2017 is absolutely a not-so-good year for everyone especially to us, KPOP fans. With the disbandments of some girl groups, to some members of certain girl groups not renewing their contracts anymore to the recent happenings in our pretty bubble.

Jonghyun. . . I may not know him as much as I know Sehun (my ultimate bias) but I don't have to be a part of their fandom just to know how much of a good person Jonghyun is. Up until this point of my life, it still makes my heart ache knowing that Jonghyun is now gone. It is sad that we lost a lovable son, brother, and a very talented idol in his existence. He was a young man but we don't know how hard it is for him. Now that he's with the Creator already, we just hope that you're happy now. Watching from afar your loved ones, co-members, and every tiny part of Shawol fandom. Always remember that you did well and you will never be forgotten. May you now rest in peace, Kim Jonghyun. 사랑해여!

Some may had a very wonderful year ahead but I know, most of us had a hard time this year but you know what? I don't regret facing 2017. Because it made me realize that with every storms coming into my life, I strongly proven that I can surpass each of it. And 2017 is another year where I met new people that I know will always have a place into my heart. I may be stressed most of the times but I also know that there's Someone out there that will guide me to everything whenever I seemed lost.

Too much of an author's note. I just hope that we will happily leave 2017 behind and welcome 2018 with a smile together with our loved ones. Always remember to smile and keep going!

Hugs and Kisses,
Cherry.

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"Yeol, can you please hand me the tissue in my bag?" Baekhyun asked, eyes still glued on the computer in front of him and I did what I was told, he mumbled a soft Thank you to me and I just nodded in return.

It has been hours since we arrived in my house. As his Vice President, Baekhyun asked mom a while ago if it will be fine for her if he'll come for a sleep over. Mom was never hesitant. In fact, she loved it. She kept on telling Baekhyun that she'll prepare a feast for the three of us and he can stay as long as he can. Mom even told her to stay inside my room with me, she didn't bothered offering the guest rooms we had in here. Sighs. Sometimes, mom is so obvious on how she liked Baekhyun for me.

I didn't know what's the need of sleeping over in my house tonight but I just let Baekhyun go. He seemed to be happy after hearing that mom will prepare a dinner feast for him. Because just like what he's said a while ago, it's been long since he last ate foods that were cooked by a mother. I just learned that auntie (his mom) was rarely at home these days because she got promoted and promotion comes with higher responsibilities. Auntie is always out of the country so Baekhyun was most of the times alone in their house.

"Baek?" I called but I got nothing as an answer. "Uhm do you want to eat something? Like cookies? Or juice?" I fidgeted. I don't really know what he's been doing, ever since he came inside my room, he never talked to me unless it's needed.

"Wouldn't it be a bother in your side?" He continued on reading the article flashed on the screen of my computer. Whenever I'll ask him for some works to do, he'll just shrug me off saying that he'll tell me once he needed some helping hands so I resorted on sitting at the edge of my bed while watching him.

"Not at all," I tried to stop myself from smiling. Baekhyun is just so cute without him, trying hard to look one. Just his mere existence is cute enough. It's making me fall for him deeper. "So, what do you want?"

Alas! Baekhyun turned his back from me and removed his reading glasses. After that, he stretched his arms in the air, earning some cracking noise from it. He looked worn out of reading but still cute in my eyes. "I'll help in preparing. I don't want to be much of a burden."

Waving my hands, I just found myself standing and walking closer to him. "No, you don't have to. I'm sure mom already prepared something beforehand. Remember? She's so excited to see you after hearing that you'll come over? Don't worry. Just finish whatever you are doing."

Baekhyun squinted his eyes and pouted all of a sudden. Ugh. Can he stop being cute even just for a moment?! "I'm tired. Besides, my eyes hurt already. Let's take a break," I was taken aback when he took my hand and intertwined it with his. "Let's go out for a fresh walk?"

"But I thought you're doing something important?" I'm not against the idea of it but I want Baekhyun to finish his work-to-do for him to be able to sleep early tonight.

