My terrible alarm screeches loudly into the silence of my bedroom to wake me up and I groan before turning my head into my pillow, my soft pillow because I'm in my bed, I'm-

Wait-

I gasp and quickly jump to my feet, sleepiness out of my system in less than a second as I process my current reality, you can't be serious!

I find my phone in its usual spot on the bedside table and turn off the stupid annoying noise before looking at the time, seven in the morning, the day after yesterday, no no no, you can't be serious, this has got to be a bad joke.

Did I fall asleep during my precious time with Namjoon and Jin?

That realization makes me want to burst into tears. I didn't even give them my phone number, I didn't get theirs either, how are we supposed to meet up again if we have no way of contacting each other?

With my phone tightly gripped between my fingers, my heart thundering away and making my body shake with every hits to my nerves, I start searching through my device, they must have left a note right?

But how could they! I made sure only Hoseok and Yoongi would be able to unlock it, even if they wanted to, they wouldn't have been able to do anything! Shit!

I hit my pillow with a groan, phone thrown on the bed in anger. Stupid Y/N, stupid stupid! Why did you have to fall asleep when you just found them? You're ridiculous, what must they be thinking of me now?

Frustration against myself grows overwhelmingly large when I decide to wrap myself with my blanket before sitting on the floor at the foot of my bed. I feel so awful. After so long, we finally met and I had to ruin everything, again. I had to ruin it a second time.

It doesn't take a minute longer before my loud cries start resounding in the room, and it takes even less time for someone to rush to my room, door opening quickly to reveal Yoongi with his eyes wide on my form.

He hurries to my side before kneeling down to my level, and his hands cup my face so he can have a good look at me. "Are you hurt anywhere? Why are you crying, bunny?" he pleads, not finding any wounds on my body making a panic start to crawl up his guts, he fears his nightmare coming true.

He sure doesn't expect it - although he should have - when I blurt out my worries, snot running down my nose, tears falling down like a waterfall and eyes bloodshot with the emotions that rose too fast upon waking up.

"I fell asleep on them and now I don't have any means to reach them again Yoon" I whimper with a trembling voice, another sob on the verge of slipping out. It pulls out with a long whimper and I hide my face in his neck, needing any comfort I can get. I messed everything up.

Yoongi sighs in relief and drops his forehead to my shoulder, a reaction I don't understand because there's nothing good about what I just said. It's bad, it's so bad, so why does he sound relieved?

"Oh you scared me, bunny... tell me Y/N, my bunny, how do you think you ended up in your bed?"

I wipe my noise as I glance at him through the tears. "W-what do you mean?" I ask with a hiccup, how did I end up in bed? "Did... did they bring me here?" Did they? Does that mean they know where I live then?

Yoongi sighs deeply before smiling with a nod, hands back to my cheeks to wipe them, after which he reaches out to the tissue box nearby before grabbing one to wipe my nose and make me blow into it with a gentle coo.

"Apparently, when Hobah called you yesterday to have some news about how it was going, it was Jin who replied. You were already sleeping by then so he gave them our address and his phone number in case anything happened. I was on the way to pick him up at the restaurant when it happened, so we met at the apartment complex. We let them in and they brought you to your bed. They found it very hard to leave you".

I pout at his explanation as I try to recover from my short panic, so they know how to find me, it's not all lost?

"They saw my blanket?" I ask softly with another hiccup, and again, his eyes crease before he nods, another coo leaving him when my pout deepens as a blush crawls onto my cheeks. They found out just how desperate I was to see them again then... it's so embarrassing.

"We gave them your phone number, and they know that if they call you between seven and eight in the morning, they can talk to you without reaching your voicemail. I'm sure they're going to call you very soon-"

Just as he speaks, we both hear my phone start to vibrate from my bed, signaling a call. He stands up to have a look while my heart stutters heavily in my chest, they have my number? They can call me? Is it them?

"It's an unregistered number, maybe it's one of them, bunny".

