I woke up to soft kisses on my neck, harsh light dancing across the room as my eyes fluttered open. I blinked the sleep away, looking up at Jimmy. I had fallen asleep on his chest, his arms wrapped tightly around me in a warm embrace. So it wasn't a dream?

"Morning, sunshine." His raspy voice graced my ears, making my toes curl.

"Morning." I blushed, his hand pushing the hair out of my eyes.

"Do I get a morning kiss?" He flirted, smiling cheekily.

I rolled my eyes at him, pecking his lips softly. He moaned dramatically and I pulled away instantly, bright red with embarrassment. He grinned at me.

"Sorry, that's just how it makes me feel." Jimmy shrugged, pulling me closer to him, "It feels amazing. I never wanna stop."

I continued to blush. I wasn't sure what to say, but I agreed with him completely. When I kissed Will it did not feel like this. Kissing Will was good, don't get me wrong, but this felt... right. It feels like we're the only two people on earth when I kiss Jimmy. It's perfection. Except for the fact we're not alone. In fact, we're at a camp surrounded by violent homophobes.

One look at Jimmy and I didn't seem to care anymore. I let a smile blossom on my face and his face softened, flipping us over. He showered me with soft kisses before letting his lips find mine, making out with me against the bed once again. His tongue explored my mouth and my hands explored him, his hips grinding against me slightly. I moaned into his mouth, tugging at his braids. 

"You just look so good." Jimmy breathed, pulling away and gesturing to my whole body.

"Have you seen yourself, Jimmy?" I asked rhetorically, letting my eyes rake over his perfect torso.

"Say my name again. I like it." He teased, sitting up and pulling me onto his lap so I was straddling him like last night.

I blushed and he grinned widely, crashing his lips down on mine again. He seemed to be experimenting with ways to make me blush; How strange. He had been flirting with me for a while, but I hadn't expected this to happen. I wasn't mad at it, but I was wary.

"Stop. I need to shower." I groaned, pulling away as his lips made their way to my neck.

"I guess I can't join you?" He teased, hugging my waist.

"Definitely not. Don't abuse the broken lock." I warned, getting off the bed and grabbing some clothes.

"I would never." He promised, stretching out on the bed, "Showering together would save time and water, though."

"I have a feeling you wouldn't want to just shower." I shook my head, disappearing into the bathroom as he barked a laugh.

I looked at myself in the mirror and frowned, stepping closer. He had left a hickey! I abandoned my clothes in the bathroom and flung the door open again, watching as his head whipped over to look at me in surprise.

"Change your mind that fast?" He asked cockily, smirking.

"You left a hickey!" I yelled, pointing to my neck.

"Yes? And?" He frowned.

"Those guys are idiots, but they're not that dumb. I didn't have a hickey yesterday and after sharing a cabin with you, I show up with a hickey? You do the maths."

"That may be a problem, you're right."

I shook my head at him, slamming the bathroom door behind me. Did he not think before he did that? He had put himself in danger; what if they figured it out? It wasn't exactly subtle, it was bright purple! It looked like a vampire had attacked my neck. I started freaking out and a knock sounded on the door.

"Can I come in?" Jimmy's voice sounded soft, probably scared I was freaking out. Which I was.

I opened the door and he stepped into the bathroom, looking at me staring at the hickey in the mirror. He silently wrapped his arms around my waist from behind, looking at us in the mirror as he rested his head on my shoulder. He kissed the mark softly.

"It'll be fine, I promise. Plus, it looks good on you. I like it there." Jimmy whispered into my ear, holding me.

My breathing returned to normal gradually and I nodded. We were just going to have to hope for the best- it wasn't like I carried concealer with me everywhere I went. He placed one more kiss on my shoulder before he stepped out of the bathroom again, letting me shower and get dressed.

He took his own shower afterwards and I made my way to the cafeteria to grab breakfast. I was so glad we were leaving today. I missed everyone. Since there was no signal, I hadn't been able to text anyone and with everything that had happened, I really needed to talk to Felix.

I stepped into the cafeteria and just grabbed some granola and a banana, sitting down to eat. It was still pretty early, so I was one of the only people here yet. I enjoyed the relative quietness, eating my breakfast in peace. I was almost done when somebody smacked the back of my head hard, making me wince.

"Oops." The guys said, going to sit down with Jimmy.

I caught his eye and his eyes seemed to say 'I'm sorry', despite his face being stretched into a grin. It made me angry. I looked down at my bowl of cereal and angrily chewed. If only that guy knew that Jimmy had been excited for me in a very, very gay way last night. I would never tell, of course, but it made me feel a bit better.

The cafeteria was loud now, bustling with activity. Coach came in and clapped- which was his usual way to get our attention. Everyone quietened down and looked at him.

"You guys have worked so hard the last two days, a few of you have really shown true potential that I'll be happy to reflect on your university references. The less said about some of you, the better. The bus will be leaving in two hours, so make sure you eat up and pack up your stuff. We're meeting at reception to leave at ten."

