Shish Mahal

Manik was holding his guitar. He lost in his own thoughts. 

"Nandini is so innocent. so pure.  In her heart had no any bad thoughts for anyone. That's why she easily forgive that Ronit. She never judge anyone. But how??  I was angry on her without her mistake. And still she was trying her best to proving herself right. Manik sometimes You  are  behaving like a jerk.  But I know she is innocent. she can't do anything like these. Then  why I am feeling so insecure? she is not like that type of bimboos. But some were my heart says something is different than my thinking. No.  Nandini can't do anything wrong. she never break my trust.  I know still she can't understand what is love.  But she never betray me. she know that I love her. what I did with her before 3 years back. That was totally wrong.  still I am in  that guilt.  “Manik was talking with Himself .

“But still I know before 3 years back I took these decision for Nandini which is right,  it just because of to I get a chance to go more  close to her, not physically but mentally. It just because of that I found a new Nandini.  I can understand her more than her.  But somewhere I can't denying these thing that she is a girl. she has also her own feelings. May be  aisa kuch ho jo still I don't know about her. May be she is thinking different about me. May be she never see me that intention, just like the way I am seeing her. Her feelings is more different than my feelings. “Manik said intensely .

“Manik don't You  think You  are  forcing your thoughts on Nandini.  That's why may be she never shared what she think about me.  You  know one thing very well that she scared from You  so much. From since beginning.  And I don't think these thing can easily flew out of her tiny mind. she scared from You . And somewhere I like these.  I like to get all control on her.  I like to keep her under the thumb of mine. But  also want that she have to share her own feelings. Because I am always share with her my feelings. What I am thinking. What I feel?? But she never express herself in front of me. she  just always obeyed my all orders, like a servant.  “Manik

“I am always thinking that she is very special for me. Always treat her like a Princess. She is very special for me.  Because I love her. But she is always keep distance from me. Always managing to maintain a distance between me and her.  She is just showing me that she is behaving with me like a normal girl. But she is not a normal. She is just don't acting. But  behaving exact like a other servants in the palace,  never said anything to me. “Manik

“She never share her problems with me, never. How’s her life??what happen in her life, nothing.   when I ask her what's going on then she only tell me little, but not everything. Manik seriously You  really don't know about her.  She just wanted to come out of these beggar’s  life and want to give her Amms good life. What about You  Nandini? What is  your real dreams? What is your thinking. Between these where are  You ??where is your happiness. ?? In a very young age You  are  so mature. But I am always behaving immature. Manik You  have to learn from  her something. “Manik

“But I want to  she will share with me everything,  she have to understand the difference between good and bad, what is right what is wrong. But she never said anything. And sometimes if she dare to tell me then that time I am not In my sense. “Manik was angry on himself

“Nandini is so strong girl. But I know she is still innocent too. she still no any idea about these cruel world. these cruel people. anyone can take her advantage.  .That's why I want to protect her. To protect her from the  evils. But she never want these.  She always thinking that she is just a servant in these Palace and I am the Prince . But I told her zillions of times that I don't think like that. she is equal for me. But she don't want to understand these thing. "Manik Pov. 

Next morning.

Students were  gossiping.

"Hey do You  know Ronit is badly injure?"Boy .  .

"Ya I  heard that someone has attacked on him. He can't even move from the bed and Dr. Said that may be he will be go in coma. "Other boy.

"What??"Boy.

"Hmm. what should we do??We can just pray to God for his recovery. But someone is badly hit on his head.  major head injury is there. "other boy.  .

"Who is he??And why he did these. ?"Boy.

"Don't know??May be  some business issue of his Dad's from business  rivals or any enemies can do these. Don't know. " other  Boy. 

Nandini was passing form there. She heard all these. she was shocked. Tears were flowing from her eyes.

Shish Mahal

Nandini open Manik's room door.

Manik was sitting on his bed and drinking  shots. 

"Yuvaraj You  did these.  ??"Nandini in angry tone. 

Manik was looking at her after sudden  these statement.

"What??"Manik asked silently and again drinking.

"Yuvaraj You  did these just tell me.”Nandini.

Manik stopped drinking.

"First rule I think You  forget then let me remind You . Don't raise your voice in front of me. who told You  these. Have You  gotten permission??"Manik in angry tone.

Nandini understood what she did.

"S. So. Sorry. b. b. but  did You . "But Manik interrupt.

"Say it clearly.  I can't get it. "Manik.

"Yuv. Yuvaraj Did You  hit R. Ro. Ronit. Did You ??"Nandini stammered.

