... my ass back to class 'fore my grades slip.

Oh yh. My plan. Might as well start today.

"CLASS! Oh man holy sh-"

"calm yourself with your 5 year old bipolar ass"

"shut the Frick frackle up, I'm not the one fantasizing about a guy he just saw 2 minutes ago who is most likely Jung flipping hoseok."

I have had enough of this guy I swear. I ran all the way to math class, kinda not paying attention. And since my life just wants to be garbáge, I bumped into someone. Oh, wow. Just flipping great. A fracking panic attack(speaking of, where's my pil- ugh with tae), my arm is bleeding again and I have this bitch in front of me. Life is great!

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A

: who is in front of him hmmmmmm?

Buhbye🍥

Also. Yes. I'm still 'attempting' to write like 4 stories on the side 😂 pray4me

Actually me: stfu sitting in your bed reading smut and fluff all day counts as writing

Dnt let me expose myself like that smh.