"Before you go, I want you close to me


Hold you in my arms before you leave

Just one last time~"

"I want to protect you one more time before tears run down your face

But crystal gets further from reach, the more I wish for it

Even after hundred years, I want to live with you~"

September 6, 2019

Oppa, I'm sorry for all I've done. If I did not get slipped on the Riverside, Eomma and appa would still be here. If didn't chase the toy car that I bought which I was planning to give you...

I love you, Jungkook Op----

The boy flipped the last page of the diary with tears streaming down his eyes. 

The memory is still vivid in his mind. The event took place two years ago.

*Flashback*

Third-person pov

Mrs. Han pleaded on her knees in front of Jeon Jungkook. Him wearing the school uniform. 'Seoul University'

Begging and begging
Mrs. Han said many things and asked him to forgive her. Her who's last day is now.

"I beg you, Jinha, she suffered enough, why can't you forgive her?" she sobbed as he looked up to the boy who's now turning away

"She killed my parents, and you expect me to forgive her? Pathetic-"
His words got interrupted and his breath hitched at what he heard
Halting his step

"It's her last day, she has Heart Cancer, and all she wished is one hug Jeon Jungkook, One hug, from her brother."

"The doctor said she refused to have the surgery, we don't know why, but please, for her, come with me" Mrs. Han bowed with her head on the dirty floor. Not caring. Not caring about all the people looking at her

Hearing what she said, still confused, he came with her.

And as they reached her hospital room, which was just free. He teared up. The doctors rushing and exiting. He soon remembered what Mrs. Han said, and at that moment, he got through the doctors despite them stopping him. He hugged her and cried.

"Jinha! I'm here, I'm here now, look, wake up stop pre-tending, stop bei-being a sleepyhead, and wake up." he sobbed as he saw her face.

"I-I forgive you, wake up! We still need to celebrate your 15th birthday, you still need to attend my graduation. Wake u-"

Despite the girl's condition now, she felt it, she felt how he hugged her. And at that time, after his warm hug, she smiled and sleep. Sleep? Asleep where she will not wake up. Just like what she thought her brother wants. But what she didn't know is that it's different. He wasn't happy at all.

The monitor then showed a heartbeat having a now low heartbeat and soon it turned into a straight line.

"Jeon Jinha, Death, September 6, 2019, 3:37 pm."

"No, she's not dead! Jinha! Jinha, we promised each other that we'll sing on our wedding day. You promised to go to taekwondo class with me!" he gripped her hand which was now cold. The doctors then pulled her towards the morgue, asking if she'll be buried or cremated. Then he remembered when they're kids, she said she'll have a field filled with lavenders when she grows up. When she would draw lavenders which were just like a doodle.

"cremate," he said crying

The nurse was cleaning the room, while Jungkook was sitting on the bed of his younger sister. Still can't accept the fact.

"Sir? I think it's hers"

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"I should've known

I deserve it


I blamed you for something you didn't do...


I regret it...


Yongseo Hajwo, Yeodongsaeng..."