I squeezed the blanket so tightly around me that it's hard to free up an arm, but when I do, I'm grabbing the device from him and accepting the call right away under his chuckle. He winks before leaving the room while I remain where I am on the floor. Is it Jin? Namjoon?

'Congratulations, you have won a trip-'

I end the call and slam it besides me in silence.

And then I wither with renewed tears. Is it asking for too much to want to hear their voice again?

My phone vibrates again, this time to a private number, and although I do fear being disappointed again, I fear missing their call much more. With a small puff of air leaving my lips to motivate myself, I accept the call once more, my breath held in when I hear nothing.

Please don't be another spam, please don't be-

'Hello? Kitten, are you there?'

I close my eyes at the sound of Namjoon's voice, fingers grabbing at my heart to try and calm its frenzy, thank goodness. It wasn't another spam call after all.

"I'm here" I manage to squeeze out through the lump in my throat. I wipe my face but the tears are a constant stream, why is it so hard to stop them? Is it the relief, or the fear that had washed over me?

'My love, are you crying?' this time it's Jin who speaks up, and when I try to deny the question with a humming sound, it instead lets them know that yes, I am in fact crying.

'Oh baby, what's wrong? You're not in pain, are you? Did you have a nightmare? What's going on? Tell us baby, we're here for you' his soothing voice continues, it's so soft and the concern and memories behind it are so vivid and strong that it takes all of my strength to not start bawling my eyes out.

I truly am weak this morning.

I grab another tissue from the box nearby before blowing my nose loudly. I do believe I hear Namjoon chuckle at the sound, he always did when I'd sound like a trumpet but I focus more on making sure I don't end up blowing through the tissue, I don't want snot all over my hands.

I've been awake for what, five minutes? What a morning.

"I'm not in pain, I just... I woke up in bed with the memory of falling asleep on you when we finally met after years apart and I... I was scared that we... that we wouldn't..." I can't formulate full sentences, just imagining it again has my soul shaking in dislike.

I can't bear living my life without them now that I've got a taste of their touch, now that I could feel their warmth. It would kill me before any cancer can.

'Oh kitten, baby, we never would have left without making sure that we know how to find you again. We would have stalked the restaurant for entire days if we had to' Namjoon teases lightly, and I can't resist a small laugh at his reassuring words.

I'm convinced they would have done everything in their power to reunite with me a second time, although there would also be the more convenient option of entering inside and asking someone, is he really a detective now?

'Still, we're sorry that you woke up so afraid, love, we should've left a note behind for you. We had planned to call you as soon as you'd have had some time to wake up. We could barely sleep last night, it was so hard to not call you throughout the night'.

"It's fine... and you know I wouldn't have woken up, my phone's always on silent except for the alarms" I let out sheepishly.

Jin chuckles and hums, of course he knows that. How many calls have I missed in the past because I'd never hear my ringtone, the vibrations in the bottom of my bag completely ignored and enough to cause their heart to beat out of their chest in worry.

'Did you sleep well, love? How do you feel this morning? It was high in emotions last night' he asks next, and I readjust my blanket around me to be more comfortable, a hum past my lips as I reassess my state now that I'm feeling better.

"I'm still very tired, but I'm sure it's nothing a coffee can't fix".

'Make sure you don't drink only coffee, alright kitten? Have a good breakfast too, it's important to start the day properly, and don't drink on an empty stomach' Namjoon warns seriously, I can almost see his frown of concern in my mind.

It makes me melt on the spot, my heart warm and tingly, I missed this so badly too.

"Or else?" I can't resist teasing the man with a wide grin on my face. To that, Namjoon's deep inhale and Jin's small 'Oh no' give me a small idea of what he must look like right now. I always did have fun pushing his buttons.

'What do you want to hear, kitten? A reserved version of what I could do or the raw, most truthful version?'

Can I handle the truthful version so soon? We might have shared a kiss filled with love yesterday, the most heartfelt way we could tell each other how glad we were to be together anew, but am I ready to hear the words behind the heat of his voice?

