Jongin's POV

You're fired.

It kept repeating over and over again in my head. I've been walking for ages trying to clear my mind but it isn't helping. It's echoing through my brain and I just want it to stop. What was worse was that it came from my own father.

Disappointment was written all over his face. It's truly truly horrible when the person you looked up to when you were younger is greatly disappointed in you. He was my role model from the very start and I failed him. I'm a failure. I failed him.

What did I even do? Did I come to work way too early? Did I over do it sending my clients gifts every now and then hoping that it'll make them feel comfortable with our company Kim Co. What was it? I sighed getting lost into my thoughts. Our last conversation had nothing to deal with the company at all. I just asked him a question about my sexuality...

"Dad?" I called from the door way of his office. He was seemed occupided on his computer but stopped from what he was doing and looked at me with a smile.

"What is it son? Do you need more work to do since you always manage to finish up before the rest" he chuckled. I laughed and took a seat in front of him explaining the reason why I was there.

Lately I've been finding men more attractive to the eye and I've just been so confused as to why it's happening. Do girls just bore me now? I mean I've been with maybe two or three throughout my 21 years of living but in the end they never work out. I've worked at my dad's firm for a good two years and all that gets my attention is the guys. I never told my parents about it since they never actually have time for anything.

"So you're gay? Is that what you're saying?" my father asked as if it was that simple.

"No- I don't know. I mean am I? I just need help finding out who I am you know?" I sighed looking at my dad for any sign of help. He gave me an unreadable expression but immediately turned into a reassuring smile.

"I'll help you know where you belong son. Don't worry."

That's when it hit me. All this time I thought my dad would always love me for who I am but I was wrong. He just cares for himself and his godly reputation. I was too stuck up wanting to be like my father that I didn't realise he wasn't the same man I grew up with. No he left me when my mother left me. He was too afraid to let go of her that he went with her.

My mother was a strong and understanding woman. I saw the way she was kind to others and always helped no matter the case. She was also humble and gentle and a bit embarrassing. All the reasons why I loved her. Only if she were still here.

My mother wouldn't have ever done this. She loved me far too much but had to leave me. My dad just basically threw me out of his life as if I were nothing and I was too dumb to realise that.

I sat down on a bench not aware of my surroundings and just broke down. I didn't care if I got weird stares or sympathetic looks. I just need someone. I need someone to tell me it's okay even though I know well it isn't.

My anxiety is getting the best of me and I can't stop it. Everything feels like it's closing in on me. My father's words stabbing my back like daggers. It's not my fault I feel this way. I didn't choose to love boys more than woman. I can't describe why I feel this way. It just happened.

Much to my dismay I felt drops of water drop down onto my light grey suit. This only seemed to make me cry harder as my day was not going well at all. The world seemed to hate me. All for what? Having feelings? Being a human being? Living?

"Why me" I sobbed in my hands. I was about to break down again when all of a sudden the rain stopped hitting me. Clearly the sound of rain continued but what stopped me from getting wet?

I looked up and saw a light blue umbrella hovered over me. I looked over at the owner of this umbrella and saw a boy in a penguin onesi almost the same color as his umbrella. He smiled over at me and I couldn't help but smile back even with all these tears running down my face. Though with all the grey clouds forming around us and the sun no where to be seen his smile still seems to glow off of him. It's as if he was raditaing happiness all around him. Truly a beauty.

I wiped my eyes and sighed still with a grin on my face. It's like with one simple smile he made me forget why I was crying in the first place and made me....happy.

"Okay?" the boy with the penguin onesi asked. I cracked a smile at him.

"Okay."

Hey everyone your girl Lidia is here :P how was the first chapter? It's basically a filler from the intro but yeah let me know if you liked it in the comments please :) I have so many ideas and I'm just so excited x I hope you all enjoyed and will continue on

Bye babes xoxo ~ Lidia