'Nina!' I open my eyes. As I open my eyes, a butterfly flies over my head, what makes me sit up immediately. Wait, where is this place? I'm not in the hospital anymore. I'm in the middle of a beautiful wide meadow. Green grass. Beautiful flowers. Blue sky. It's very peaceful. The wind blows against my skin, calming me. 

'Nina!' A voice calls my name again. I turn my head towards the direction of the voice. I quickly stand up when I see her. She was smiling at me, waiting beside a huge tree. She waves her hand, gesturing me to come closer to her. I run to her. She quickly engulfs me into a gentle hug. Oh how much I missed her hugs. I missed her so much.

'Mom...' 

'My beautiful daughter...' she says. She kisses the top of my head and looks at me. 'My god, you are so beautiful. You've grown so much. You're taller, your eyes are so beautiful.'

I pull away from the hug. My tears visible now in his eyes. She gently wipes them away.

'Don't cry, dear.' she says. I can't help but smile. 

'I missed you so much, Mom.' I say. I hug her again. 

'I missed you to, dear.' 

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'I still remember how you run to me after getting scolded by your sister.' He says, making me laugh. We sat down on the shade of the tree, just talking and catching up. I'm genuinely happy right now. The smile on my face was permanent. My mother is really here beside me. 'She always has been jealous of you. But anyhow, who's that Jack guy?'

'Oh..' How does she know about Jack. 'He's my ex-boyfriend.' My smile disappears a little at the mention of him. 

'I can see that you love him very much. I can see it in your eyes.' she states, patting my head. 'Tell me what happened? Why did you let go of such a good man?'

So I tell her. Everything. From the start, until the end. 

'It was a hard decision, but I think it's the right thing to do.' I finish my story. 'But my love for him with never change, tho.' 

'Are you sure about this decision?' she asks. 'Are you sure this was the right thing to do?'

'What are you trying to say?' I ask confused, no knowing why she's asking these questions. 

'I can see that that's not really what you want. That's not what your heart really wants.' She says, pointing where my heart is. 

'I feel really confused, enlighten me please.'

'You want to stay by his side. You want him to be there for you.' she starts. 'You used this,' She points my head. 'Instead of your heart. You thought about him too much that you push what you really want in the back of your head. You didn't think thoroughly what he will feel when he finds out.'

'What do you mean? Of course I know what he'll feel. He will be devastated for sure.' 

'Do you know what he'll feel when he finds out that you hid this from him? That the love of his life had hid something so important from him? That everything is too late now? He'll not just be devastated. He'll hate you. He'll hate and might even blame himself. He'll think that you didn't trust him enough.' she explains. But I'm still confused. I feel like his words just made it more complicated.

'Confusing huh?' she chuckles. My unreadable expression probably too obvious on my face. 'Okay, I'll break this down simply. I'll go straight to the point. All I'm saying is that you'll regret your decision sooner or later. So you better be with him now before it's too late. Do what you really want. What your heart wants.'

'Mom...'

'Nina, listen to me.' she says, taking my hands in hers. 'Do not make the same mistake as I did years ago. Remember? I hid my illness from your dad. He just found out when I was already dead. And I know until now, he still hates me for hiding it from him. He's blaming herself as well. I regret it a lot. I regret not spending enough time with him. Now, I missed him so much.'

A tear rolls over her cheek. I hug her tightly. 

'Wake up now Nina. And do the real right thing. I don't want you to regret like me.' she says, before pulling away from the hug. she stands up, pulling me up as well with him. 'And tell your father to visit my grave. It's been a long time since he last visited. I missed him so much. Tell him I'm sorry and that I regret not telling him about my illness.' I just nod. 

'Of course I tell him.' 

'Oh, and tell him I love him.' I smile. 

'I will.' A tear rolls over my cheek.

'Okay. I need to go now. Wake up already Nina. It's nice seeing my beautiful daughter again.' she says, caressing my hair. 'Stop crying my dear.'

'Mom, w-wil i see you again?'

'I don't know, we'll see.' she says. 'Maybe you'll see another friend to.' 

'W-what do you mean?' 

'You'll see.' she says. 'I love you, but I have to go.' A bright light starts to shine behind her. She walks backwards, to the light. 'Remember, Listen to your heart and do not listen to much to your mind.' The light starts to shine brighter. Then she disappears. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. 

I can't keep him in the dark like this any longer. Mom is right. Corbyn is right. I need to tell him already.

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