I sat on the edge of the balcony, a bottle of beer in my hand. Glancing below me, I saw my friends talking, playing games, and just generally enjoying themselves. I sighed because, after everything we all went through, they could still smile, but I couldn't as much as before.

"You okay up here?" York, my best friend asked as his head popped up from the side.

"I'm good," I told him. " but you can join me if you want, you know."

"Sweet." He said as he climbed up the ladder before sitting down beside me.

I offered him a beer and he gladly accepted and we sat there for a while just drinking when he spoke up.

"How are you holding up?" He asks while leaning back against the wall.

"Okay, I guess?" I told him honestly. "It just feels like everything's happening so quickly."

I glanced down and saw the others laughing and talking about their day.

"Everyone's growing up. Soon we'll be going our own ways. I just can't imagine my life without your guy's craziness. I mean it's kept me sane for this long. I'm just gonna miss you all." I told him, leaning over and resting my head on his shoulder.

"Callie, you're not getting rid of us that easily." He argued as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder making me a little comfier. "We'll always be around no matter what, when, where, or why. Even if you don't want us there, we'll be there because we love you and you love us, especially me."

I laughed at him and hit him playfully. He even had the guts to look shocked.

"But seriously Callie, we may be growing up but we'll always be together," York told me.

I smiled at him and leaned back as I looked up to the stars.

"You still miss her, don't you?" York asked.

"Every day that she's been gone," I replied. "How can you tell?"

"I didn't. You just told me. Plus you never liked looking up at the stars until you met Piper and ever since she's been gone you've always looked up more." He observed a lot more than I thought.

"Whenever I look up to the stars, I feel as though I'm still talking to her. As if she's still with me." I told him as I kept my eyes firmly on the stars. "Not a night goes by where I don't catch myself just sitting on this balcony talking to her. The night she left I went mental, you remember?"

"How could I forget? You were crying when we got there but started laughing then suddenly you were just mad." York stated, trying to remember what happened. "You were mad at everything, mad at Jo, mad at Jase, mad at me, especially mad at Piper."

"She left me and all I could think about was what I did wrong, what I could've done more," I told him the truth because he deserved to know the truth. "I just wish, I could've said goodbye. Guess she didn't love me as much as I thought she did."

"What are you talking about? Piper loved you to hell and back. She moved heaven and earth just to see you smile. You were literally everything to her." York went on and on.

"It just didn't feel that way when she left. All of a sudden, no warning, no goodbye, just a note saying sorry?" I told him trying to keep my anger in check. "I understood that I was a lot, I understood that I had a lot of baggage and that she dealt with most of it but I told her that from the start. I warned her before she even got too close to me but she still pursued me and I went with it. Now, look where I am."

"If you hate her that much why do you still miss her?" York wondered as he took a sip from the beer.

I looked up to the stars and remembered the way she would hold me under them and the world would melt away, it would be just the two of us and I was safe because I was with her.

"Even after everything, I don't hate her. I love her." I told him truthfully.

"So why do you think she didn't love you?" He asked, careful not to say the wrong words.

"We're going in circles here, York," I told him, playfully pushing him.

"Yeah, well you're not making a lot of sense so it's confusing me," York told me.

I slapped the backside of his head which resulted in an oww from him.

"She's gone and I miss her. I hate that I still love her after the way she left me but she has a part of me now. I can't just forget something like that." I explained to him.

"Maybe you shouldn't," York said before standing up and walking away. "Oh, and Callie look down will you."

I did as he said even though it came out of nowhere and standing below was the girl who had my whole heart.

"Hi, love."