“How could you let me do It!” I screamed.

“How could you let me hurt you! How could u let me kill you...” I wept.

Toby's warm masculine hands were wrapped around me, they were comforting but not comforting enough.

“I wanted to make you happy” he stroked my hair, pressing me on his chest to suppress the loud sounds of my tears.

“Even if my happiness caused your life?”

“Even if, cause that's how much I love you... I never knew it would happen, never knew just a bite would make me lose my life but now that I do even if I can relive that day I'll still take that bite as long as it makes you happy”.

“You're crazy!” I screamed angrily beating him on his chest. I was furious, I was in flames, I wanted to burst out in anger but I couldn't. No matter how mad I felt, no matter how much regret consumed me I really just felt loved.

“You're naive!” I screamed out again and continued to punch him as hard as I could, never holding back until my blurry eyes cleared, until the effect of the drugs had worn off and then I realized it wasn't Toby, it was never him... I had conjured up everything in my head, I had created a world of my own that I wanted so much to be real but it wasn't, cause as I stared into Brandon's worried green eyes I could tell those free minutes of brotherly love was nothing but an illusion.

I can never truly know how Toby felt, I can never truly know if he spent all this while resenting me or loving me,
Whether he had been watching over me all this while or just turning a blind eye...

If he really was watching over us, mom and dad wouldn't be divorcing, Kelly would have never died. But I had no right — no right to blame him, I was the culprit, I was the criminal, if anyone was to be resented for life it would be no one else but me.

“Paige calm down” I could heard Brandon's voice plead even with all the voices in my head his own was still the clearest, the one I wanted to hear over and over again, the only one I believed could save me from all my demons, I just wanted to open my eyes and hug him tight, to open my eyes and cry it all but when I did I realized I was still punching him hard like I had done for Toby.

“Calm down it's just a nightmare” he said again, this time his eyes were focused on mine, his eyes spoke a thousand words his mouth couldn't say and staring deep into them was all I needed to do, it was all the comfort I need, cause those green loving eyes told me only one major thing out of all the thousands -that he would never leave me...

“I'm scared Brandon” I pulled him in a tight embrace, “I'm frightened” all the tears rolled down. “I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say, I don't know how to act” I wept hard.

He held me tight whispering words into my ears. “Then don't, don't do anything, you don't need to — you don't have to do anything, you don't have to say anything, you don't have to act. Just let it out, let out all the tears that's the only one thing you need to do right now... So let it all out” he ordered and I obeyed without even the slightest objection, I let everything all out... Every single thing.

***
After hours of crying, except for the sore feeling around my eyes I actually felt at peace, like a huge burden had been lifted off my chest, what Brandon had done for me today was something I could never forget, he had been there when I needed him, and he had said the exact words I wanted to hear — let it all out.

He had never left my side and even now he laid peacefully fast asleep beside my lap, he was so adorable, he was human, I couldn't help but feel stupid for all the years I had spent loving the wrong person, I finally realized it, I finally understood it, no matter how much I denied it, no matter how much I wanted to run away from it, I couldn't — from the very beginning till now Brandon had always been the one and I never knew that all it would take was to have him so close to realize it.

I turned around on the bed, adjusting my head to face Brandon's, I wanted to watch him sleep all night, I wanted to love him until I ever forget what love is.

I held his hand tight, I wanted to hold it so tight until I can never let go. I brushed my hand through his thick black hair, I wanted to feel them until they were the only sensation my body could understand and then finally I kissed him, kissed his soft pink lips because at that very moment they were the only thing I wanted to feel, they were the only thing I needed and I didn't care if he felt it or not, I didn't care if he could kiss back or not I just wanted to feel it, it was like the only thing that could fill my hunger, the only thing that could quench my thirst.

“I love you” I whispered as I finally drew free from the kiss.

“You have no idea how long I've been waiting for you to say that” Brandon's husky voice filled the air, my cheeks flushed red in embarrassment as he slowly flickered his eyes open.

“I thought you were asleep” I shuddered.
“If I get to hear you say those words every time I fall asleep then I would sleep forever but no, not today because if I pretend to sleep throughout this moment I would hate myself” he said and rose up on his feet making me more frightened because I didn't know what he was planning, I had no idea what he had in mind and the thought of it scared me.

“Nothing, and no one is ever going to make me miss this opportunity” he locked the door, no one gets in and no one gets out.

“What are you doing?” I panicked and got off the bed, luckily there was no drip attached to my arm, the nurse had already come to give me my night dose of injection.

“You've been driving me crazy, Paige Deloris knight and I can't take it anymore, am I craving for you... Just you, no one else” he took a step closer. “I'm crazy about you, every single part of you, I've been crazy about you since the first day, you had no idea how miserable I was watching you as you loved someone else”

He closed the gap again and my eyes widened, “I'm tired! Tired of trying to lock the beast in, to restrain him. I want you Paige, I need you, every single fucking part of you! And I'm not going to hold back, so please let me in” he said and finally pinned me to the wall. “Let me in Paige, let me show you how much I love you — only you.”

Everything around me felt so intense, I found it had to breath, hard to even swallow my own saliva. His whole presence brought out a side of me that I never knew existed, a side that only hungered for him.

“I'm scared, really scared Brandon, I don't want to make a mistake, I don't want to do something I want to do so badly and regret it later on, I don't want to regret my love for you...”

“You won't... I promise you Paige you won't regret any second of it”.

“I love you Brandon but anytime I want to tell myself it's alright, anytime I want to give you my all I remember that you're the bad guy and all bad guys do was bring a fountain of heartbreak, I don't want to be another Ashley, another Naomi, I don't even want to be another Addison. I want to be the only girl you want. I want to be Paige... Paige knight.”

Brandon drew closer to me, only a breath away from my lips.

“Yes I am the bad guy, I am the flirt, I am the playboy but for the first time in my life I've found the one girl I want to be good for” and immediately he grabbed hold for my lips with his, the kiss was something I had never felt before, it ruptured a thousand of emotions and most of all it proved to me that this was the moment I had been waiting for all my life and most of all it proved that I was with the right person cause everything felt so right.

We had been hungry for this passion for as long as we could remember, we had all these desires locked up for as long as we could but now it was time to unleash everything... And as he hungrily filled my whole neck with a thousand kisses I knew there was no backing out, even the banging of the door wouldn't dare stop us.

“Call my name” he ordered, “I want to hear you toy with it” he whispered in the middle of the kisses, “I want you to make me want you more than

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