He followed me sheepishly to the car, climbing into the backseat beside me. I sat between him and Felix, clipping in my seatbelt in a huff. Daxx was fine with giving him a lift, considering we lived on the same road and everything.

"So you play football with Andy, Jimmy?" Felix asked devilishly, ignoring my glare, "I bet you really enjoyed the camping trip."

"Uh, yeah. It was fun." Jimmy answered awkwardly, looking from me to Felix.

"I bet. What was your favourite part?" Felix asked, clearly knowing what had gone down.

"Andy and I won an obstacle course. That was pretty fun, I guess." He couldn't sound more uncomfortable if he tried.

"I bet it was. I've also won many obstacle courses in my days- at college you tend to win a lot of them." Felix shrugged, smirking.

I choked on my spit, turning bright red- Jimmy coughed awkwardly, realising what Felix was hinting at. Luckily, Daxx and Connor didn't seem any the wiser to the elaborated metaphor Felix had conjured about male sex and obstacle courses. I wasn't sure whether the bus of homophobes was better or worse than this situation.

"I never did any obstacle courses at college." Daxx frowned, "Sounds like I missed out."

All three of us laughed at that, despite the awkwardness. Connor and Daxx were so clueless.

"Too busy with Connor." Felix waggled his eyebrows, making us all laugh again.

The two adults in the front seats were still beyond confused at our fun.

"So, are you staying over at Andy's tonight Felix?" Jimmy asked, making me turn to look at him with a confused expression. Why did he care?

"Unfortunately, no. I have a lecture first thing tomorrow." Felix sighed, "The downside to college life."

Jimmy nodded and I sent him a curious look, which he ignored. We pulled up outside of Jimmy's house and he climbed out, thanking Daxx and Connor for the lift. As we pulled away, Daxx tutted.

"I feel bad for the kid. Must be hard, your parents divorcing while you're trying to come out of the closet." Connor shook his head, making me look at him with wide eyes.

"Honey! Patient confidentiality!" Daxx exclaimed, absolutely mortified.

"What? You told me, I thought I was allowed to say!" Connor exclaimed, shock painted on his face.

"No! I tell you things that I'm not supposed to tell you, because I love you and like to share things with you." Daxx groaned, pulling into our driveway, "You have to promise not to say anything, Andy. I could lose my job over this."

"I promise." I nodded, my heart pounding.

I felt bad. I hadn't realised Jimmy was going through so much at home. I thought his parents were just distant, not separating. The other part of that was equally as shocking. Jimmy was trying to come out? I thought he was deep, deep into the closet. Like deeper than Narnia- a whole new, deeper level of closet-ness.

We all climbed out of the car and Felix basically dragged me upstairs. He rushed us into my room and closed the door, turning to look at me with wild eyes. I sighed and kicked off my shoes, collapsing onto my bed. It felt so good compared to the wooden floor of the cabin.

"You have to tell me everything. Right now." Felix demanded, jumping on me.

I groaned, rolling over and away from him. I didn't know where to start. I was still pretty confused about the whole situation myself. Now Connor had thrown the fact Jimmy was trying to come out of the closet into the mix, confusing me further.

"Earth to Andy Pandy!" Felix cooed, poking my side, "I'm glad you're okay. I was really worried all weekend."

"We made out. Nothing more. We have a lot in common- like so much more than I would have thought. Kissing him is better than kissing Will, better than anything on earth. I don't want to like him, because I'm scared I'll get hurt, but I really do. I like him so much." I spewed, making Felix gush.

"Fuck your brain! Follow your heart. If you like him, see where it goes?" Felix advised, "He doesn't seem that bad."

"I don't want to get my feelings hurt, though."

"Can't win the lottery if you don't buy a ticket." Felix shrugged, making me laugh, "You're going to have to put yourself out there eventually. You took a chance with opening up to me and look where it got you."

I nodded- he was right to some degree. A weird analogy, but he had a point.

"Now that you're potentially loved up, are you free to help me out? You know that guy? A mutual friend of ours is performing at a club, but I don't want to go alone." Felix begged, looking flushed and nervous.

"Awe! Felix is all nervous about his crush! Of course I'll wingman you." I beamed at him, "Show me photos."

Felix pulled out his phone and went to Instagram, pulling up photos of a guy. I gaped at the photos, taking Felix's phone and swiping through. I would never have guessed this guy would be Felix's type in a million years.

"I mean, I get it. He's hot in a 'talk medicine to me, baby' kind of way." I nodded, making Felix blush and swat me, "Just name a date and time and I'll be there."

