the night started out like any other,

a drink or two and fun times with my brother.

As the night went on things started to change,

a couple of looks must have been exchanged.

as the drinks continued to flow and flow,

as they went the less i know.

I vaguely remember sleeping with him,

i guess it just happened on a whim.

one thing is know is we both said yes

and because of that i wasn't full of stress.

Its what happened next that bothered me more

when the older guy came to me just looking to score.

At 34, hes old enough to be my dad

but he still took advantage of me and that's just sad.

The second thing is what really hurt me,

Until today, there's rumors you see.

I heard about a picture of me in the first situation

that made me full of fear and frustration,

but that wasn't all, what i heard next was worse

it brought tears to my eyes and made me want to curse.

People are saying that what i did was rape.

the rumors have spread and i cant escape.

The guy knows it was consensual, but that doesn't matter.

because people believe the rumors and all the chatter.

I'm at the point where i want to end it all.

go to a bridge and let myself fall.

They will never forget the rumors that started,

even when the talk has completely departed.

My life is over so why keep living?

The world we live in is unforgiving.

I want to say sorry for all i have done.

Now if only in my hand there was a gun.....