'Maybe go with the reserved version, Joonie, it's still early and she's tired. You're going to give her a heart attack otherwise' Jin speaks up for me and... yeah, it's probably for the best.

'Then... considering that this is only if you were to drink coffee on an empty stomach... I would... uh... you know I actually didn't think that far. I guess I'd have to arrest you and take you out for a meal? A... private interrogation? Just the two of us'.

'Oh, that sounds scary. She's definitely going to eat her breakfast along with her coffee now'.

Will I? I'm not so sure...

"What if... what if I do follow your instructions?" I mumble quietly. Namjoon hums in response, and I get chills at the tone, the fact that he makes me react like this through a phone call truly amazing, there's only him and Jin to make me shiver that way.

'I always reward a good kitten who listens well. If you follow my instructions well, baby, not only will I take you out for a meal, but I'll also steal a kiss or two on the way, because I haven't been able to stop thinking about your lips since last night. I keep wanting to taste them more, I miss your blushing cheeks when you let yourself melt in my arms'.

O-oh.

"T-that's all? I could get that anytime I want, that's not a special reward" I let out shyly, curious about how far he would go if I pushed him a little more, but Jin tuts with a pleased chuckle.

'I think our baby feels a little bratty this morning, doesn't she? You want to test Joonie, my love? But you should be careful, weren't you the one who asked us to take it slow yesterday? We can follow your pace, just make sure to not go faster than you can handle, we have all the time in the world, it's not a race'.

I pout a little at Jin's reminder. I know that he's right, and it's good that he reminds me actually because saying it and going through with it are two different things. It's just so easy to pretend like we were never apart when we talk like this.

'We've changed during these five years, kitten. We have this urge to love you and give you all that we have become, and it feels like if we pull you in our ocean too soon, you're going to drown, baby. But don't worry, I'll make sure to blow your mind with the few kisses I will allow you, I never mentioned how long they would last, did I?'

I feel myself blush at his words, a shake of the head that I realize he can't see, yet they both know me so well, they can almost see me if they close their eyes.

'Then be a good girl and get ready for work. Jin and I will text you so you can save our numbers, and then you can tell me when you have to go to work, okay? We'll pick you up and drive you around whenever we can from now on' Namjoon speaks with a satisfaction that I feel in my heart.

I let myself flop down to my side with a happy giggle, feet kicking the air just as Hoseok walks by my door curiously. "You really don't have to go out of your way for me, but thank you. I'll text you my schedule once you've messaged me. I guess... I'll see you soon?"

'We'll see you soon baby. Don't forget, eat a good breakfast with your coffee. I don't want to hear that you disobeyed me after our conversation'.

I grin at his commanding voice, now rolling onto my stomach and my chin on my free hand. "It's not like you could find out if I were to disobey. I could play pretend and get the reward anyway" I muse before freezing when my eyes lock with Hoseok's amused ones.

'Why don't you try for yourself then, baby, whether I'll find out or not?'

"N-no, it's fine! I-I'll end the call, see you later!" I blurt out before quickly pressing the red button with panicked fingers, and Hoseok's smile keeps widening as he glances at my form on the floor. If he was expecting to hear what he did this morning, he would have lied.

"My, my, bun. I see things are going well so early in the morning, you guys are already talking about rewards?" he coos as he steps closer to join me, hands gentle as they lift me up to my feet before patting the blanket loosely hanging around my shoulders.

I am a burning inferno as I avoid his eyes. That's a dynamic I never really mentioned to him, but then again, it's not like they're ignorant of the way rewarding me pushes me to listen to Yoongi's caring rules.

It's just that Namjoon and Jin don't give the same things that Yoongi or Hoseok would give me, not all the time. He pats my head and chuckles.

"I'm glad to see that things are going well, bun, that's all that matters to me, to see you smiling. I'm helping Yoongi with the breakfast this morning so you can go and take a shower, it should be ready by the time you're done. Don't forget to text them the time, and maybe go a little sooner than usual so you can have more time with them" he says with a soft pinch to my cheek, after which he leaves my room to join back with his boyfriend with a happy song on his lips.

