Justin Bieber

"Everyone is gay here but Jason" Jayden spoke. I turned to Jason. He's so fucking fine.

"I'll play" Jason adds. I raised an eyebrow.

Jason and I well, we are fuck buddies. people always say how that never works out cause usually someone catches feelings but, I'm pretty numb to emotion after my ex. He fucked me over a long time ago. Then I met Jason, and I feel something with him.

It's different with him. We are exclusive so if he kisses anyone else I will feel a little jealous and disgusted. I guess I'm a little possessive over Jason.

"You sure? You want to kiss one of the gays?" Chaz chuckles, that's one of Jason's fake best friends. He's a dick. Jason told me all about it.

Flashback

"Shit Jay" he moaned as he came inside me. He gripped my waist before he finally finished. I move my hair out my face as he pulled out of me. Jason laid beside me kissing my cheek. "You are so good baby boy"

I felt my cheeks heat up.

"Another round?" I asked. He smirked at me before his phone rang.

"Hold on" he kisses my lips softly. I grabbed his face so he would go. He smiles through the kiss, pecking my lips before pulling away.

I went to the bathroom to clean myself up. I looked in the mirror. I sighed and washed my face.

"No you dick!" I heard Jason yell. "No fuck you chaz" he spat.

Ah shit Jason is gonna fuck me so good once he's done with chaz. I mentally prepared myself. I focused on my body. I felt disgusted at the sight, but it brought Jason so much pleasure. How?

I felt him grab my waist,putting his head in the crook of my neck. He slowly kissed my neck and collarbone. "What's wrong?" I moan.

"Chaz is a dick" he mutters as he continued resting kisses on my body.

"You want to talk about it?"

"Justin get on the bed, you just wanna fuck...you don't care about my emotions or me" I stopped him from kissing me. I turned my head grabbing his face.

"Jason you're all i have, of course i care about you and your emotions" I placed a kiss on his lips. "Now what's wrong?"

I looked at Jason. He was at a lost for words. He took a breath and nodded before he vented to me about chaz

Flashback over

I guess it's not always about sex.

"Fuck off Chaz, yolo" Jason took a seat. "It's just spin the bottle"

"I'm not watching this shit" Chaz mumbled before walking off. He looked for Jason to be behind him but Jason took a seat.

"Alright I'll go first" Jayden winks. Please don't be jason. Please don't be jason.

It landed on Noah. Noah's face turned red before Jayden leaned in and kissed him. Jayden winked at Noah before returning back to his seat. Noah's cute, he's shy and smart. We went on a date before but we are better off as friends.

"His lips are soft" Jayden smirked. Jayden is the reason I have all these gay friends. We met at a job interview we didn't get the job because of our sexuality so we went out to dinner to realize how much we are alike. We're close, just not as close as me and Jason.

"Okay me now!" Julian exclaims. Julian is transgender, he's a really great guy. He moved in with Jayden after his parents found out who he really was. It's crazy how much your parents can hate you for being yourself. Julian is cute though, but he's stuck on his ex even though he won't admit it.

It lands on Lance. He's in the closet. He came with Noah. This is our second time meeting. The first time we met I was throwing it back on him at a party, he found out I was a boy and he had a boner. He couldn't lie about his sexuality after that. So I guess Noah took him under his wing.

They peck quickly before Jayden laughs.

"That was his first kiss with a guy" Lance blushes at Jaydens remarks.

"Chill" he laughs. I look at Jason. He's in the closet. I really love Jason. I just don't love him romantically. I can't. We can't.

Jason McCann really helped me. He doesn't know how much of a impact his has had on my life. The thought of him kissing another guy in front of me makes me sick.

"Jason your turn" Jayden adds. I felt my stomach tighten. The chances of Jason getting me is low. Jason locked eyes with me before his bottle turned to Noah.

Noah's cheeks turned red. Yes Noah is a bottom. Jason looked at me before he pecked Noah's lips. I felt my body burn like I was lit on fire. I kept my face straight so there was no suspicion. I digged my fingers nails into the palm of my hand. "Ok Justin your turn"

Oh I'm so getting back at him.

