I couldn't believe I woke up in Brian's arms this morning. It fills me with contractions. It's as if there's a wall of pain and grief standing between Brian and I. We went out separate ways earlier, he went back to meet Dom.

And now I've found myself back at Firehouse 51, walking inside I catch sight of a familiar face. Gabriella Dawson, Antonio's sister.

"Hey Gabby, all those girls from the truck.. are they okay?" I ask walking up to the ambulance where Gabby sits restocking the Med Kit.

"Yeah, they're all in recovery now. Malnutrition, dehydration, minor lacerations, severe bruising." She lists off the injuries before continuing, "god knows what those girls went through."

"Lucky you got to them in time, much longer trapped in that van and you wouldn't have been calling ambulances." Gabby sighs, i lean against the ambulance nodding.

"Yeah, it's a rough case." I've never been one to go too into detail, especially with cases like this.

"I've heard intelligence is a ticking time bomb with Voight, Jay and these new people." Gabby shrugs getting up to walk me further into the firehouse.

"You could say that... but I haven't really spoken to Voight, or Jay really." I reveal, and Gabby's brows rise in surprise of my words.

"I heard Jay was real close to knocking some blonde guy out" she says, and I shrug. Must have been while I was missing, neither of them mentioned anything to me.

"I didn't hear about that" i shrug as we walk through the doors to the common area, "it's nice to see you, i gotta talk to Kelly then head to work."

Gabby and I say our goodbyes, before I make my way to Kelly's office. I catch sight of him as I walk in, he's filling out incident reports.

"How are you feeling?" He asks noticing the bruise on my face has significantly reduced. I walk over to his bunk laying down as I usually do.

"I'm good." I nod looking at him, he spins around on his chair to face me and I add, "Brian stayed at mine last night."

Kelly's eyes widen in surprise and he gives me, that look.

"I didn't fuck him, don't look at me like that." I scoff making Kelly chuckle as he leans forward waiting for me to elaborate.

"But you almost did?" He questions and i sigh, head falling back against the bed.

"You've got some serious decisions to make Ash." I appreciate the honesty, but I am already aware of that. I care about them both, what if I make the wrong decision.

***

I make my way to work, mind racing with hundreds of thoughts. Heading into the bullpen, everything, everyone seemed still. As if a blanket of pain was covering the building.

"I'm gonna start getting ready to go undercover." I voice, looking around the room. Even Adam and Jay look upset. My eyes fall on Antonio whom only nods at my words.

Confusion and unease blanket my body as I turn on my heel going to change into my clothes to meet with Lopez. As I walk back into the Bullpen all eyes again fall on me. Trepidation claws through me as I notice Voight.

He stands in the doorway of his office, before nodding toward the door signalling for me to join him in his office. The look on his face fills me with panic. I take slow steps toward voights office, worry consuming me as I enter.

"Close the door." He states as he sits at his desk, eager eyes on me. My heart racing as I do what he says before sitting in front of him.