Based before the last two one shots, but still in connection and still vampire!brendon

- italics - is something said in the past and in relationship to the text btw

[Brendon struggles to say the L word]

For as long as Brendon and Louis has been dating, not once has Brendon brought up the courage to say 'The L Word' as Louis has no solely named it. Louis on the other hand was able to throw the word around about everything that he adored, and no matter how many times that Louis had said it to Brendon, the human tried his hardest not to be disheartened when he didn't receive the same word in return.

It wasn't as if not saying 'The L Word' meant that Brendon did not care for him. He did. The vampire made it up with the engross amounts of affection that he showered his beautiful human in, the new articles of clothing that came pouring out of their walk in wardrobe and the adorable compliments that he would tell Louis throughout the day and just before he would fall asleep laying beside him.

As much as Louis adores the things that Brendon does for him, it doesn't hurt any less when he doesn't hear those three words back.

Brendon had his reasons, he was a vampire, nearing 900 years old. He's seen the word, been there for the wars, the dictator ships - 'I bet they thought you were Jewish because of the size of your nose' 'Fuck off Louis' - the sinking of the titanic and through plagues. Brendon has been able to see the great wonders of the world, and witnessed the worse. He's dated more people than he can count, but there's only one person who he can say that he loves.

And he's sitting on the other side of the sofa from him.

Brendon just can't bring himself to say the words, no matter how many times he has tried to say them. There's something deep down inside of Brendon that tells - no, yells at him that he's going to outlive Louis, there's going to be a time in the future where he won't have Louis on his arm and he can't stand that thought, and the thought of saying 'The L Word' brings him closer to those thoughts.

"Psst, Bren."Louis whispers, his right foot pointed so that he can nudge his big toe at his boyfriends thigh, eyes glued to the television screen. Much to Brendons displeasure, the vampire was being forced to watch the Spider-Man trilogy, mostly due to the fact that it's Louis' favourite and also because Brendon hates it.

"Hmm? What?"Brendon asks, shaking his head to rid himself of the thoughts swimming in his head. Louis lays on one end of their comfy, beaten down sofa as Brendon lays on the other side, a massive thick duvet draped over the pair.

"Popcorn me,"The human speaks, opening his mouth.

"I am not your slave."Brendon rolls his eyes, already reaching for the bowl of popcorn that sat on the coffee table. Louis continues to nudge the vampire with his foot, getting impatient.

"Boyfriend, slave. Same thing."Louis shrugs with a giggle, opening his mouth and pointing a finger towards his mouth, still looking at the screen.

"I could be putting something way better in your mouth, y'know."The vampire smirks, shifting up the sofa so that Louis' legs were now draped over his lap and so that he was able to stiff popcorn into his lazy boyfriends mouth. Louis makes a choking sound on the mouthful of popcorn."That's not the only thing you'll be choking on."

"Dude, you're fucking disgusting. I could've died!"Louis is dramatically shouting, kicking his legs on Brendons lap and glaring at the vampire. Nevertheless he's still reaching for more popcorn only for the popcorn bowl to disappear from his reach and he's being pinned to the sofa by the inhuman strength of his vampire boyfriend.

The popcorn bowl has been tossed across the living room, scattering sweet and salted popcorn all over the living room, and he is now being pinned to the sofa with Brendon on top of him and his arms pinned above his head.

"Whoa- okay, you do know you're fucking tidying that up, right? Because if you think I'm going to slave away and tidy up your mess you can sleep in your fucking coffin in the basement-"

"Don't say that."Brendons growl is cutting the humans angered ranting off, his eyes flashing a dangerous shade of crimson red as he stares down at the human he has trapped underneath him. Louis is squirming in the hold, familiar to the position but in far more sexual reasons than this.

"Say wha-"Louis finally looks up at Brendon, meeting the crimson red eyes of anger and fear that has taken over Brendons usual soft brown."Whoa- hey, there. What's wrong? What happened, Bee?"His voice is quickly fading into a soft tone, his arms jerking to cup the vampires face in his own to soothe the distress.

"Don't say that."Is all he replies with, tightening his grip whenever he feels Louis' arms jerk and try to squirm away from his hold. Louis lets out a distressed whine at the pressure on his lips, face scrunched up in discomfort but is quick to cooling his expression as to not alarm the vampire any further.

