Before toothless (btw I do not think this about hiccup it was just for... fun?😶 I just realized this is not fun stuff. )

I can't believe it. My dad still thinks I'm the village clutz. Well that's true but I'm trying.
Trying to get better. Everyone hates me. They wish I would die. Maybe I should. Even the neighbouring islands hate me. Sometimes I ask myself why I am still alive. I used to have friends but that was before I was named hiccup the useless. They ditched me. Just to keep there titles.

I should just die. Why should I live this life. I'm just a kid. I don't deserve this crummy life. For sometime I have been thinking oh committing suicide. I know I'm to young to think that but it's all I think about. I get bullied everyday. No matter what is happening I'm always getting bullied. I hate my life.

That settles it. Tonight. By the big tree. I'll Bring some rope. tonight I kill myself. tonight i give my final goodbyes. Like I have any to give. But now I can see mom again. Someone who actually cared about me.

I was just walking. To the tree. To kill my self. But I got stopped. By my father. He wanted to know what I was doing. He can't know. No one can know. I try to run. but as I go into the woods. There was Astrid. Killing more trees. I decided to kill myself another night.

I can't believe it. My father. My only family. Used me. To get more volunteers. On a life threatening journey. That's it. I ran home. I wrote a letter. And took my dagger. I started to cut my arm. Blood came pouring out. I raised my dagger to my heart. I was about to stab myself when a knock was heard on my door. Knocks became to pounding. Soon I heard yells. It was the teens. I didn't realize the blood going under my door. I whisper "goodbye"
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Astrid POV
I was walking with the gang towards Hiccup house. The chief told us to watch him. Apparently he has been sneaking out at night with a rope and running to the forest.

We got to the house and opened the door. "Maybe we should first see if he is still in his room." I say. We walk upstairs and see a red liquid coming from the other side of the door. I start knocking. No reply. I start pounding on the door. Still nothing. I turn around to see the gang looking a bit worried. We all started to puss the door open. But we heard faint "goodbye" from in his room and then a THUD. Then we start panicking. Fishlegs goes to find Stoick&gobber. The rest of us continue to push on the door. More blood comes from the other side. Stoick&gobber arrive. They start panicking when they see the blood. They start pushing. The door finally breaks. There it was. The source of all that blood. Hiccup. Lying in the middle of his room. Dagger through his heart. He was still alive. Barely though.

Stoick pick up his boy and rushed him to got his hut. She gasped at the poor boy. But by the time the teens got there. He was .........gone.

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The village council decided not to give Hiccup a proper Viking funeral. They would just bury him in the ground to let him rot. He deserves more.