I stand still for a moment, the embarrassment that has flooded me slowly dimming as I smile to myself, especially when one look at my phone reveals two new messages, respectively Jin and Namjoon.

I save them under their names and even add a few hearts. It feels so good to have them back within reach, it makes me emotional. That's the last thing I need right now, though. That shower won't take itself.

As Namjoon wanted, I tell him to pick me up in around thirty minutes, and I do make sure to mention that the coffee shop is at only five minutes from my place. It's not very subtle, but then again, that's not what we're going for. We have so much lost time to catch up to.

The weekend is coming up soon so maybe we can do something together then? The three of us... I would love that, I'm sure they would too.

I want to hear all about what they've been up to, I want to hear about their job, about their new hobbies, where they live, if they're happy, if they enjoy life now. There's too much I want to ask them and it sucks that job gets in the way of that.

I wish I didn't work so much, but the debts require it of us.

I grab a towel and an outfit for the day before hurrying to the bathroom, many hearts received from Namjoon now forever in my phone. Less expected but just as loved as the first, Jin rather sends me a selfie with finger hearts and pouty kissing lips, always true to himself.

I close the bathroom's door behind me and get undressed before testing the water's temperature in the shower, only waiting until it's warm to step inside to wash myself quickly. My mind wanders back to them, and I close my eyes as I wash my hair.

We're soulmates, that's what Namjoon used to call us in the past. He believed so strongly that we were meant to be together and that nothing could ever change that. Now that we're reunited, I want to believe that our love is going to be even stronger than before.

The love we have for one another is beyond what is considered normal, after all.

They say they've changed, that they would drown me if they pulled me into their world too fast, but I don't believe that one second. I survive on their love. What they fear would push me under the water would simply reveal a very beautiful world underneath, and I'm ready to explore it once more.

I wonder how much it changed. It was once my cherished home, once I long to get back.

I get dressed once out of the shower and dried off, then blow-dry my hair just enough so that it's not soaking wet before leaving the bathroom to eat breakfast and get that coffee that I need so badly.

I find Hoseok and Yoongi plating the food on the table just as I come around the corner to start the coffee machine. It's not long though before I hear a sigh followed by a hand combing through my hair, and Hoseok eyes me with a light chiding frown before leaving the room.

I purse my lips and grab a cup that I settle on the machine just as my best friend comes back with the hair dryer and I grumble at the sight of it, I hate drying my hair but there's never any running away from it with them, is there?

"I swear, that extension in the dining room serves for drying your hair more than it serves for the electric grill. Go take a seat and start eating, bun, Yoon will bring your coffee when it's ready, we need to get this hair fully dry, we don't want you sick".

When I don't move right away, Yoongi nudges my side softly while handing me a plate and I let out a huff before complying, it's not like they'll let me avoid this anyway, they're so stubborn when they have something in mind.

"Thanks for the food" I say unenthusiastically, they pay me no mind as the loud humming of the hair dryer fills the air, Hoseok's fingers precise as they brush my locks to make sure all the wetness is gone. My coffee eventually finds its way in front of me, and I drink it slowly as I eat.

The food is good as usual, eggs with bread and fruits, it's enough to start the day with a good dose of energy, especially when teamed with the coffee. I try to take my time as much as I can, but when I take a look at the time on my phone to see that they should be almost here, my eyes widen in shock. I'm not ready yet!

I pat Hoseok's arm before trying to stand up from my seat so I can brush my teeth, but he grunts and forces me down on my chair with a stern hand, damn it, Hobi!

It's Yoongi who, as always, comes to my rescue with my toothbrush ready to be used, toothpaste over it and already wet. I stare at him like he just saved my life as I start brushing my teeth quickly and he huffs fondly, a light pinch to my nose before he moves back to continue on with his morning routine, he's going to leave with Hoseok shortly after me so he needs to be ready too.

