The whole family never left my side even my dad's fiancé, she had been more helpful and supportive than I imagined, she was always with mom helping her any way she could and mom never once pushed her away she had been too busy worrying about me to resent her and now she couldn't bring herself to.

Now she couldn't even blame dad for falling a victim cause deep down Amanda, was just a sweet lady searching for love and maybe she finally deserved to find it - love, even if it meant having to lose my dad in the process. They both needed it, mom and dad - a clean slate, a fresh start, nothing to remind them of the sad hard times.

As the harsh sunlight flashed into my eyes I quickly raised my hands up for cover but I was glad, glad to feel the heat on my skin, glad to see the beautiful sunshine once more, I chose to live, I chose a fresh start and hopefully it would be a good one.

I still had no deep memories of Brandon, but I was ready to finally give him a chance, to let him in.

"How are you doing honey?" Mom walked into the room with a warm smile.

"I:m alright" I attempted to sit up on the bed, but I was still weak and in a fragile state making the attempt futile.

"Don't stress yourself dear" mom rushed to my aid, "you still haven't fully regained your strength"

I nodded, stopping all attempt to move my body.

Mom took a sit beside me, she seemed lost in thoughts, I watched her attentively, scanning every inch of her. Her eyes were heavy and baggy, her skin was dry and her look weary, I never realized how much stress I had been putting all of them through.

I never realized how selfish I was to want to take my life, mom already lost one she wouldn't have been able to bear another one, I would have been the architect of my mom's madness.

"I'm sorry" I said softly to her, that was all I could do, apologize. There was no justification of my actions, so I didn't try to justify it.

"I understand you, I understand what you felt, I've felt it to" her gaze were fixed on the wall, she couldn't bear to look me in the eyes.

"When Toby died I lost it, lost everything, my zeal to live, my strength to go on and then the selfish feeling came to surface, I wanted to do it... To take my life and I almost did" she paused. I waited for her to continue, but she didn't it was like she was waiting for an instruction to carry on, like she was waiting for me to press the continue button.

"So why didn't you?"
The unusual silence still filled the air, finally she turned to my gaze, staring deep into my ocean blue eyes more worried than curious, worried about what consequences my actions may have had.

"A certain voice called out to me, as I fastened the rope ready to end everything, you called out to me, you called out to me saying the word mom" and then I looked into your innocent blue eyes and your warm smile unaware of what mom was about to do and then at that moment I realized I still had a reason to live, I still had one person to live for and that's you darling" she smiled lightly and dragged my cheeks playfully "so don't ever make me panic again"

I smiled brightly, "never again" I promised. Never again...

One week later

I was finally recovering, I was finally getting better, I didn't have my memory back - no, but now I laid my guard down, I let the people who loved me drown me in love, I attended therapy, the sessions weren't always a bed of roses but at least now I was making an effort, making an effort to live again.

I was being discharged today, and I was really glad about that, maybe now I would finally remember something, hoping something in the house would help trigger my memory I got into the car with mom and Ella. Ella and I were finally getting to talk more often, I couldn't remember everything but at least she explained the little to me she could, and I was really grateful to that.

"Paige honey how would you like to visit Brandon?" mom asked, glancing at me then back to the road, she didn't want to lose her concentration while driving and she also wanted to make sure she had my attention.

"That wouldn't be so bad but I thought we were going home."

"Yes we were but your dad and I think it would be best for you to stay in a new and more comfortable environment for now, or at least until we can get a new place"

"A new place"

"We don't think it would be really healthy for you to still live next door to the boy who hurt you."

I silently nodded in agreement, I had no reason to object, they were right, it was best to leave behind all the memories of Casper and start again... a fresh start.

Mom finally pulled in front of Brandon's house, it looked familiar but I couldn't really place my mind on it and I really didn't want to try too much.

Brandon and his mom were standing at the front door waiting to welcome us into their home; his mom was really nice, beautiful and young. Brandon looked a lot like her, they had the same big brown eyes, black lustrous hair, he even had her beautifully outlined cheek bone, looking at them now I couldn't help but wonder how Brandon's dad had looked like, I wished he was here, I wished I had a chance to met him.

We both shared an innocent shy smile as he helped me with my bag, when our hands brushed, it almost felt like an electric spark, he immediately looked up at me - he felt it to.

