Have you ever tried to do something before,but it never worked,no matter how many times you tried? Do you know,How many times I've tried to help a person? This specific Person,I've tried to help. Sure,They feel better I guess. For a day or two,if I'm lucky. They're never happy. No matter how hard I try to assist them in their quest to Beat depression,they just end up depressed and cutting again. I don't want my efforts to be useless ya know? I Want it so..Every talk I have with them,they don't Become depressed automatically 9 sentences into the Talk. I..Just don't wanna Deal with it anymore. I want them to be okay at best,That was all I wanted. They know that. I know that its their decision to be happy,not mine,I know they have the right to be sad,of course they do,But I'm not the only one helping them. Really,If i was the only one helping,I wouldn't be writing this. So many people want them alive,SO MANY PEOPLE! Why can't they just see that?! they always say that everyone would be better off if they were dead..no..we'd be better off if they're happy,okay,or alive. Either of those options.. I want this cycle to end..Its so tiring to see them Be depressed over and over..Is tiring the right word? No,It isn't,I don't even care anymore though. I wish they would understand the difference between us wanting them dead,and us wanting them to be alive. Its such a big difference..they don't fucking see it. They don't. what did I get myself into on this god forsaken fucked place that we call the internet? I don't want someone to die,knowing that they could've been alive so easily.. I can't give up,I can't! I know that,But for fucks sake I want to. I want to give up. What change would it make? So many people care about her already,But If I left,she'd just be more sad,as Narcissistic as that sounded anyways. She's been acting kinda sketchy,but If I even disrespect her a little bit right now,she might commit suicide and it might be all my fault. She's so annoying but if you attempt to break her and leave,You'd be throwing yourself into A pit of lava. Hell,she might die if I post this. I just want to let my thoughts out,is that bad? It probably is..Heh,I give up on holding back,I just need something to do. I don't care about any Grammar mistakes,by the way.