Okay so this was supposed to be an update but here you are , reading my shits again.

Actually I want to talk to someone without any fear of judgement or fear of being betrayed and who else is better than you guys.

Okay so let me be very open the day I stepped into the College campus I developed a crush on a senior. He is in 2nd year ( ug 2). Him being an active SFI cader shared his number to juniors via help desk to help them. That's how I got his number. We started talking formally like how it shoud be. Then we talked and talked and talked and developed a bonding , a friendship well a very healthy friendship. I still call him 'dada'
( elder brother) and he too calls me 'bonu' ( sister)....hurts but okay🤧.

He has a complecated and toxic relationship, let's not get into his personal life.

Now , I don't know where life is taking me. Like why me GOD!!!

Why always me?

Things are pretty smooth and if this actually continues me and him are going to be the bestest friends in future. But again would that be enough!!

I can't share this to anyone. That's why I came to my last option. I desperately needed to talk.

I know I am an overthinker , a big one.

And , I know it's too early to jump into any conclusion.

Just share you thoughts guys and console my ass.