TW: Mentions of child neglect, thinking something is oneselfs fault, revoking of parent privileges, slight mention of death{Nothing too graphic},

{Remy's POV}

I- I why is this happening to me?

First Remus.... Now Roman.

'If I didn't stay home, I could've prevented his death. If I didn't do that stupid prank, Remus wouldn't have died.'

That's when it hit me.

It was all my fault.

That's why dad does the things he does.

That's why dad hates me.

That's why papa won't look me in my eye anymore.

{Dad = Patton, Papa = Logan}

That's why they both ignore me.

That's why....

It's because it was all my fault.

I cried myself to sleep that night. The overwhelming guilt is still crushing me. I don't understand why Da- Patton [Patton lost the Dad privileges >:(] hates me. Why they never loved me and #&@T$&*$(* when we were younger. That's why #&@T$&*$(* died, Patton never asked if they were okay, loved them, and never took care of them.

#&@T$&*$(* always took care of me. Papa and Patton never did. It's like they forgot about us. They always forget.

I will always love #&@T$&*$(* through and through. Even though they are not here in a physical form, they will always be in my heart.

I hope I can reunite with #&@T$&*$(*.

I wonder what heaven is like, how did we even come up with the name, 'Heaven'.

I pause, 'I can't reunite with #&@T$&*$(*, I won't go to heaven'

'I can't, not with all the bad things I have done.'

No, don't think like that, if I fix my mistakes, maybe I'll be allowed up. Yeah, that's what i'll do.

I'll stay strong for my siblings.

I have to stay strong. No matter what.

'You have to remember, it's all your fault~'

I shudder. I didn't think he'd be back.

Yet here he is. Talking to me.

I can't give in, just take a walk, relax your mind.

I regretted stepping out of my room.

What I saw scared me...

Cliffhanger :)

-Yin