The Story of The Crush: PART XIII

Okay, I'm okay.

Sunday was about to end just fine.

I felt contented.

I was able to eat delicious breakfast, play games with Jimin hyung before lunch, have a closure with Ara, and become the most responsible assistant leader I could ever be. It's pretty much one of the most productive Sundays that I've had if you ask me. The only thing missing is our late night talks.

I was about to text you a message, but you beat me to it first.

@kimhyunji
yo guk
Seen.

Have you ever experienced a blackout then suddenly the lights lit up when you least expected it but needed it? That's how I felt about you. You're the cause of my euphoria.

@jeon_gguk
oh hi ji

@kimhyunji
I have a question

@jeon_gguk
okay, go, ask me anything

@kimhyunji
do zombies exist?
Seen.

I didn't stop myself from giggling this time, because your cuteness really got me this time. It's unbearable.

@jeon_gguk
hahahaha
what movie did you watch?

@kimhyunji
but seriously, is it true?

@jeon_gguk
true what?
that zombies exist?

@kimhyunji
no

@kimhyunji
is it true that you
used me to make
ara jealous?
Seen.

I realized how distracted and overwhelmed I was with my own feelings, the thought of you finding about it never crossed my mind. I never considered how you would feel.

Now that you have discovered my past intention, it felt like the world has stopped for me.

On the bed, my body froze but my mind didn't. It keeps asking questions after questions. How are you behind the screen? Are you crying? Are you beating yourself for trusting someone like me? Is someone there to comfort you?

Because it's true.

It's true that I used you. I used the term'friendship' to cover it up. I took advantage of your kindness.

And I hate that it's true. I hate that I'm hurting you.

Should I lie? Would it be better to cover a lie with another lie?

@jeon_gguk
I'm sorry.

Okay, I'm okay.