Nandini was looking at him hopefully. 

"God Please. Yuvaraj can't do these. "Nandini pov.

"Who is Ronit? “Manik asked casually and again starts drinking.

"Ro. Ronit is that guy who pr. pro. proposed me. And then You  were angry on me. Please tell me apane nahi mara use. Please tell me na. "Nandini in teary tone.

Manik was looking at her teary face.

"And if I did these. Then what will You  do??"Manik in cold tone.

"Yuvaraj Please tell me You  did it or not.  You  can't do these. Yuvaraj his life is in danger. He is in  coma. "Nandini in worried tone. 

" I thought he will must be dead. after these. But he is still alive. "Manik greeted his teeth angrily. 

Nandini was looking at him shockingly. 

"Yu. Yu. Yuvaraj. "Nandini stammered.

"Yes I did these.  I bit him badly.   I hit him badly on his head.  I swear I really wanted to killed him.  How could he??He proposed You . How dare he??He don't know you are  only mine.   I Love You . He did these mistake.  so he got his punishment. That's it.  Don't worry he will not dare to do anything.  I gave him his lesson very well. "Manik said and again sipping his drink. 

Nandini was looking at him in fearful eyes.

She knew he is very possessive about her. He is monster. But first time she  saw  his these monstrous side.

Tears are   come from her eyes. 

"Now why are   You  crying.  ?? And why these concern for him, these tears. For that bloody b**** . You  are  crying???why “Manik hold her arms tightly. 

Nandini was  crying.

"W. why You .  . You . You  did these?? I told You  h. he. he is. he never tried to talk. again. a. fter. these  incident. Then  why??"Nandini in teary tone.

"I did only these only because of You .   Because I love You  dammit.   I can't see any other Boy in your life. No one can dare to come near You . Only  I am the one who come close to You . only I have these right. Do You  get that. "Manik angrily. 

Nandini was scared.  She was crying.

"B.  But Yu. Y. Yuvaraj these is wrong. Amms tell  me ki to kill someone is a bad thing. only bad people do these. b. but You  are  toh good na. then how c. can You . You . d. do these. ??"Nandini.

"No Nandini I am not a  good guy. who tell You  that I am a good guy. Baby I was just  doing acting with You  that I am very good. But the reality is I am not.  I am still that Monster Manik.  But infront of You  I am your sweet Yuvaraj. But these is only for You .  But the thing when it comes to You  Princess then I  don't think about  what is wrong and what is right.  The thing which is mine it means that these is only mine. No one can snatch from me. Not You  too Baby. "Manik was caressing  her face.

Nandini was crying. she was seeing his these real side.  Which  was still hidden from her. Purposely he hide from her, just because to win her trust again. But he can't change himself. Not completely. He borned like these. Then what should he do??Not totally his fault.   But he is like these. The monster.  He can't completely change his identity. she was now laterally scared from him.

"Yuvaraj pl. Please lea. leave me.”Nandini was trying to escape from his grip. she was looking at his eyes.   which is fully filled with anger. cruel.

"Nandini Please don't scare from me. Princess Please. "Manik was trying to touch her face.

"Yuvaraj Please leave me.  You  have killed someone. "Nandini was struggling.

"Baby still he is alive.  I don't want to kill me. But when I saw him. Then I. "Nandini interrupt.

"But You  were trying to teach him lesson and You  directly killed him. Really Yuvaraj. "Nandini.

"Nandini look I am not killed him. He is just  injured. "Manik was trying to explain her.

"No he is not just a injured. He is in coma. He is fighting with death.  what You  did with him? His mistake was just that  ki he proposed me. He likes me. But so What?? Why You  don't believe on me? Do You  really think that I will break your trust.  But I told You  I am not interest in all these.  I just want to concentrate on my study. Then why don't You  believe on me. ??why??"Nandini.

"Nandini I trust You . But not  on others. They are  not like You . You  are  so innocent. You  can't understand anything. You  can't differentiate between good and bad people. You  are  so beautiful. You  can't imagine ,  not even think that how much beautiful You  are .  On these beauty lots of boys are  looking at You  in a lustful eyes. They just want You . Your body.  I just hate them.  I just want to protect You  from these evils. "Manik cupped her face.

"Really then what You  did?? You  did the same with me Yuvaraj.  I can't forget these what You  did with me before  3 years back.  They are  just looking at me these intentions. But You . You  are  directly did these with me.  I can't forget these. Then tell me who is more cruel ??You  or others.  ???"Nandini.

