I spent a few days at Kelly's, I knew I couldn't go back to work straight away much to my dismay. But after a bit of rest, here I am walking up the stairs to intelligence. Hobbs voice fills my ears as he briefs the team.

Reaching the top of the stairs my eyes fall upon my family and intelligence working together. I never thought my life would become such a mess, all eyes fall on me and my purple face.

"How are you feeling?" Jay asks walking up to me, his hand falling on my shoulder as he brings me into a gentle hug. A soft smile tugs on my lips as I hug him back, inhaling his scent almost forgetting Brian was watching.

"I'm good." I break the hug, eyes catching Brian as he glares at Jay. My eyes scan the room, Letty watching me with a distasteful look, god she's pissed.

"My team is going to work the angles we already know. And technically Ash's cover hasn't been blown, so we could get her back out there. Try and get her in contact with someone higher up, Tej can hack John's phone." Hobbs explains, all eyes fall on me once again. And jays jaw tenses angrily, before Hobbs adds, "if she's up for it."

I'm always up for it. Anything to close this case, save more women. And it's a brilliant distraction. I smirk, "yeah I'm good, let's do it."

"Not on your own again." Jay stated looking at me. Voight nods in agreement and I can't blame them.

"I used to be a cop, I got undercover experience. I'll do it." Brian volunteers, my heart skips a beat. Please no. Not after telling him what I did. But no one else's skill set works, and I know that.

"No, I'm actually a cop. I'll do it." Jay counters and my heart tenses. No, not him either. For fucks sake. My heart pounds and out of the both of them I know who it should be...

"You can't drive." Brian states bluntly, the second jay opens his mouth. Jay scoffs agitated. I have to take a moment and breathe.

"He's right Jay... he's the best equipped in this room." I turn to jay and a slight look of betrayal lingers in his eyes.

"Then it's settled. If ash is good, I am." Voight states, and a look of Worry grows on Jay's face.

***

Both groups migrate down into Intelligence's garage, Brian and I change before Jay approached me to help hook a camera up to my jacket. He looks down at me, and we're alone in the corner. He's tense, the stern look on his face, his clenched jaw. I can tell he's uneasy about all this.

"You good?" I question, as his attaches the small device to my jacket.

"Yeah." The tone of his voice is a clear enough indicator that he infact was not good. I really do care about him, we've saved each other hundreds of times...

"Nah what's up jay?" I ask placing one of my hands on his stopping his movements.

"Brian..." he sighs, gulping almost contemplating his next words, "Are you still in love with him?"

My breath catches in my throat, and I truly do not know the answer. All I know, is that I really care about the brunette man stood before me. He is my breath of fresh air, calm in the storm. He has refreshed me.

"Jay..." i hesitate and that is clearly enough for him. His lips press into a straight line and he cuts me off.

"Just be safe out there." He says before walking away. I tried to stop him, grabbing his bicep he shrugs me off and my heart drops. I can't lose him too.