Song of the chapter: Love You Goodbye by One Direction💔

Warning: This will make you cry probably. If you don't have the feelings to read it, stop now.

Louis sat down next to the gravestone, rubbing his hands over his swollen stomach. He placed a couple daisies on top of the cold ground.

"Hi, Liam..." He started. "I know it's been a while since I've talked to you because I've been busy with the baby. I don't know if you wanted to know or not, but we're having a girl. And we miss you. A lot. I know you're in a better place, but I really want you here with me."

Louis broke into sobs. "I-I miss you b-babe. I m-miss you s-so much."

Louis wiped his tears, but he still felt wetness on his cheeks. It started raining. "I have to go before it starts raining too hard. We love you, Liam. I'll be back soon."

He kissed his fingers and placed it on the cold ground. He felt a small flutter in his stomach as he stood up and walked back to the car.

He stopped by a Chinese place for some dinner then finished his drive home.

He ate his dinner then went straight to bed. He thought about his husband one last time before slipping into a deep sleep....

"Liam, Liam!" Louis yelled as he ran down the stairs.

"What?" Liam asked frantically. "Are you okay?"

"I'm pregnant," Louis said.

"What?! Are you serious?!" Liam asked, a giant smile appearing on his face.

Louis opened his hand to reveal the 3 positive pregnancy tests. Liam started at them happily. He looked up at Louis before picking him up and twirling him around. "We're having a baby!"

"We're having a baby," Louis repeated.

"I love you, Louis Payne."

" I love you more, Liam Payne."

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"Li, you promised you'd be there," Louis said sadly into the phone.

"I know, baby. I'm trying..." Liam said on the other end.

"You know what, it's okay. It's just an appointment. They'll be more," Louis said. He wanted to sound like it wasn't a big deal but he really wanted Liam there for their first ultrasound.

"I'll try to be there, baby, okay?"

"Okay. I love you."

"I love you too, Lou."

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"Do you have your husband with you, Louis?" The doctor asked as they walked into a room.

"No, he had to work," Louis said, semi-sadly.

"Alright so let's start..."

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After the ultrasound, Louis and the doctor just talked about a few little health things. But right in the middle of their conversation, Louis' phone rang.

They quickly finished their conversation and Louis answered his phone. "Hello?"

"Hello, my name is Emily, I work in the ER," came a small girl voice from the other line. "Are you Louis Payne?"

"Yeah..." Louis asked, a bit worried. "Is everything okay?"

"Your husband, Liam Payne, was in a car accident..." Louis could have sworn his heart dropped into his stomach.

"I-is he okay?" Louis asked, his voice cracking.

"I'm sorry, but he didn't make it." Louis almost had a heart attack right then. "You can come to the ER before he heads to the morgue."

"O-oka-y," Louis hiccuped. He slowly made his way out of obstetrics and towards the ER.

When he got there, he was greeted by Emily, the ER nurse. "Hi, Louis. I am so sorry. We did everything we could."

"Can I see him?"

"Of course. This way please." Louis followed Emily into a room. Inside there was a bunch of machines all turned off.

There were red cloths covering the floor from all the blood. And on the bed was Liam's body. Louis broke down.

He went over to Liam and wrapped his arms around his neck. He started sobbing into Liam's bare shoulder.

When he was able to gather himself, he wiped his tears and brushed off his shirt. He left without a word.

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"Louis, you look so good," Louis' friend, Harry, said.

"Thank you," Louis said. He wasn't feeling very social considering it was Liam's funeral.

"How have you been doing?" Harry asked.

"I just miss him. So much."

Harry gave Louis a hug. "You just tell me if you need anything at all, okay?"

"Thanks Harry."

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"Liam was an amazing man. I was truly the luckiest man on the planet. I don't understand why he had to go in the worst way. He never got to live up to his full potential. Or be the dad he always wanted to be. I remember how happy he was when I told him I was pregnant. He basically started jumping up and down like the five year old he was." Louis wiped away a few tears. "So before we finish up here, I just want to say something. Babe, I love you more than anything. I hope that you have an amazing next life wherever it is you go. It's not fair that you had to go so early but I know you'll be in a better place. We all love you, Liam."

Everyone clapped as Louis got off the little podium.

