Heyo, haven't updated here in centuries. Here's a lil' something. 

A tiny stream, as I looked up to him, left my eyes. My lips parted and I blinked several times in hopeless attempts to recover. Suddenly, each limb I had... felt numb. A tingly sensation ran throughout my entire body. Despite my mouth being open, I couldn't quite catch my words.

 What was there to be said?

I can't seem to recall the last time somebody gave me the key to their heart. It was in my hands, yet, anxious as I am, how can I even dare to possibly take hold of it? I am a foul and stained being, after all. My time here has never felt real. I've never felt that I'd end up far, yet this man, standing right in front of me...he thought oh-so-greatly of me. This is why I did what I felt I had to do. Like many times before, I gave it back. Gently.

''I am so...so wonderfully touched,'' A glimmer of hope lit up his eyes, but it was far too little a moment to last, ''but...I'm also sorry. I apologize for having put you through this.''

Ah, how the light flickered off in his eyes...If only he knew...

''I see...'' he managed to whisper.

''Listen, I'm sure I'm the last you'd want to hear this from, but the pond of fish is larger than you'd expect. I'm certain you're to find a better match!'' I said with the befitting awkward chuckle for situations like these.

Naturally, he parted ways first with me. I watched his back as he mingled among the crowd. Only after he had truly disappeared from my sight did I crouch down and bite my lips, placing my palms around my head.

'It's better this way'...is what I kept telling myself back then. Yet, the tears seemed to crawl from my eyes. Had I ever wept such salty droplets? I can't quite recall my heart being squished and trashed like that although I've snaked that fate around my neck like a collar each time someone tried to intrude past these high walls I'd built myself to hide within.

To this day I remember the cologne he had while hugging me for the last time. A sweet fragrance and as many perfumes for men, it was a strong musk.

To erase him, his smell, his smile, his existence...No...No...That doesn't sound quite proper giving the context at hand...

My regrets. To erase my regrets, I went out with countless men until I got stuck with an older one. He's the replacement now. Such an opposite, a perfect fit for people like me. Older, much older and blond (he was dark-haired). His eyes are cunning and he doesn't love. Just like me. We can't love, so we just use each other when it's convenient. I get expensive gifts every now and then, a fancy date and then a glamorous night spent in a costly hotel.

I'm an accessory to that man, but that's enough. My life would've been enough the way it kept being after I was confessed to that day...had I not seen him again. 

How could I ever forget those stormy eyes? Your skin, your features, your figure. Your cologne did not change. God, my throbbing heart did not either. The expression you had on your face saddened me. I was an accessory that night. My date was holding me by his side and you were right in front of me, once more, dressed up.

''Law! Long time no see~!'' uttered the blond man.

''Doflamingo and...''

''Ah, meet my new girl! Isn't she a jewel?''

You looked at me for a few seconds, nodded and agreed. I wish I could've crawled into the deepest pits of the earth below my feet, just so you wouldn't see my face, so I wouldn't see you.

''Yes, she is... indeed, stunning.''

Why, Law...why do you keep showing up? After all this time...something tells me this will be the last time. 

What's it to become of us? Of this?

Well that was it for the warm-up!! - Ai