The first thing I saw when I woke up this morning was my mum's frame standing next to my desk. The sight was very weird to me since my mum almost never came up to my room.

"Umm...good morning?"

"What's this?" She asked showing me the permission slip for the Japan trip that my school was organizing.

"Oh it's this educational trip the government is holding for senior students"

"Hand me a pen, I'll sign it" she said already looking around for one. What happened to the woman who doesn't let me stay out of the house past 8 pm?

"Mum I don't wanna go actually"

She stared blankly at me. My mum was a total free deals freak so this must make her frustrated and she was also used to me being the one who begs her to let me go/do things .

"Why?"

"I just wanna stay home and study and try to get ahead on the syllabus" I'd never do that but I had to be convincing.

"Yura, honey, you need a break from here and this is obviously the only thing I can afford at the moment" She said smiling her oh so fake 'sweet' smile.

"Besides this is your only opportunity at getting some space" she continued with yet another smile.

I get it now. She was the one who needed space.

She looked so pained and who'd blame her? As much as I disliked talking to her, I loved her. I understand why she'd want to be alone but I'm her daughter, couldn't she at least spare me?

"Yeah sure" I said swallowing back my tears. Just the thought of going there made me want to burry myself alive.

"Great" My mum said giving me a dry hug. "I'll go sign the papers now" she said almost skipping out of my bedroom.

I hate my life.

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I was now at the smoothie shop, lonelier than ever since jin wasn't here. My break started five minutes ago and the shop was honestly getting suffocating so I decided to go out for some fresh air.

I took my apron off and went out of the store so I can go sit at my usual place, which was the end of the side walk. I was honestly doing nothing, I was just sitting there and looking at the cloudy, gloomy sky. It was all quite, of course that was until I saw a familiar someone running towards me.

"I heard the news, are you okay?" He said in between breathes.

Before I could say anything, he engulfed me in a hug. At first it was nice to have someone genuinely hug me but a few minutes later I could feel his muscles crushing my bones.

"Uhh..Jungkook, I'm fine"

He sighed and pulled away, he still had his arms around me but with more distance this timeーit was more intimate than a hug since he was looking at me with so much sadness and pity and I honestly hated it. It made me feel so fucking pathetic.

"You're just the strongest person ever, aren't you?" He teased, ruffling my hair.

I laughed at the way he said that, he laughed a long with me. I would say it was a nice moment but I was still feeling a bit sad.

"Wait, today I saw this hilarious meme on instagram. I have to show it to you" he said with excitement evident in his voice. He was such a kid sometimes.

He reached down to his pockets and grabbed his 'iphone 7 plus' it must be nice having rich parents. My phone was an old iphone 5s, it was small and nice but it freezes way too much sometimes.

"Oops my phone died, mind if I borrow yours?"

"Yeah sure" I said handing him my phone not thinking too much of it.

After a short while he started to look a bit confusedーhe started to knit his eyebrows together as he moved the phone closer to his face.

"Who is can't be taemed?"

Oh shit.

"Jungkook give the phone back" I reached for the phone but of course I couldn't grab it because jungkook was a fucking giant compared to me.

"Oh my god, you call him daddy?" He laughed scrolling through the messages.

"I swear to god jeon jungkook if you don't hand me the phone back I'll drop kick your ass all the way over to china"

"Ok fine chill" he chuckled handing me the phone.

I snatched it feeling the blood in my veins boiling and my head fuming with anger.

"So this was the guy you left me eating alone for?"

"Hm" jungkook was starting to test me with how smug he was acting. "Now that I know about it, you're gonna have to tell me everything about him" he said smiling in triumph and patting my head.

I told him everything about taehyung because no matter how angry he made me he was still someone I trusted enough to tell him about taehyung. How we met, what we talked about but not what how he sometimes made me feel. That'd be too weird.

"Do you even know what he looks like?"

I showed him his profile picture knowing that he would react the same way I reacted.

"He's hot"

"Which makes him suspicious" he continued.

"Yup"

"But he did suggest video chatting with him once" I said trying to defend taehyung.

"Okay then do it"

"No, I'm not ready" I pouted looking down at my feet.

"Let me rephrase, do it or I'll decide what the next text you send him is"

"You wouldn't"

"Fine" he said snatching my phone and before I knew it he was already typing something in.

yurangel: do you live in a chicken farm?

yurangel: because u sure know how to raise a cock ;))

"JUNGKOOK WHAT THE FUCK"

He ran away yelling that I'll thank him later? This bitch? Did he just do that?