"Mom, mom, have the guest arrived" a little boy about the age of eight ran down the stairs in the speed of light.
"Who is he?" I whispered into Brandon's ear, I didn't want to sound disrespectful or having the feeling that I forgot yet another thing I should remember.

"He's my little cousin Marcus. He is practically like a brother to me, there is no need to bother remembering him, you've only met once and even with your memory I doubt he would ring a bell" Brandon held Marcus around his shoulder and drew him close to me.
"Marcus, Paige. Paige, Marcus" he introduced us both.

"Awwwnnnn, you're the girl Brandon can't stop blabbing about -" Brandon cut Marcus short, covering the poor boy's mouth with his firm hand, his cheeks flushed red in embarrassment.
I couldn't hold back my smile.

"Com'on Paige I'll show you to your room" Brandon's mom gestured me to climb up the stairs. "See you later Marcus" I smiled with a gentle wave and followed her lead.

I could hear Brandon sigh "you never shut up do you" and then he turned to plunge on Marcus

"Here you go" Mrs. Cage lead me into a small comfy nice room, it had a really homey feel, it wasn't too grand or anything. The room seemed like one which belonged to a girl but I don't think any female apart from Mrs. Cage lived her.

"Am sorry aunt whose room is this?" I asked before she could take her leave.

"Tiffany, Brandon's older sister... she passed away with her father years back" she answered and left in a rush. It was obvious she didn't want to have any further discussion about the matter and I respected that.

I walked around the room, observing and smiling at every memory it contained, a pink framed picture of Tiffany and Brandon stole my heart. They were playing around in the garden, they looked so happy; I don't think I would have any memory where Brandon smiled that hard. And he was much younger than probably ten, a little innocence and oblivion am sure he still had but now when I look into his sad brown eyes I could tell he had lost it all in the pain. We don't lose our innocence with the years, we lose it with damage and I could sense that he and I have had our own fair share of it.

Mom and Ella left few hours ago, now it was just I, Marcus, Brandon and his mom. I guess it couldn't be so bad. Later that night I had this sudden craving to take a shower, I wanted to feel cool and refreshed even if it was for a bit, and so I left the room to go on a bathroom hunt, Mrs. cage and Marcus had left for Marcus's school play, they didn't want to bother me about coming along since I had just arrived and I couldn't be left alone either so Brandon had to stay back too.

So let's see, I had been to the store room, kitchen, dining area, two rooms I believed were Brandon would be, I couldn't help but wonder where he had ran off to without even bothering to let me know.

I was approaching the fifth possible door, I knocked softly in case of anything, waiting for a response, I got none, so I took my lead and opened the door and I swear I regretted every moment after, cause yeah I found the bathroom, yea me, and I was staring at Brandon bucked naked, yup, boo me.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" Brandon screamed, rushing to grab hold of his towel and cover up. I was frozen at the spot, I couldn't even turn my eyes away, and I was patiently waiting for my brain to give me instructions on what to do next but it was still in shock too.

"I just wanted to have a shower"

"Couldn't you have at least knocked" his face was flushed red in embarrassment.
"I did but someone decided not to answer" I answered dryly.

"Well maybe someone didn't knock hard enough"

"Well maybe someone should have told me I needed to knock down the door before he can answer a simple knock"

"- "Brandon opened his mouth to say something in defense but no words came out, he had lost this battle I smiled victoriously.

"Will you just get out of the way and go have your shower" he groaned as I walked in, and he walked out, mistakenly brushing my shoulder, it was just a brush but the floor was slippery and I lost balance. I thought it was the end, expecting to hear the sound of my back landing on the floor but there was nothing, no sound, no pain, just a sudden silence. Finally, I summoned courage to open my eyes to the scene but yet again I regretted another of my action. Yea, I was caught by my knight in shining amour. And his towel was missing again. Yup boo me.

"AHH" I screamed, trying my best to pull away from him but at the end there was no point for a rescue mission cause my loud freaky scream lead both of us landing on the same floor he tried saving me from and that wasn't even the worst part, nope not even a bit -the worst part was where my lips landed on.

What a great first night ...

A/N: thank you all for supporting my book this far, I just wanted this chapter to end in a more less intense and funny manner since the book has been having a really lot of serious chapters lately, I hope you guys enjoy it thank you so much.❤