Jason McCann

"I just don't know anymore Jase" Justin whimpers. You see this is my boyfriend Justin. He's literally the sweetest and cutest person ever. He may display this on the outside but Justin is fighting some demons.

I'm sitting on my bed looking at the boy standing in front of me. He looks so defeated. I never would've expected this from him. I never would've thought he was going through all this shit. Alone.

I just grabbed him. He laid on my chest and sobbed. "I'm sorry so baby boy"

Justin has daddy issues. Hence why he's dating a guy like me. If Justin was completely sane he would've never looked my way. So I guess I can't completely hate the father of my first love, because if he wasn't such a dick me and Justin wouldn't be together.

"explain to me baby, what's wrong?" I rubbed his back. He sat up now straddling me. He wiped his face.

"He makes me feel l-like I'm disposable...like all these years he's been in my life was just for him to fucking leave"

"I just needed money for food Jason" he cries. "I haven't seen him or asked him for money in two months but I didn't have a-any and I thought I could rely on him"

"Justin why didn't you just ask me?" I held his waist.

"That's not the problem jase, it's the fact that I can't rely my own dad"

"Fuck him" I mumble. "You don't need him" Justin's eyes began to water again.

I'm so bad at this.

"Look listen" I sit up Justin now on my lap. "so what if that man doesn't wanna be in your life, let the man be miserable and unhappy knowing that his son is out here doing amazing things, that his son is no longer a kid but a man who can stand on his own"

"If you need something Justin just ask me ok? I'm always here, I rather you go to me a million times than to him ok?"

"What if we break up Jason" he rushed. That made my heart drop, I can't see my life without Justin.

"There ain't no breaking up, you stuck with me forever"

"how do i know?"

"cause we forever baby. i promise even if we do break up, i will hold it down for you until you so call got someone else to do it for you" the thought of Justin with another person made me mad. "I can't see you with anybody else but me though" I put two fingers under his chin.

"Why you talking like this anyway?" I ask

"I just don't know who might leave me anymore...Jason don't leave me please" he pleads. I kissed his lips softly. I've never seen Justin in such a vulnerable state. I feel like I'm not doing my job as a boyfriend, my heart frowns for him. The pain he's feeling I want to take it away.

"never" i pecked his lips.

I will never leave him.

Eh this was short, but it's 3:29 am