Author note: This was a request and it is highly depressing, please do not read if you are squeamish or you don't like the topic. I tried my best to write it as normal as possible but because I am antisocial, I do not have any friends with depression or suicidal thoughts. This is a very real thing around people my age, please do not hate me afterward.

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Changbin had a wonderful life, parents that supported him, a loving girlfriend and his best friend. It was all he needed, he wasn't one for popularity and caring what people around him thought. He cared solely on what the people he loved thought. His best friend had been the light in his life for as long as he could remember. They shared secrets, crushes, and thoughts together.

Everything was almost perfect except Felix had a hard life in the beginning, starting out as an orphan. It wasn't until later that he got adopted by this wonderful older lady who loved him. There were still some flaws about Felix though. He wasn't perfect and Changbin loved him for that, but Felix still had depression. Of course, Changbin and Y/n knew that and it didn't make them love him any less. No matter how much love and support there was, nothing was going to help.

"Hey, Y/n?" Y/n looked up at her worried boyfriend. "Hmmm?" "Have you seen Felix today?" She thought back to her first class that she and Felix took together. "Now that I think about it, no. But, I'm sure he's fine." She wanted to joke about how he loved Felix more than her but now was not that time. "I have a bad feeling about this." Y/n stood up, grabbed his hand and dragged him out of the school.

"We are going to go check up on him because he was a little weird yesterday." Changbin's eyes widened. "You saw that too?" Felix always tried to be happy, at least for his friends, but yesterday he was severely down and he made dark and depressing jokes. They ran towards his house and barged in. "Kids, what are you doing here?" "Sorry, Mrs.Lee but we need to check on Felix." "I checked on him 30 minutes ago and he was just fine." Changbin who was still worried requested to check on Felix and Mrs. Lee let him. He rushed upstairs and screamed at the sight that was laid out before him.

Y/n took off running upstairs with Mrs.Lee walking behind. When she got there, she found her boyfriend on the ground covered in his best friends blood trying to revive him. There laid Felix, on the floor with cuts all over his body. Finally, the paramedics arrived and determined him dead at the scene. Y/n caught a glimpse of a piece of paper and she took it while dragging her boyfriend away from the scene.

When they got home, she coaxed Changbin into taking a shower. She waited outside the door to make sure that he himself wouldn't do anything. He came out in baggy sweatpants and a sweatshirt. Y/n laid down on the bed and beckoned Changbin to sit next to her. "Come here, Binnie. I have something I need to show you." "I am not in the mood." "Felix wrote it to us." He flinched at the name but came over.

This is what the letter said:
Dear Y/n and Changbin,
I love you guys so much and I know how much you guys love and care about me, but I'm not enough for you guys. You guys deserve someone better, who's not depressed and not sad all the time. I have decided that I wasn't good enough for the world so I rid it of the sadness. I love you guys.

Love,
Felix

"NO, YOU WERE GOOD ENOUGH FELIX, GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE WORLD AND GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME AND Y/N!" Y/n hugged Changbin tight while he cried. "Shh, Binnie. Felix is in a better place now. We will see him one day." Changbin laid there crying and hugging Y/n while silently cursing and blaming himself for his friends suicide. "I miss him too." Images haunted their memories for that night.

It has been months since Felix had died and Y/n was worried about her boyfriend. Changbin has not spoken a word after that night, not to Y/n, not to his siblings, not even to his parents. He spent most of his time at his best friend's grave. His girlfriend was worried and getting a little frustrated that he won't talk.

"Binnie?" No words came from him, just a stare. "Binnie, please talk to me. I know he was your best friend and I know you loved him more than me. I accepted that fate once I said yes to being your girlfriend, but please, don't shut me out. I am worried about you." Tears dangerously close to falling. Changbin stayed mute but hugged his girlfriend tight. She cried in his arms, sad that he wouldn't talk to her. She would do almost anything to hear him say I love you to her.

A few days passed and it was September 15th, Felix's birthday. Changbin did his same routine of visiting the grave and staying home. Y/n went work but promised that she would visit her friend's grave later. She walked home tiredly after her visit and opened the door. "Binnie, I'm home." She threw her stuff on the couch and walked to their shared bedroom. "Binnie, I-." Y/n had noticed the empty pill bottles that were filled yesterday. Her eyes darted to the body lying on his side of the bed, lifeless and unbreathing. "Binnie, no." Tears streamed down her face as she shakily grabbed on to the all too familiar looking paper. It was the same fancy paper he used to write his confession to her and now it was used to write his death to her.

Dear soulmate,
I love you so much, but it hurt seeing you in pain from my misery. I missed Felix and as I stood at his grave today, I realized that you would be better off without me. So today, I joined Felix. I'm sorry y/n I can't live with this. Don't follow in my footsteps, just keep on going on in life and don't forget me.

Love,
Binnie

"I love you too, Binnie." She sat down and cried a while before calling the paramedics. The next day, she sat on the bed in silence, thinking about everything that had happened. She loved Felix but he had ruined two other lives thinking he only ruined his. Y/n had decided that she was not going to follow in their footsteps but continue on with her life and keep them close in her heart.

Years later, she sat in front of their graves that were side by side. "I made it guys, I finished university and now I am a Vice President of the recording studio that my good friend Bang Chan owns. I gave him some of your demos because I wanted to show the world how great your music was. I hope you aren't mad. Oh, and I think I met someone. His name is Han Jisung and he creates music too. I guess I fall for the hot producer guys huh? I still love you two." With that, she left flowers and went on.

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Sorry if this wasn't the greatest, I thought I should tie up the ending with something a little lighter
Hopefully, you guys don't hate me now and want to hit me for doing this, but I understand
Love you guys❤️

Requested by _CrossGeneFlower_