With that, he was gone. I stood up with my bowl to put it away, but I failed to notice the leg stuck out from the table. I went crashing to the floor, the bowl I was holding smashing. I grunted as the wind was knocked out of me. I scrambled off the floor and stamped on the foot that was responsible, bringing my foot down as hard as humanly possible. Screaming and kicking.

He made a swipe at me, but I was too quick. I side stepped and sent a glare at the whole table, Jimmy looking at me pitifully. I shook my head and walked off, ignoring their laughs. I heard one of them ask Jimmy how I slept. He replied that I had spent the whole night on the floor, whining.

I scoffed and left the room, wanting to get the hell away from all of them. I hurried back to the cabin and threw everything I had brought into my bag, setting it by the door. I walked over to my disaster of a bed and tried to sort it out. The mattress was dry, at least. I picked up the sheets and walked outside, shaking them to try and get the dried shaving foam off of them. It didn't work, but at least I tried.

I folded them up and placed them at the end of my bed, grabbing my bag and leaving. I went and sat in a field near reception, leaning against my bag as a pillow. I felt confused. I knew us kissing wouldn't change how Jimmy would act in public, but of course it still upset me. My heart and my brain don't ever agree- my emotions aren't logical.

Did I regret last night? No. Did I want to continue whatever this is? Yes. Should I continue it? Absolutely not. Was I going to? I'm not sure.

I mostly just stared at the sky, lazily mulling things over, until my phone alerted me that it was almost ten. I stood up, brushing some stray grass off my legs and heading towards the bus. Everyone else was already seated- including Jimmy. I handed my key to Coach and boarded, ignoring Jimmy's gaze. I plugged my earphones in straight away, ignoring the heckles of my teammates.

"He's got a hickey on his neck!" Somebody suddenly exclaimed, the whole bus increasing ten times in volume as they stared at me.

I could hear them over my music, discussing it. Somebody told the group that their girlfriend had seen me looking at a phone number with the name 'Felix' written on it. They all jeered, thinking I was dating Felix and that he had left this. Suits me, I guess. I could see Jimmy looking a little gloomy in the corner of my eye, fitting in with the lads, but probably upset they thought I was getting it on with Felix. It didn't last long as he started forcibly laughing along with everyone as somebody insulted Felix. I grit my teeth.

"Yep. My boyfriend Felix left it on my neck during passionate, steamy, gay sex!" I yelled, "I really fucking enjoyed it. So shut up, unless you wan't more details?"

The whole bus went quiet. Everyone was gawking at me. I shoved my earphones back in, burning red. Coach walked back onto the bus, after having handed in our cabin keys, and we set off. They left me alone after that outburst.

I watched trees pass by in a blur, just wanting to get off and never come back. I hated everything about this situation. I hated Jimmy Wellot's eyes burning into the back of my head- I hated the hushed whispers discussing my relationship with Felix- I hated the consequences this outburst would have for me later next week.

I didn't breath again properly until we all piled off of the bus, being met by our friends and family. I searched the crowd and my eyes lit up as I saw everyone, rushing towards them. I dropped my bag and Felix jumped on me, tackling me to the ground with a hug.

"You're alive! I thought you'd died." Felix yelled, wrapping himself around me tightly.

I hugged him back equally as hard as Daxx collected my abandoned bag and laughed at us. Felix suddenly gasped and pointed to my neck discreetly, mouthing 'what the fuck' to me, so that Daxx and Connor didn't notice.

"You guys are so dramatic, Andy was only gone for two nights!" Connor chuckled, grinning at us.

If only he knew.

"Two nights feels like eternity when I'm apart from my Andy Pandy!" Felix joked, climbing up off of the floor with me, slinging an arm over my shoulder.

I heard a goon cough 'queer' and I kissed Felix's cheek to rub it in. Luckily Connor and Daxx hadn't heard as they were already climbing into the car- which was lucky. I paused, remembering Coach had asked to see me before I left. I jogged back over to him and Jimmy was also stood there.

"Your prize for winning yesterday, boys. Enjoy, you deserve it." Coach nodded, handing us each an envelope.

I waved goodbye to Coach before tearing it open, seeing a voucher for a local restaurant in there. I saw that Jimmy had the same. Everyone had gone by now- the only car left was Daxx's. I looked around once more and realised Jimmy's parents probably hadn't dropped him off either, that's why he was so late.

"Need a lift? We're going your way anyway." I offered, despite still being a little upset with him.

"Sure? I wouldn't want to intrude on you and your boyfriend's reunion. Pretty sure he wouldn't be too happy if he knew about last night." He grumbled, kicking the floor.

"Boyfriend? Oh, Felix? You believed that bullshit? I was saying that to get them off our backs." I frowned, shaking my head in disbelief.

"Could have fooled me with the spectacle you guys made, kissing cheeks and jumping into each others arms."

"Don't be so childish- we're best friends. Do you want a lift or not, because Daxx is waiting." I spat, shaking my head. He didn't get to be mad at me for pretending for a second when pretending is all he does. It hurts me too, but I don't take it out on him.

"Um, yes please." He nodded, "My parents are busy."

"Come on then."