It's exactly two minutes later when Hoseok finally stops over-drying my hair that someone knocks at the door, and while my first reflex is to think of our sweet neighbours, it dawns on me that maybe it's actually Jin and Namjoon.

It's with that in mind, mouth filled with foamy toothpaste that I rush to the entrance to open the door, and here they are, living gods in all of their splendor, their large and tall statures waiting for me on the other side of the door.

They look entranced and endeared at the sight that greets them while my heart does back-flips and all sorts of parkour tricks.

I motion for them to walk inside before running off to the bathroom, nearly bumping into Hoseok on the way as he goes to put the stupid and loud machine away. He squeaks when I run past him without a word to spit into the sink like my future is on the line.

I rinse my mouth, then run out of the bathroom and past the entrance and to the living room where I left my bag. Do I have everything in it? My wallet is there, my keys too, what else... oh socks, I'm still barefoot!

I run out of the living room and past the entrance once more and this time to my bedroom, bag clutched to my chest as I search through my drawer to try and find two similar socks, but I have to come to the conclusion after going through all of them that I have none of the same size and colour. I click my tongue before grabbing a blue and a purple, those will do.

What else now? My phone, I left it on the dining table, right!

Namjoon and Jin observe in silence as I run all over the place to get ready, that's something that hasn't changed and they're so thankful because gosh, they love it. They find it so cute when I run around like this, they really missed that morning routine of mine.

Once finally ready to go, I bashfully stand in front of the two men with a silly grin, and it takes them everything to not pull me into a kiss right this instant. Jin instead moves over to smooth down my hair, it got all messy from my running around.

"My pretty baby, you're three minutes late" he muses softly before sliding some hair behind my ear. I purse my lips at his comment before pointing a finger at Hoseok who's now eating his breakfast with Yoongi at the nearby table, their eyes on us as they remain quiet.

"It's Hobi's fault, he forced me to sit still while he dried my hair. He wouldn't stop even when I saw that there was almost no time left. If you want to scold someone, he's the only one who needs to hear it".

Said man chokes on his food and points an incredulous finger at himself. "Why are you saying that like it's a bad thing? Wet hair outside when there's a cold wind will have you sick and what then? You want to spend the next days in bed? When they're finally standing right there behind you?"

I blush and meet eyes with Yoongi's amused ones as he keeps eating, then turn back to find Namjoon and Jin quirking an eyebrow at me, and that's enough! No one's taking my side!

"Well then... thank you! Love you, bye!" and I'm storming out of the building, my ex boyfriends on my tail after they say goodbye to my platonic soulmates, many words left unsaid but spoken through thankful smiles.

Namjoon's tempted to push me against the car to rectify my behavior with a kiss that would leave me senseless when he sees me stomping my feet all the way to their vehicle, but again, he resists with a sigh and instead opens the passenger seat's door to make me sit there, his eyes enough to make me get in with my mouth shut and chills coursing all over my skin.

It would be so easy for them to act the exact same way they used to, kisses whenever they get the urge and fingers easing between fingers to make sure no one gets lost or lonely.

Seeing my brattiness peek out doesn't help, something so familiar to them that they adore. In fact, it only makes things that much easier. They push back their instincts for the simple reason that they don't know how I see all of this, how I feel about it.

One kiss doesn't give them the right to treat me like I'm theirs, not yet.

It's half awkward, half familiar, the way Jin sits in the driver's seat, Namjoon behind him so he can see me better, though it's also to avoid my neck from straining too much when I turn to stare at him. They both smile when I take a moment to let that sink in, that I didn't dream any of it.

I like that they don't make a big deal out of it, as if I simply went out on a vacation and now that we're reunited, life can continue where it had paused. I know it's much more complex than that, but at least, right now, I don't feel like I have to explain everything to them.

"Alright, where to baby?" You said it's nearby, right?" the handsome man asks as he glances at me. I nod my head before pointing to the left. "If you go that way and then turn left on the main boulevard, the coffee shop will be on our side of the road".