"Okay, alright, I won't say anything, alright?"Louis compromises, licking his lips as he looks up at the vampire. It's so hard to tell what he's thinking when riled up like this, the emotion drained from those beautiful eyes and to a crimson red that just screams danger. Louis is use to it, the lad is a champ and deserves all of the Gold stars in the world.

"No."

"No?"

"I like it when you talk,"

"I talk a lot, don't I? Does it not bother you, during films? On dates? Before we sleep? During sex?"Louis pushes, aiming the conversation in a different direction, a smile gracing his lips whenever he feels the pressure on his wrists start to loosen but still hard enough to keep him in place.

"I never mind when you talk. Listening to you ramble in the best part of my day."Brendons eyes are softening back to those calm brown, locking with Louis' own oceanic blue."I love your voice, and I love it when you talk about things that your passionate about like soccer -"

"- football -"

"- football, or comics or food because your voice gets all high and talk louder with more enthusiasm and you start to smile, which is my favourite."The vampire rambles, jerking back a little whenever Louis catches him off guard with an Eskimo kiss from below.

"Welcome back, Bumblebee."Louis smiles gently, rubbing his nose against Brendons one last time before resting his head back against the cushion of their sofa. Brendon follows suit, burying his face in the crook of Louis' neck, body dropped onto Louis' smaller frame and hands letting go of the humans wrists."Want to tell me what happened there?"

"No."

"I wasn't exactly askin- mmm."Louis' body shivers as he feels Brendons icy cold lips press against the heat of his neck, pressing soft kisses to the delicate skin just where Brendon knows Louis is more sensitive. Nimble hands are coming to tangle in the vampires dark hair, keeping him where he is.

"Mine,"Brendon growls, kissing the delicate flesh, teasingly nipping but never biting. As much as Louis trusts Brendon with all his heart, Brendon doesn't trust himself to even dare do something as extremely as drink Louis' blood, nevermind break the skin. Even though Louis' blood smells so delicious to his nose.

"I'm yours,"Louis agrees, arching into the kiss to his neck."C'mon, tell me what's wrong."

"Nothing."Brendon leaves an especially hard nip just under Louis' jaw, making the human yelp.

"Oi! That was sore!"Louis complains, a hand still tangled in Brendons hair while the other goes to press to the injured spot. He wasn't bleeding, but it was sore enough to bruise especially with Brendons teeth.

"Sorry, fuck, sorry-"Trying to scramble away, Louis yanks at the vampires hair, pulling him back to his body. Worry and regret is flashing through Brendons eyes, looking everywhere but at Louis.

"Will you stop this? You're acting like- like a human! You're not a human, you're Brendon and I want him back. What is wrong with you?"Louis makes sure to keep his voice firm, staring intensely at the vampire as he shakes his head with the hand gripping his hair."Brendon..."

"You said you could've died."The vampire blurts.

"So?"He raises an eyebrow in confusion. He says it all of the time, he doesn't see how it could be a problem now.

"I don't like that thought."Brendon whispers, ducking his head sheepishly.

"You don't..."Louis' voice trails off, coming to the realisation behind Brendons words and feeling himself sadden at the thought but also in sympathy."Oh Bren, I'm not dying, and I won't die for an awful long time. Don't be scared."

"I'm not scared."He says stubbornly.

"I think you are."Louis whispers fondly, moving his hands to cup Brendons face in his own hands."You're scared that I'm going to die, and babe I'm sorry to say this to you, but that's what happens to humans. We die. It's just part of life. But I'm 22 yeas old, I have my whole life ahead of me, and I want you to be by my side for the entire journey, okay? I'm not going anywhere, bee."

"I can always change you,"

"That's a conversation for another time, bumblebee."Louis smiles, soothing his hands over Brendons face as he leans up to press his lips to Brendons in a soft, close mouthed kiss that means everything that either one wants to say to the other. Brendon is the one to pull away, feeling a rush of unfamiliar warmth as he stares into Louis' beautiful blue eyes.

"I love you,"He finally says, the words just rolling off of his tongue as he stares into Louis' eyes, watching as they start to shine in a layer of tears and the human below has to stop himself from smiling so widely by biting his bottom lip.

Because he does, Brendon loves everything about Louis, from the dimples at the bottom of his spine to the flecks in his beautiful eyes, and everything else.

"I know,"Louis whispers with a giggle, going to lean in for yet another kiss just to seal.

I have like 3 more Vampire!Brendon London one shots planned btw!!

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