"NO!"

Alex scrambled forward, sprinting to the stairwell and stumbling up the steps behind John. John broke out onto the roof and ran to the edge, the violent wind cracking his hair like a whip.

"John please, I know you might be confused, scared, but let me in, let me help you, John I love you," Alex pleaded, tears spilling down his cheeks as he slowly walked towards John.

"I lo-" John tried to speak before the hallucination yanked his hair roughly.
"No you don't." He growled.
John pulled away, trying to speak again but the hallucination went for his throat this time, choking him.

He kicked his leg out to hit the hallucination but he disappeared before John could make contact.
"I love you!" He yelled over the wind, his eyes glossy with fresh tears.

"Then why are you doing this? John please! Dear god please if you can't live for yourself live for me! Please!" Alex sobbed, his hands shaking as he clutched his chest, slowly stumbling forward.

"Fucking jump you coward," the hallucination growled, pushing him towards the edge. John's breathing sped up and he shook his head. "He feels guilty! He doesn't love you! He knows he'll be blamed if you finally die, don't fall for it," The hallucination hissed.

"John," Alex croaked, standing absolutely broken ahead of him. John winced and bit his tongue, turning away and stepping up onto the edge.

He looked down at the ground far below, cars whizzing by and pedestrians going about their day, heads buried in their phones. The second he tilted just that little bit too far, everything was over. He'd be free.

"If you jump,
I jump too."

John's head snapped to the side where Alex was standing up on the ledge too, his whole body shaking in fear as he kept his gaze out on the horizon, refusing to look down.
"W-what?"

"If you jump, I will jump too." Alex repeated, turning to face John, his eyes red and glossy, pleading for him to step back. "I can't live without you John, I love you I love you! Don't do this to yourself, to me," He cried, swiping his tears away.
"N-no Alex you can't!" John panicked, staring at him with wide, horrified eyes.

"He won't do it," the hallucination chuckled deeply, like a slow roll of thunder, rolling his eyes.

"I'll do it." Alex muttered, leaning forward a little.

Alex kept firm eye contact with John as he let his foot slip.

"ALEX NO!" John cried, jumping off the ledge and bolting towards him. Alex threw his arm back towards John.

He grabbed Alex's hand and ripped him backwards before he fell, pulling him off the ledge and into his arms. They crumpled to the floor in a messy tangle of sobs and limbs, John burying his face in Alex's chest.

Alex released a breath he didn't even realise he was holding. He was alive, John was alive, they were alive.

"Fuck Alex," John sobbed, clutching his shirt in his fists.
Alex gripped John for dear life, absolutely silent as he held him close, letting John cry into his embrace. "Never, never do that again," he cried.
"John you never do that again!"

John looked up, his wide, bloodshot eyes gazing at Alex as he nodded quickly. "Never, never, god, never," he breathed, and he meant it this time. Alex smiled weakly and choked back a sob, pulling John forward again. John hugged Alex desperately before his eyes shifted to look back at the ledge.

Hallucination Alex stood, watching on with a blank expression. Ever so slowly he began to crumble, letting the wind whisk him away to nothingness.

"He's gone," John breathed, clutching tighter onto Alex.
"Who's gone, John?" Alex frowned worriedly, rubbing his back soothingly.

John didn't reply, closing his eyes and drawing in a shaky breath, his whole body shaking.
"John?" Alex muttered, pulling back slowly.
"Yeah?" John squeaked, not bothering to try wiping away the tears flowing down his cheeks.
"I love you. Always know I love you, never forget I love you, I will always love you," Alex lectured sternly, wiping his tears away with shaking hands.

"I love you too," John whispered, falling forward and resting his forehead on Alex's. They were alive.

5 years later

"Margarita Schuyler put that eyelash curler down." John growled, shooting her a death glare.
"Johnnn just a finishing touch," she pleaded, clasping her hands in a prayer-gesture.
"N-mm- fine, but no mascara if you're using that." He sighed in defeat.

Peggy's eyes lit up and she nodded furiously, jumping up and getting to work.
"God Pegs give the guy a break," Angelica laughed, shaking her head softly.
"He has to look perfect!" She exclaimed as she stepped back. Angelica smiled as she stepped up to stand beside Peggy, leaning on his shoulder.
"He already looks very dashing Peggy," she chuckled, causing John to beam happily.

Suddenly Hercules burst into the room, his tie around his head instead of his neck.
"We gotta go c'mon c'mon!" He shouted excitedly, waving them over.

"You ready?" Peggy smirked, linking arms with John.
"Ready as I'll ever be," He sighed with a small grin, causing Peggy to giggle excitedly.

The two of them followed Hercules and Angelica out, Thomas Paine following with his camera and snapping photos excitedly. They finally reached the smooth white doors that lead outside.
"You got this," Hercules grinned, slapping John's back reassuringly. John turned to glance at Hercules and drew in a shaky breath with a nod. Washington entered the room with a proud smile dancing on his lips.

"I can't believe this is happening," John breathed as they linked arms, Washington chuckling softly.
"You've come so far John, we're all very proud of you," he hummed reassuringly. John grinned as the doors were opened from the other side.

"Showtime," John whispered under his breath with a grin.

The first thing he saw was the aisle. Then all his friends who had come to support them. Then Alexander Hamilton, the love of his life.

As soon as they made eye contact Alex's eyes widened and his heart stopped beating. John looked especially breathtakingly handsome in his crisp white suit, his eyes glowing excitedly.

Hercules stepped in front, making his way down the aisle grinning like an idiot as he sprinkled flower petals over the guests, causing everyone to laugh softly.

As Alex watched John walk down the aisle, he felt so totally, utterly helpless. That boy was his. When John finally reached him, Alex grabbed John's hands, holding them with a smile brighter than the sun.

"You-" they both began at the same time before pausing to giggle.
"You first," Alex whispered.
"No you," John beamed.
"Together,"
"You look stunning," they both sighed quietly in sync, giggling to themselves until Seabury, their clergyperson , shot them an expectant smirk.

"You ready?" He whispered with a gentle smile. Alex and John glanced at each other with excited smiles before nodding furiously.

"We are gathered here today to celebrate one of life's greatest moments, and to cherish the words which shall unite Alexander Hamilton and John Laurens in marriage,"