This is a slam poem I had to write for my literature class. And because I'm so anxious about everything, the entire class had to stand in the hall as I read it to the teacher. Oopth.

(What I'm listening to: Idfc -- Blackbear)

~ Kyn

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A girl.

Three little demons sit inside her head.
"You're nothing."
"Kill yourself."
"You don't deserve happiness."
She can't take it.
She can't fight them.
They're taking her over.
They're tearing her down.
She can't,
She can't,
She can't --
"Are you okay?"
No.
But she lies to protect the girl she loves.
She lies to protect everyone.

That night she sits alone.
The bathroom floor, blade in hand.
But she won't use it.
She can't.
The only thing on her mind is the girl who changed her life.
The girl who made her happy.
The girl who loves her.
And she puts away the blade, for her.

Fat.
That's what she calls herself.
She refuses to eat, if only to be thin.
But that girl, she tells her different.
She says she's skinny, beautiful, amazing.
So she tries to believe it.

See, she's the one who never gets reassurance.
The one who holds all others' happiness above her own.
The one who tells people how great they are, yet never believes it about herself.

She was never told she was worth something.
Until the blue-eyed girl appeared.