Hey. I'm back with something you might or might not be expecting and before I go into anything I just want to let you all know I'll be talking about some really sensitive and personal things about myself in this A/N and why I haven't been on wattpad as often.

(Part 1)

My name is Carmen, I'm currently 16 and I was diagnosed with type 2 Diabetes, for anyone here that hasn't heard of diabetes or knows little about diabetes I'll explain.

Diabetes is a chronic (long-lasting) health condition that affects how your body turns food into energy. Your body breaks down most of the food you eat into sugar (glucose) and releases it into your bloodstream. When your blood sugar goes up, it signals your pancreas to release insulin.

I have type 2 which means my body doesn't produce enough insulin to function properly, or my body's cells don't react to insulin. I have been struggling a lot with this new information and it's taken a lot of energy out of me to write. Of course the people here who I've friended on social media platforms can see that I am indeed online and on my phone and might think or ask themselves "Why aren't they writing something up?" And I've even promised one shots and to people and others that I've probably forgot about. Not that I want to but I've been lacking the motivation to write anything at all and even writing this is just making me feel insecure, feeling like I might get hate for this or accused of lying, even the fact all of you that I'm friends with might just dismiss this. Not just all of that but I feel like I'm letting you all down at times and feel like I should just quit wattpad altogether.

(Part 2)

Not only is the diabetes affecting me but my mental state is just not in the right place. I've been in my room all day, laying down and so dn sensitive that I'll even lash out at my own mother and brothers, I've even snapped at a few teachers just the other day at school and have even had a few seizures just a few days ago.

(Seizures is something I was diagnosed with a long time ago, specifically absence seizures/petit mal seizures and I had my first at 2 years old)

My family isn't the best either, my mother doesn't want to be near my dad or want my dad to know anything abou where we live or anything about her, my dad is in prison (I won't be specifying what for or how many years), he'll be coming out soon, and I haven't even drawn him the drawing I promised neither have I sent him any letters I've promised. I feel terrible, horrible even and I hate the way I'm living right now. I hope you know that it's not that I don't want to write or have just gotten over a phase or have forgotten all about wattpad and the stories I write for all of you or even the friends I have on social media that I haven't texted in days and I hope that you can forgive my absence.