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Jason McCann

I heard a faint whimper. I rubbed my eyes and turned to my side. "Justin?" I rasped. I heard him sniffing. His body was shaking. "Justin?" I shot up concerned. "look at me baby"

He's probably having one of his episodes, I can't touch him. He turned to face me. "J-Jason" he whimpered.

"Talk to me, what triggered it" I asked softly.

Me and Justin have been together for 2 years now, recently Justin moved in with me because he's been having these anxiety dream attacks or something she they've been getting worse. So he sleeps with me so I can calm him down.

It's scary though, sometimes he can't breathe or he gets in a lot of pain, and I can't do anything.

"Y-you died" he muttered, making a fist with his hands. I slowly moved my hands to his body, he looks up at me giving me permission so I can hold him.

"I'm not dead see? I'm alive and well baby" I ran my fingers through his hair. "Why didn't you wake me up? This could've turned ugly"

"I was scared to check if you were d-dead" he gulped.

"Well I'm perfectly normal" I assured him. His breathing began to slow down and his pulse did too.  I felt relieved, but it's getting worse. I think I'm gonna take him to therapy, he just be fighting some demons. "Maybe you should talk to someone"

"I talk to you"

"I mean like a professional"

"Are you calling me crazy Jason?" He sat up. "Because I'm not it's just-" I cut him off.

"I know your not crazy jay, but it seems like something mentally is disrupting your peace" I grabbed his hand. "Ok?"

He took a deep breath "ok" he intertwined our fingers . "can you come with me?"

"yes you big baby" he giggled throwing a pillow at my head. "Now let's go back to sleep, I'm fucking exhausted" I chuckled pulling Justin into my embrace.

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"you nervous?" I asked as Justin's leg was pouncing 200 miles per hour.

"No" he lied.

"Justin Bieber?" They called. He shot his head up and looked at me.

"Babe it's just to talk, ok? Don't be worried" I kissed the side of his head. "Go" I pat his butt. He slowly walked into the therapist office doors, I took a deep breath and sighed.

I hope they can figure out what's wrong with Jay. I love Justin regardless, and I'm gonna be wit him..regardless, I just wanna make sure he's mentally ok. He's all that matters to me. I can't risk losing him because of his head.

As I scrolled through my phone I waited for Justin to finish his session. "Uh Jason? Can I talk to you real quick?" I heard the doctor call me. I placed my phone in my pocket and nodded. Justin came out his room with a smile on his face.

"How did it go?"

"Great" he smiled pecking my lips.

I wonder why the doctor wants to speak to me. "Hi Jason, my name is doctor Joseph but you can call me Joseph or joe for short"

"Well hello Joseph it's nice to meet you"

"Now I called you in here because Justin told me that he is your boyfriend."

"Yes" I affirmed.

"As I was speaking to Justin I noticed he brought you up a lot, the boy loves you very much" I couldn't help but smile at the statement. I love my Justin."but I think that's the reason why he's not recovering" my smile soon dropped.

"Excuse me?"

"You see, a lot of the trauma Justin is facing is from people leaving him, with his father leaving him at a young age, and his mother dying, you are the only stable thing in his life. He wants to please you in order for you not to leave him, and protect you so you cannot be taken from him, hence why he recently had the dream of you dying? And he couldn't move his body"

I felt my heart drop at the words I was hearing. Is it my fault?

"Now I'm not saying to break up with him, but if you truly loved Justin. You'd let him go"

"Who the fuck are you? For you to sit here and tell me that it's my fault my boyfriend has these nightmares...he's scared for me to leave and your telling me too? How will that help him Joseph? What if that pushes him over the edge! I'm all he has Joseph!"

"That's where I come in, I have a program where I take some of my patients to the mountains, it's peaceful and Justin can learn how to live without you"

"This is the dumbest shit I've ever heard. I need Justin and Justin needs me" I exclaimed. I felt this rage I haven't felt before. My head began to pound. "We can find another therapist because it's obvious you don't know what the fuck your saying! We are soulmates! I could never leave him!"

"I can see how much you love each other jason, but don't you want what's best for Justin?"

"Of course I do! But why can't I be in his corner helping him? Why do I have to be unhappy too?"

"you guys can get back together once he is stable"

"and what if he doesn't need me again?" I felt my eyes tear up. I can't lose Justin.

"I'm always gonna need you jase" I heard a creak come from the office door. Justin came to my embrace. He grabbed my face and wiped my tears.
"I knew coming here was a mistake" he giggled.

"We're our of here" I announced glaring at Joseph. Justin grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers. "We will figure this out together"

Doctor Joseph

I watched as the couple stormed out of my office. My receptionist Andrea looked at me. "What's up with them?"

"That's a toxic couple" I spoke. "They're so glued to each  other that they won't listen to a professional"

"love isn't professional" Andrea muttered.

"Excuse me?"

"you can't think it seems bad on the outside, we don't know what happens at home, how they are there for each other. We don't know everything, knowledge can't tame love"

I looked at Andrea and raised an eyebrow. "Keep a eye out for my next patient" I muttered.