Louis continued to have these memory dreams. It's like they just wouldn't go away. No matter how hard Louis tried to think about anything else.

Eventually these dreams turned to nightmares. To the point where he hadn't slept. In weeks. To months.

His friends started noticing this and they new this would eventually become dangerous to Louis, the baby, and others.

So they subtly got him a spot in a facility. Louis was given lots of drugs there so his dreams were suppressed.

He started feeling better. He could sleep. Liam wasn't always the only thing on his mind.

His baby (who was now only about a week away from arrival) was his main focus.

He got so much better that he was allowed back home without the medications.

And with that, a week later, his baby girl made her appearance.

"Alright, Louis," the nurse said as she put a sheet over Louis' bottom half. "When I count to three, you're gonna sit up and push for ten seconds, right to your bum, then get a break, okay?"

"Okay," Louis said as his breath quickened.

"Alright. Ready to meet your baby?"

"So ready."

"Okay, one, two, three, push." Louis sat up, bringing his chin to his chest. "Good job, Louis."

This continued for about a half an hour until the baby's head was almost out. "Just keep pushing, Louis. You're doing so good. Head's almost out."

Louis pushed again, groaning as it carried on.

He laid back with a large sigh. "Good job, Louis. Your baby's head is out. You're almost there."

Louis sucked in a big breath and pushed again. But he quickly laid back down again because he was out of breath. "It's okay, just take a breath."

"No, I want her out," Louis cried. He sucked in again and pushed. He pushed with all the energy he had. "C'mon baby girl."

The nurses started moving around as Louis pushed out the rest of the baby's body. She was immediately out in his chest. Her gurgled cries made Louis' heart burst.

"Hi, baby girl," he said as he used the blanket under her to wipe her off. "You're so tiny..."

When she was clean, she was taken to be weighed. She cried as she was taken from her daddy. "She weighs six pounds, thirteen ounces."

She was taken to the nursery to get all proper care while Louis delivered the afterbirth and was cleaned up.

When he was alone for a few minutes while they got the baby, Louis called up all his family and friends.

They all arrived within 20 minutes. By then, he had his baby daughter in his arms while feeding her.

"Hello," Louis whispered to everyone as they all came in at one time.

"Louis, she's beautiful," everyone kept saying.

"Thank you." He looked down at the baby who was now starting to open her eyes. "Everyone, I want you to meet Cara Grace Payne."

"I love that name."

"So beautiful."

"I love it."

"You can hold her if you want," Louis said to Karen who seemed to start crying. She nodded and took the baby in her arms.

"She looks so much like him..." She said, tears coming to her eyes.

"Yeah..." Louis said. "I really wish he was here."

"He's here, love," Karen said, kissing the baby's forehead. "He'll always be with you."

Everyone else started tearing up a little. "Who wants her next?"

"Me!" Niall said. Karen laughed and gave Cara to him. "She's so cute. I want one, babe."

Louis could see Harry's eyes widen. He couldn't help but laugh a little.

The baby whined a little bit so Louis took her back to feed her.

Everyone stayed later into the day until they took the baby to the nursery for the night.

Louis went to bed that night happier than he had been in a long time.

*~6 years later~*

"Daddy?" Cara asked from the back seat as Louis drive home from picking her up from school.

"Yes, baby?" He asked, looking into the back seat for a moment.

"All my friends at school have a mummy and daddy. Do I have a mummy?"

Louis didn't know what to say. Cara had only grown up with Louis so he was hoping that question would never come up. How could he possibly explain this to a six year old?!

"Well, um, here's the thing, love. Before we found out we were gonna have you, you had another daddy. But he died before you were born," Louis said slowly.

"So I have two daddies?" She asked.

"Well you had two. But the other is in heaven." Louis was trying very hard to not cry.

"But who's my mummy?" She asked in utter confusion.

"You grew and came out of my belly," Louis said.

"What?!" She asked. It was actually kinda cute how cheesy she was.

"Yup."

"How did other daddy die?" She asked.

"Well, he was in a car crash," Louis said honestly. He figured it was right to just tell her everything she wanted to know.

"I'm sad..." She said, looking out the window.

"Me too, baby. But he'll always be in our hearts, okay?"

"Okay, daddy."

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