He hums and turns on the engine with a smile. "We'll keep you company there for a little bit before leaving, okay? Maybe we can get something you recommend to eat with a coffee to go before we're off to work".

"That would be nice" I murmur, soul all tingly and happy.

Any time they give me, I will take, even if it's only a couple of minutes. Yet, I also can't help but wish for more. Is it selfish of me? We might have to spend full days together in a row without any distractions for me to feel better about parting ways.

That reminds me of when we moved in together, when we made that decision after a few months of dating because we couldn't handle having to meet up anymore. We wanted to go to sleep and wake up together every single day, all the time. That's a feeling that hasn't changed.

I didn't leave them because I didn't love them anymore, the same way that they wouldn't have kept searching for me for all these years if they didn't still love me. We survived on the memory of each other more than anything else, and it's what led us to now.

We buckle up before Jin starts driving out of the parking lot, and Namjoon leans forward between our seats, his hands landing on our shoulders with a soft squeeze that gives birth to butterflies in my stomach.

"Kitten, I was thinking about taking you out for dinner before your restaurant job, what do you think? Jin won't be able to come with us, but he can take you out for another date when he has the time".

My eyes light up and I stare at him with an excited nod of the head while Jin grins at my reaction, I didn't know he meant today! My reward for listening to him could have happened anytime between today and weeks later.

"I end my first shift at around two in the afternoon, and the second one starts at six, so we can meet up in between. I just have to get to the restaurant a little early. I mean, considering that I still have my job there. Maybe they won't want me again after what happened yesterday".

I whither a little at the thought, but Namjoon rubs my shoulder to reassure me.

"Like I said yesterday, I'll call the owner and explain the situation, although I'm sure others will root for you. I think it's time they fire the guy, everyone seemed tired of his behavior and honestly, after spending a few minutes in his company, I totally understand why".

I chuckle a little. "Yeah... he's bad. He's hated me ever since the first sick leave I took, it's like I'm his worst enemy. He makes it a point to scream at me at least once a day without fail".

Namjoon sits back in his seat, but his face says it all, someone's going to lose their job and it won't be me.

"How long have you been working there, love?" Jin asks with a concerned voice, his eyes set on the road.

"I think it's been two years now? I tried a few different jobs in the restaurant, but I'm too slow, or not precise enough to his liking, so he put me on dishwasher duty one day and it's been my job ever since. Still, it's only four hours, so it's nothing too bad. Other restaurants wanted Hoseok and I to work at least six hours a day, and they wanted our weekends. The work conditions were worse as well. We honestly got the best deal with our current one so we're not complaining" I explain, they both nod at the information with clenched teeth.

"Would you want another job, if you could? One good job you could do regular hours for? Hoseok and Yoongi told us how you work ten hours a day, baby, two different jobs, that's not... that's not very good" Jin tries softly, and I get where he comes from, I don't like it either but... is there even a job out there that would allow me mid-shift breaks when I need it?

Because whether I like it or not, I've reached a point where I just need to have that nap, else I find it very hard to focus. No one in their right mind would accept that, not when the world goes in fast-forward at all time.

"I wouldn't even know what to look for, Jinnie, and you know I've always been more tired than most people. It kind of suits me right now to have a four hours break in between, I can rest before working my other shift. No one else would allow that".

"We'll talk more about this matter another time, baby, but I think I might have something for you in mind".

"Oh, babe, do you mean-"

"Shush! Yes, so don't tell her before I do it myself, Joonie!"

"She would love that".

"I know. It's perfect for her".

Secrets, they're talking about secrets in my face!

Jin turns into the nearby parking lot after we've made it to the coffee shop, then stares at me with laughter when he sees the pure indignation on my face. Namjoon follows soon after, and I can't believe they find that funny!

"Come on, hop out baby, staying here won't reveal anything new and you've got a job to do".

Unforgivable!