"I'm done already. Actually, I'm doing nothing. I'm just scanning through the underground website of Yonsei. To be honestly speaking. . ." His left hand went through his nape and started massaging it. "It's just my excuse that we'll do something important with regards to the candidacy. I just want to sleep with someone tonight. I feel so lonely in our house. I don't think I canㅡ"

My ring finger automatically found its way towards his lips and shut it out. "ㅡyou don't have to furthermore explain it. It's okay, Baek. You're always welcome in this house. If ever you're feeling alone, we're here. Don't hesitate on coming over, okay?"

Baekhyun nodded and his left hand took my ring finger away from his lips. I was shocked when his arms snaked towards my waist and felt his head leaning on my chest. "I miss Chen so much. And having you beside me somehow lifted up something heavy on my chest. Thank you so much Chanyeol for forgiving me despite the not-so-good first meeting we had. I hope we'll become closer as time passes by. I want to be friends with you."

But I don't want to stay as your friend forever, Baekhyun.

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Baekhyun settled in the park near our house. Good thing when we were coming out of my room, Toben suddenly popped out so he has reasons to go out of the house first, leaving me, the one, who will tell mom that we will take a walk outside first. Mom was glad that I'm taking Baekhyun outside because she's not yet halfway done to whatever she's preparing. I told her if she needed some help, she can call me but I just got shrugged off. She said I should prioritize his future son-in-law before everything. Baekhyun will surely feel awkward if ever he will hear the endearment mom has got for him.

"Excuse me," I stopped from zoning out when a grandma approached me, she was on a wheelchair, probably taking herself to breathe some fresh air too. "Is he your boyfriend?" She asked, pointing at Baekhyun whose back is now laying on the green grassy field while Toben was on top of him, continuously licking Baekhyun's face.

"Ah, no," I smiled at the thought of Baekhyun being my boyfriend. He'll be surely pain in the ass. "He's just a friend, grandma."

Grandma seemed not to buy my answers when she started poking me. "Aigoo, kids nowadays. Why not? Court him! You two have a chemistry! Do you know that ever since you stepped out of your house, my eyes were instantly glued on the two of you?"

Scratching the back of my nape, I smiled sheepishly. "Why is that?"

"Because you two look so cute. I mean, look at your height differences! And young man, if you can fool that guy over there, sorry to say, you can't fool me. I can see it right into your eyes, the way you look at him, you like him, right?"

"Grandma, you're making me feel awkward," I said, the dumb grin never left my face. I don't want to admit that whatever she's saying is true. I just don't want to tarnish our growing friendship first. This can wait. I can see on Baekhyun that his top priority this time is the candidacy, not being involved into a romantic relationship. As long as I know he's not dating someone else, then I'm good.

Grandma wickedly smiled at me before turning her eyes on the person we were talking about earlier. We didn't realized Baekhyun was already standing near us because we're both caught up in the topic we're having. "Hello there!"

Baekhyun bowed and showed grandma his ever iridescent smile. "Hi there, grandma! Is my friend being good at you?"

Grandma chuckled and pointed at the empty space next to me which Baekhyun gladly occupied without hesitation, placing Toben in our laps. "Yes he is but he suck at lying."

Baekhyun's eyebrows furrowed at grandma's remarks and so do I. Will she talk to Baekhyun the topic we've talked earlier?! "Why is that? Chanyeol doesn't lie. Right, Yeol?" He faced me and the ever innocent look in his eyes got me. God. Baekhyun can make me fall in love for him harder just by doing nothing.

"Uh. . ." I stuttered. I tried avoiding grandma's grin because she's making me feel embarrassed for hiding my true feelings for Baekhyun. "Yeah. Of course. I don't lie, especially to you."

Baekhyun warmly smiled and then afterwards, his back is now facing me. He held grandma's left hand and gripped it firmly but still gentle. "Where do you live, grandma? We'll walk you there. I can clearly remember the news saying this early morning that the possibility of rainfall is high. Shall we?"

Grandma winked at me because I think she saw it in my eyes how it sparkled once again. Who wouldn't, right? The goodness in Baekhyun's heart is what makes him beautiful and wonderful. "I can manage it by myself. My husband was just around prolly taking his time on searching for some edible foods to eat. Go ahead you two. It seems like you have more to talk about. Especially when it comes to Chanyeol's feelings. Right, Chanyeollie?"

