I feel hurt. Useless. I hate my life. I hate everything of me. Why do I always get the bad luck?! I hate it! I hate everything!

'Is she awake?'

'She's going to wake up soon, you can see it here, by this brainwave. You see?'

'What does that mean?'

'This means that she's aware of what is going on around her.'

'How do you know all of this?'

'I'm a nurse, Corbyn.'

'Oh... never mind..'

I don't want to open my eyes. But I have to keep fighting. I slowly open my eyes and blink a few times. The ceiling is white, this is getting really annoying..

'You're awake!' I look around. Christina and Corbyn are next to me.

'Oh gosh...' I sigh. I want to talk louder, but I can't.

'It wasn't my intention to take her with me.' Corbyn answers my unasked question. 'She was to suborn.' Christina smiles weakly. I look to the other side of my bed. I expected that my usual doctor, doctor Black, would check the monitors and all the other doctor stuff next to my bed, but to my great amazement, Indy stands there. I look a bit surprised.
'Indy is a nurse.' Corbyn explains. 'She has taken over Black's task and is now your nurse.'

'I am much better than him.' Indy laugh. I smile weakly.

'Nina, can you please tell me what's going on?' Christina asks. 'Please, can someone explain?' Indy and Corbyn looks at me. I nod weakly.

'Nina has cancer, Chris.' Corbyn says. Christina's eyes widen.

'W-what?!'

'She has cancer stage three.' Indy explains further. 'Her chemo didn't worked. Her condition only got worse of it.' You can't read Christina's emotion of her face. It's almost emotionless. 'And there is a chance... that she doesn't have long left.' Christina looks at me.

'I'm so sorry.' she says to me.

'Don't care.' I say.

'And Nina knows that she doesn't has to force her body to do things.' Indy continues. I roll with my eyes. 'What she did today at the show.'

'I was fine.' I say.

'You wasn't!' Indy says. 'Nina, You're acting incredibly stupid right now! If you keep doing this, you need more infuses then you have now!' I look to Indy.

'W-what?' I ask after a few seconds. Indy sighs. Corbyn and Christina look to each other for a few seconds.

'You forced your body to much today, Nina.' Indy says. 'I had a discussion with some other doctors and we decided that you need infuses.'

'W-wha-'

'Just look.' Indy grabs a hand mirror and gives it to me. I grab it and look to my reflection. A infuse is in my nose. To give me medicines. I look to the wires. It's connected to a packet with medicines. I give the mirror back to Indy.

'Nina, are you okay?' Christina asks. I nod, but it's a lie. To my amazement, I'm not crying yet.

'I need to asks a favor.' I say after a few seconds.

'Oh, there we go...' Corbyn sighs.

'You cannot tell Jack.'

'What?!' Christina says. 'No, Nina, You can't do that! He's your boyfriend, you can't keep this for him!'

'I can.' I say. 'And I will.'

'How will you do that with your infuse?!' Christina says. 'Nina, you can't freaking keep this for him!'

'If you won't tell him, he doesn't need to know!' I say, on a louder tone. Christina stops talking.

'So, you're just going to ignore him for the next few days?' Corbyn asks after a painful silence.

'Nina isn't allowed to leave the hospital for a while.' Indy says, before I can say something. 'She's only allowed to walk around the garden in the hospital and in the park in front of it. And you need a doctor with you if you want to go home or something.' I sigh.

'I need to make a horrible decision...' I say after a few seconds.

'Which decision?' Indy asks. Christina, Corbyn and Indy are all looking at me.

'I think I have to leave Jack again...'

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Sorry for short chapter!