We aren't dating
We aren't dating
We aren't dating

So why do I feel so bad that he kissed another boy

"R-right" I prayed he landed on anyone other than Jason, but it did. Fuck.

"Let's spice this up a bit since you were the last to go Justin" Jayden smirks.

"What?" I raised an eyebrow.

"You and Jason on the closet" Everyone cheered it on.

"Justin you gotta do it" Julian exclaims. He obviously thinks Jason is hot.

"Yeah come on Justin" Jason teased.

"For how long?" I asked.

"It's up to you guys...but the minimum Is 7 mins" I rolled my eyes. I mean it's just jason.

"Aight whatever" We were lead into the closet.

"Ok guys times starts now" Julian winks before closing it.

I stood in front of Jason. I weird that he kissed someone else. Is that how I'm going to feel when he finds someone else? Someone who wants more? Maybe I'm selfish.

I felt Jason grabbed my face and pull me into his kiss. It feels so good to be intimate with him. It's different with him. It's like sparks every time.  It just gets better. It's like I'm captivated by scent.

I pulled away.

"Jason- what are we gonna do when you find someone else" I mumble.

"I'm not" he shrugged pulling me back in. I fall for it. Relaxing my eyes as I kiss back. He pulls my waist close. I thought about him being in this position with anyone else. Someone else feeling all these ranging emotions cause of him.

I don't like that.

I pulled away again, Jason sucks his teeth.

"Jason I'm serious...what are we gonna do?" I ask. I was scared of how response. I would have to find someone else. I just can't see it.

"Justin, I want to be with you and you know it..." I felt my heart drop.

"You don't want to be with me jason"

"Justin yes I do" he grabs my hands. "You're the only one I see...I know you just like me for the sex but I want something more. I know telling you that would've pushed you off and I couldn't have you in my life at all but i can't keep going like this"

I want to be with Jason. I think I do. I just i can't stand the feeling of knowing that this man has my heart. He can have complete and total control of me. He has a hold on me. These feelings are to intense for my liking.

"How can I trust you won't hurt me...like Aaron did? How?" I mumbled. "When you kissed Noah I felt like my body was on fire. I couldn't even do anything because we aren't together" I explained. It was true. I wanted to hurt Noah, even though nobody knows about me and Jason's relationship.

It made me realize how even though both Jason and Noah kissed I didn't wanna get mad at Jason, so my only other option was to hurt Noah.

"I don't even know if I want to be...emotions are scary. When I'm with you, I feel like I'd do anything for you. That's not okay" I felt like if Jason told me to do anything I would do it for him. He has me wrapped around his finger but he doesn't do anything with it.

"I feel the same way Justin. Something about you being in my arms ignites something in me. Like if anyone tried to harm you...I'd kill them" I was taken back that he actually felt the same way. I tried not to fall for Jason. I didn't go out on dates, I tried not to stay long after the sex, or for it to get personal.

but somedays we slept in each other's arms without even having sex. We stayed up late just talking, about anything. He held me when I had my emotional break downs cause of Aaron. He brought me food when he knew I forgot to eat. He's all I truly have. I might lose him if we get together

"It's strong...and I'm scared Jason. What if one day that feeling dies down and mines don't? Then I'll be numb again"

"I'd never let that happen Justin" he caresses my face. "Justin I-I...Justin I love you" he smashes his lips into mine. It was powerful the kiss. My body had tingles. Aaron never said he loved me.

I missed Jason back. The feeling was so intense, I even felt a tear slip out of my eyes. "jump" Jason growled. I followed his orders wrapping my legs around his waist. He pushed me against the closet wall, then articles of clothes fell on top of us.

I laughed as Jason removed Jaydens dress from his head. "I love you too jason" I never thought I could've said those words after Aaron.

"so...will you please be my boyfriend?"

I closed my eyes for a moment. I saw Aaron, I saw how he mentally scarred me. How I never wanted to get with anyone again. Then I saw Jason. I saw how caring,gentle,smart, interesting and amazing he was. I saw Jason as being my lover not abuser. I opened my eyes to Jason's half smile. It was obvious he was nervous to ask me.

"Yes" I smiled.