And that made my elf ears turn into red. I tried looking at grandma, noticing her that Baekhyun don't know a thing about my growing feelings but I just got a wink in return. So I gave my last bow and pulled Baekhyun together with Toben away from that place. Don't get me wrong, I actually liked grandma's existence, I grew up with my grandma during those days my parents were both busy at their works. Sadly, she died when I was 21 years old. I missed her so badly that's why I'm really fond of the elderlies.

"What was grandma talking about, Yeol?" Baekhyun opened a topic. It was surprisingly amazing that he's not removing our intertwined hands, instead, it was him who interlocked it even more. "About your feelings. Do you feel bad right now because of something that upsets you?"

Shaking my head as an answer, I've managed to take Toben away from his free hand, making my little boy comfortably lay on my arms instead. Toben's weight is no joke so I believe it is just right to take him away from Baekhyun. "It's nothing. Drop it off."

"But she said we're supposed to talk about your feelings. I'm worried that it might be something so serious andㅡ"

"ㅡI don't have a problem, okay?" Baekhyun seemed hypnotized with it so he just nodded as a reply. "I promise you'll the first to know when I'm feeling upset or whatsoever. Happy now?" Baekhyun gave me a thumbs up before we resumed on walking our way back into our house.

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"Here, Baekhyun. Eat this. I've read it on one article online that it's good for the health. You better try this. I always tell Chanyeol to eat these kinds of foods but he doesn't want foods without pleasantly good taste according to his taste buds," Mom then poured a freshly made vegetable salad on Baekhyun's plate while I finish my own food.

"Is that so?" I have watched how Baekhyun take the first vegetable with hesitation. I knew it from the start that he's allergic to all green leafy vegetables. One thing we have in common.

"Baekhyun," I called him low enough for mom not to hear it, when he looked at me, I shot him a worried look. "Your allergies!"

"It's okay," he whispered, smiling at mom when she noticed that we're both whispering to each other. Mom excused herself to answer a phone call and the moment she was out of our sight, I rushed myself near our First Aid Kit and took the pills I'm taking when my allergies occurs. Baekhyun then started scratching his cheeks and after a few moments, red spots started showing on his skin. "Gosh. I hate being allergenic to leafy vegetables."

"Here, take this," when I handed him the pill, he took it and was about to scratch his itchy skin once again but I've interrupted him. "Scratching won't do you any good, Baek."

"But it's so itchy," he tried scratching it once again with his free hands when I hold it altogether. "Chanyeol. . ."

"You'll damage your skin. The pill with take effect in a few minutes. Endure the itchiness first," I'm glad Baekhyun didn't protested anymore, instead, his eyes were completely bore on mine and then again, I can hear the loud thumps of my heart. "Do I have something on my face?"

Baekhyun turned away and I saw how his cheeks burn in red. His fluffy mochi cheeks. "Nothing. I just realized you're quite handsome."

"Quite?" Baekhyun met my eyes once again and now, he's wearing his smug grin. "Just quite? Do you hear what you're saying?"

He proudly nodded as an answer. "Yes you are. For someone like me who has a very high standards when it comes to men I'll date, you're quite handsome. It is a compliment okay?"

Scoffing in return, I freed his hands making sure that it won't hit anywhere. I stood up and started walking back and forth. I can't believe I'm just quite handsome on his eyes. Really, huh?! "Tell me I didn't hear it right. I'm what?"

"Quite. Handsome."

"Gosh," I started fanning myself with my own hand. "For someone who has been the students' pick albeit the fact that I'm just a transferee student of Yonsei, mind you, I'm crowned as SOPA's Most Handsome Student for four consecutive years yet you still see me as a quite handsome person?"

"Why is it a big deal to you? I'm just telling my perspectives. I'm your friend and I'm supposed to tell you the truth, right?"

"Stop, okay?" I sat back and started eating once again. Good thing Mom entered the dining area so that Baekhyun went quiet next to me, leaving Mom blabbing about things we really don't seem to care.

Quite handsome, huh?