"I'll text you the details." Felix turned to me with a sly grin, "How was the kiss? Like, properly, how was it?"

"I may have misled you. There were many, many kisses. Long story short, I pissed off some homophobes and they trashed my bed... so we shared his."

Felix audibly gasped, his eyes as wide as saucers.

"Details."

"He... Excited? If you get my drift. I panicked." I blushed, covering my face with my hands.

Felix screamed, gasping. He tackled me in a hug and I groaned, still blushing bright red. I can't believe that happened and that I told Felix. He was screaming about how innocent I was and I was grinning so much.

"We cuddled all night, too." I added on, making him scream again.

"Look at you! Andy has a crushhh!" He teased me, pinching my cheeks.

We spent pretty much all day chilling after that, just talking about guys and school. Felix was excited to come to his first football match of mine. I was excited to meet the mysterious guy that had captured Felix's attention. He eventually had to leave, due to having lectures in the morning and I drove him back to the dorms.

I had dinner and showered, climbing into bed in my boxers. It felt really good to be in my own bed after the lumpy cabin beds, but I felt odd. I missed the solid feeling of Jimmy's chest under my head as I slept. Maybe I could collect rocks from outside to recreate the feeling. Not really, obviously. I tossed and turned and eventually gave up, taking out a book to read.

A knock at the balcony door startled me and I squeaked, the book clattering to the floor as I jumped. I looked up and saw an amused Jimmy stood there, pointing to the locked door handle to the balcony. I sighed and walked over, my heart pounding at the scare he had caused me. Okay, maybe it was pounding because a guy I was crushing on was stood at my balcony door.

I slipped out of bed and opened the door, letting him step inside before closing it. I looked up at him silently, wondering what he was doing here. I had just spent all weekend with him- I thought he'd be sick of me by now.

"I couldn't sleep." He admitted, his arms circling around my waist naturally, "I missed you."

I smiled and shook my head. How did he miss me? I had seen him only a few hours ago. What did he want to do? Cuddle me? It was one thing sharing a bed because we had to and a whole new thing to share my bed willingly at home. What if Daxx or Connor walked in? I had a million questions buzzing around my head, all of them indicating that I should probably say no.

"Please?" He asked, looking from me to the bed with pleading eyes.

"I don't think so, Jimmy. Can we talk?" I asked, biting my lip.

He nodded silently and sat on the edge of the bed, watching me sit cross legged against the pillows. I needed some clarity on what was going on before I went any further. I know Felix had basically said to just roll with it, but I needed to talk a little about what was going on.

"I like you." I admitted, making Jimmy's smile stretch wide, "I like you a lot and that's what's scary to me. I'm going away soon- so are you, probably. You're in the closet; I'm a walking homophobe target. I just don't want to get my feelings hurt, you know?"

"Not a lot of what you just said made any sense, but I like you a lot too." Jimmy sighed, taking my hand gently, "I've started to go to music therapy with Daxx. It'll probably be a bit awkward, now that we're... involved, in some sort of way. What I'm trying to say is that I am working through it. I've started working through it because I want to be with you. Seeing you with another guy, it reminded me that I can't be mad about you living your life, when all I'm doing is sitting back and watching the world pass by. I was too scared to be me, but now I'm determined."

My mouth stretched into an o shape at that. He was doing it for me? I bit my lip, nervous at that. What if it back fired and he ended up losing everything because he came out? Then he would blame me- associate me with everything going wrong. I voiced as much to him and he sent me a weak smile, shaking his head.

"My parents already hate me and I hate my 'friends'. The only thing I could possibly lose is an opportunity to be with you."

My heart softened and I pulled him to me, giving him a cuddle. He wrapped around me and breathed in deeply, letting out what sounded like a lot of trapped stress. I ran my fingers through his hair, comforting him as best as I could. He had been going through a lot recently and me being a bit of a dick wasn't helping. 

"Can I stay? Just for a while?" He asked, his voice small.

I simply nodded this time and he slipped under the covers eagerly, getting comfortable. I smiled, shaking my head at his eagerness, and followed suit. He immediately pulled me onto his chest, wrapping his arms around me. 

"You smell good." He mumbled, his voice suddenly filled with exhaustion.

"Thanks." I blushed, getting comfortable on his solid chest.

It wasn't long until I was falling fast asleep, feeling safe in his arms. I could get used to this, if I wasn't careful. I still wasn't one hundred percent confident going into this, but if I was then it wouldn't be worth it, would it? It's the unknown that makes things fun, I guess. Or at least that's what I'm telling myself to feel better about this entire situation.