I am so not talking to taehyung ever again, this has to be the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me. The next time I see jungkook I'll literally kill him.

I went back inside feeling faint. I can't believe he just did thatーwhat the hell is wrong with him? Bestfriend my ass.

I felt a vibration in my pocket, it made my stomach drop fifty feet undergroundーI took my phone out praying that it wasn't who I thought it was.

1 new message from cantbetaemed.

cantbetaemed: so you opened the link huh? ;))

cantbetaemed: I can play the pick up line game too you know

yurangel: oh yeah?

cantbetaemed: if we were squirrels, I'd put my nuts in your hole

yurangel: lame

cantbetaemed: I never thought you were this naughty tho ;)

yurangel: only for daddy

"Yura go check table 9"

"I'm on it"

I closed my phone and went to take the orders. Why does everything feel so weird? Why didn't I tell him that it wasn't me who sent the pick up line?

I knew I liked the rush but I didn't think I liked it this muchー maybe I liked it alot but still.

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My shift ended late as usual and I was beyond tired. All I could think about was my bed.

I walked back home already starting to have doubts about going to school tomorrow. I definitely didn't want to face the consequences of working with kangjoon alone but what else was I supposed to do, fail?

"Fuck my life"I sighed as I was nearing my house.

As I got nearer I started to see a figure leaning on the fence which made me worry a bit. I was a little hesitant to walk closer but I eventually started to see that it was my dad which sadly made me more worried.

"Yura I'm sorry for lashing out last night" he said as he walked up to me, I flinched back a little out of fear which didn't faze my dad at all, not even one bit.

"It's okay" I said not even caring to fake a smile.

"Don't tell your mum that I was here, okay?"

"Sure" I couldn't help but roll my eyesーcan he be any less sincere?

"Study well" he said waving at meーI went inside my house pissed at the fact that he came all the way here to tell me to study. What the fuck?

I entered the living room after closing the door behind meーthe first thing i saw when I got in was the sight of my mum arguing with my grandma. I could tell that they didn't notice my presence yet.

"I can't take care of her, please let her stay with you" My mum said practically begging my grandma.

"What's going on?" I asked interrupting whatever show she was trying to pull off. Was she really trying to get rid of me? Did she hate me?

"I can't even look at you"

"After all I've done to raise you" she continued with disappointment lacing her now raspy voice.

"What are you talking about?" Could she have possibly read my texts?

She looked towards my grandma to start talking, whats wrong with her?

"I leave the house for two days and all this happens. My husband cheats on me and my daughter turns out to be a slut who has boys come over to our house?"

Was she serious?

"Boys?" I asked genuinely confused at her accusationsーshe got her phone out to show me a picture of kangjoon holding me by our door step. Where the hell did she even get this picture?

"This is definitely not what it looks like" How could she make all of these assumptions based on this one innocent picture? And even going as far as calling me a slut.

I was about to explain everything to her but she interrupted me, telling me to save it. "I already sent a text to your dad so he could deal with you"

"What dad?" I know I was about to take it too far but I couldn't help myself "Oh you mean the guy that cheated on you?"

"Please mum I'm already going through a lot and I don't have time to deal with her?" My mum plead.

My grandma nodded hesitantly already giving off the feeling that she doesn't want me to stay with her either.

"You can comeback after your trip to japan, I think that would be enough time for you to think about what you've done" she said as she went up the stairs.

"Just when I thought you couldn't be more horrible" I mumbled.

But it wasn't quiet enough since my mum stopped midway up the stairsーshe instantly turned around and gave me a death glare.

"What did you just say to me?"

"I said that you're horrible and pathetic" I wanted to stand my ground. I was so done with her treating me like shit when all I ever do is try to please her.

She paused so I took it as a chance to lash out on her and say everything.

"You've always taken out your anger on me and raised me with absolute disregard to how I felt and I just hate being your daughter more than anything in the world. You are the epitome of desperation, all you ever did was suck up to that asshole who happens to be dad. I hate the both of you so much sometimes and I'm so sick and tired of pretending to be okay. I hate you so fucking much" I cried. It felt as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I knew I fucked up but I'm glad I don't have to pretend anymore.

My mum went down the stairs and stopped in front of me.

A sharp strong slap was what came next. To say it hurt wouldn't describe how it felt. It stung, It really did but what she said next stung even more.

"You are a disgrace"

And so, I just ran upstairs and headed to my room. I didn't even lay down to have a good cry. I just let the tears poor while I was getting my bag out and desperately trying to stuff everything I could reach in there.

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this chapter was such a roller coaster my dudes