Manik was shockingly hearing all these.

"Listen Nandini don't compare with me others.   I am not like that.  I accepted I did mistakes. But after that I said sorry and then You  forgive me too.  I am still in my limits.  I will never cross my limits. You  know these very well.  I am changed for You . Then what is these??why are  You   behaving like these??"Manik.

"Really ?? You  changed. ??You  are  not. You  can't change for me. it's just a acting.  Apane  abhi toh kaha. You  forget. Itni Jaldi. Yuvaraj You  are  trying to killed some innocent. Ronit is not a culprit. You  can't change. But You  just change your way. Your  mentality still same. What do You  think that I don't know anything.  I know everything. You  have changed your ways.  You  are  still looking at me that intentions. But I just ignored these.  Just because I don't want any trouble in my life.  I don't want to  show  Amms my sad face. she will sad. And I don't want these . Many times when my Amms left for Palace.  You  came here at my house  secretly and watching me from the door's hole  that how I take bath. ?? Now will You  say that You  are  change. When I knew that You  were there. You  are  looking me like these. That time I felt so bad. so disgusting.  I ashamed on myself.  I was so angry myself. That  I trust You .  Again.  Because I was fool.  Again You  make me fool.  And You  are  telling me that I break Your  trust. But You  know what You  are  so wrong, always wrong. "Nandini was crying badly.

Manik was standing like a statue on his place. Because now someone is caught him red  handed. And none other than Nandini.

"Li. Listen Nandini.  I.  .it's n. no. not like that. "Manik stammered and he was looking here and there.

"Really.  then What?? Yuvaraj You  will never change. Never. "Nandini.

"Nandini listen You  are  just overreacting.  I said again sorry.  I again broke my promise. But what should I do? I do I can't control myself.  I am trying but I can’t. Please just leave it and Ronit's topic is over now.  "Manik said in casual tone.

"Yuvaraj if I have any idea that ki kisise pyar Karna itna dangerous hota hai. Then I am sure then I will not do these. Mai kabhi kisise pyar nai karungi. Never. Just because of You  I love someone it doesn't mean  You  can kill innocent people.  I will not fall for anyone. Because I don't want to hurt anyone only its just  because of me, without his any mistake.   Amms never give me these type of upbringing. "Nandini. 

"Nandini just stop it.  stop these nonsense.  kabse You  are  just go and talking and go and talking.   I am telling You  are  just overreacting.  I am  telling You  exactly what happened then what is wrong with You ?? And it's just because of these outsider You  can't talk to me like that.  who is he??  He never come between us. He did mistake and I gave  him his mistake's punishment, that's  it.  why don't You  understand it's just a simple thing.  That I love You  dammit.  I did all these it's just  because of You . For You  Nandini.  For You  I can go to any extend.  I am mad at You .  "Manik hold her face.

"Then go with your madness.  I cannot stop You .  I am leaving. Please  leave me alone. "Nandini.

"Nandini why are  You  so much aggravate?? I don't think so that I did any wrong thing.  So Please stop these.  And why are  You  being so over possessive, our protective about him.  why these concern?? Only  because of him how can You  fight with me??You  never raise your voice infront of me.  Then today what is wrong with You ?? Let me guess You  have feelings for him, tell me.”Manik hold her arms tightly. 

"Yuvaraj what are  You  talking?? He is just my classmate. We are  not even friends.  But these thing is related to me.  You  hurt him  because of me. And tomorrow he will be die then what will You  do??What will I do?? Because of me.  I don't want to be a culprit. Don’t  want be a reason of his  death.  If Amms  knew these then??"Nandini in scary tone.

"Nandini  do You  like him??"Manik asked in dangerous cold tone.

"What??" Nandini.

"If You  will be sad. Agar woh Mar jayega toh.  "Manik.

"Yuvar. "But Manik.

"Just tell me.”Manik make his grip more tight on her arms.

"Y. Y. es. be. b. bec. because it is not right.  You  can't snatch anyone's life like these. Because  I know what is the pain of to losing someone. "Nandini. 

"And agar ye sab humare sath ho tabhi Aap aisehi react karengi?  Aisehi  tadpegi humare liye.   Please tell me. Humne ajtak kabhi apko kisike liye itna worried hote huye nahi dekha.  Please tell me.”Manik said in so much insecurely.

"Y. Yu. Yuv. raj.  what are  You  talking??Apko kyo kuch hoga?  And I don't want to, because of me aap  hurt ho.  No.  "Nandini. 

"Then if You  really want these ki because You  hum hurt na ho then forget all these. Don't  think about him, forget  all these. otherwise  I will. "Manik broke his wine glass  and held it near his wrist. 

" Yu. Yuvaraj  pl.  Please don't do these. Please leave it. Aapko lag jayegi.  You will hurt.  "Nandini was trying to snatch these  glass piece from him.

"Then tell me You  don't like him. You  have no any feelings for him. "Manik was trying to cut his wrist.

"Yuvaraj.  pl. Please  leave it.  I don't like him.  I have no any feelings for him. Please believe me. "Nandini was crying.

"I love You  Nandini.  Promise  me aap ko jabhi pyar hoga toh woh sirf hum honge. Aapka pehla aur akhari pyar sirf ham honge. You  will always love me. Please promise me.  "Glass pieces piercing on his finger.  Bloods were oozing from his hand.  .

"Yuvaraj  Please. Your  hand is bleeding. Please. don't do these. These is wrong. "Nandini was so scared. He was behaving like  a psycho. 

"No 1st You  promise  me. "   Manik.

Nandini closed her eyes tightly. And again opened.

"Yes I pr. promise  You  I.   I will do what. You . want.  I. wi. will. al. always.  L.   Lo. ve You .  "Nandini  said in a great difficulty. she was crying.

He smiled. Nandini immediately snatch the glass from his hand. She took his hand in  her hand.   she was crying. 

Blood was oozing from his hand. But he was just smiling and staring. 

Nandini  cleaned his blood.  Removed  the glass piece from his hand  and tide  the bandage.  But  in these whole situation he was just smiling like a fool.   

"Yuvaraj why are  You  doing these to me??  Why???Why are  You   hurting yourself??"Nandini was crying doing his dressing. 

"Because I Love You . "Manik was just staring at her.

"Yuvaraj these is just a madness. "Nandini was looking him in teary face. 

"But these  madness is only for You . "Manik was caressing her hair lovingly.

Nandini  was about to go after his dressing he hold her hand.

"Don't go. "Manik. 

"But already it's too late.  I have to go. Please take these  medicine and sleep.  "Nandini. 

Manik pulled her and take her on his lap.

"Don't go. "Manik.

"But Yuvaraj. "Nandini. 

"May I. Please last time. "Manik leaned to closed to her lips.

"But. "She said in pleading tone.

"Please. "Manik again leaned to closed to her lips.

Nandini  knows his situation.  He was not in state to understand anything.  She tightly closed her eyes.

"Yuvaraj Please don't do these. "Nandini pov .  .

She was not ready for these.  jo bhi  hua 3 years back it was a very bad memory for her.   But with time she forgot all these. Because of Manik. He changed. But now she scared these things now again come in her life. she don't know how to deal with these now.

She was not ready for all these.  Not physically and not mentally too.
Not 3 years back and not now.   It was very difficult for  her . she was still same that Nandini.

May be these intimate moments,  cosy things  was  not new  for her. Manik already  many times did these with her.  But it was all before 3 years. And 3 years is not a short time.  In these years many things happened. Many things  had changed.  But some were she knew  Manik still have feelings like these.  But she don't want to give  him any reason to getting again closed to her .  That's why she always keep  a distance from  him.   bhalehi he was changed or not.  But she didn't showed or pretending infront  of him that she is purposely maintaining the distance between them.

So after a so long time if these same things happen with her again with same person so it will really  weird or difficult for these little soul.

"Yuvaraj Please don't do these. "she was closing her  eyes tightly and continuously praying to the  God. 

Manik slowly took her lips on his and lovingly kissing her. smooching her slowly.  Nandini tightly clutched his T-shirt.  Nandini was numbed on her place.   She was closing her eyes tightly.   She was  not prepare for these kiss.  Manik's rough lips was moving on her soft lips slowly. she was not responding. she was blank. And waiting for when he will  break  the kiss.  She knew these time he really need these. 

After  kissing her he left her lips slowly.
He was looking at her lovingly. stroking her  hairs.

She was completely blank  now .  She lost in her thoughts.

"Yu. Yu. raj c. can I go. "Nandini.

Manik was rubbing her lips with his thumb.

"Yuvaraj Please. "Nandini  in pleading tone.

Give a small peck on her lips , he said “Go. "Manik smiled.

Nandini  immediately  get up from on his lap. and left.   Manik smiled.

Nandini reached in her house.  Her Amms  was not there. She was alone. 

She closed the  door and starts   crying badly.